~PgAL/PAIF Check In 08-15~

[littlelion]

Welcome! This is a weekly check in for those of us who are pregnant after loss and/or infertility. This check in is a safe place to share all things that come with being PgAL and/or PAIF, and to give support to others.

***Loss warnings are not necessary here.***

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~~~If You’re Just Joining in This Week~~~

What is your loss and/or IF history?

What is your EDD?

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How far along are you?

How are you doing physically? Emotionally?

Any appointments or milestones this week?

QOTW: If you could throw your own baby shower, what theme would you choose?

mrswillie PgAL / PAIF: 2 M/C, Clomid + TI, DS1 born/2 IUI's = 1 M/C and 1 ectopic, IVF#1 = freeze all, FET#1 = DS2 born/FET#2 / EDD: 12/3/16
trufflefries PgAL / PAIF: TTC for 2 years / Dx: PCOS / Tx: Metformin / Healthy pregnancy, DD born 11/13 / MMC 10/15 @10w5d / EDD: 12/4/16
requiressnacks PgAL / PAIF: TTC since October 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / IUI ended in MMC @ 8 weeks / 3rd IUI EDD: 12/5/16
babycowbell PAIF: First BFP on cycle 33 with IVF w/ ICSI / Dx: Unexplained IF, now assumed egg quality issues / EDD: 12/5/16
Becca PAIF: TTC since June 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / IUI #3 / EDD 12/6/16
mommytoava PgAL: Daughter passed away suddenly about 20 months ago in her sleep at age 3 ½ / EDD 12/6/16
mrsmatt PgAL/PAIF: 2 previous IVF transfers ended in m/c (one blighted ovum in February and one c/p in September of last year). EDD 12-11-16
hmr11913 PgAL: MMC @ 10 weeks / Dx Low Progesterone / Rainbow born 6/15 / EDD 12/13/16
littlelion PgAL: MC #1 @ 9wks 12/12 / #2 @ 6wks 12/13 / #3 @ 9wks 3/14 / #4 @ 9wks 9/15 / #5 ectopic @6wks 11/15 / Rainbow baby #1 12/1/14 / EDD: 12/15/16
lastnamewithheld PAIF: TTC since 2012 / H has MFI and I have PCOS / IVF EDD: 12/17/16
graychloham PgAL: TTC since August 2014 / MC @ 12 weeks in 2015 / EDD 12/17/16
tbonequeen13 PgAL: 2 MC's 5 wks and 1 loss @11.5 wks partial molar pregnancy. Rainbow baby #1 Dec'12. EDD 12/18
legalbeagle PgAL: MMC @ 8 weeks in December / One DS who is 3.5 / EDD: 12/23/16
crimpgirl PgAL: MMC @ 8 weeks in September 2014 / CP February 2016 / EDD 12/23/16
WineNChocolate PgAL: MC Feb 2014 / Feb 2016 / EDD: 12/25/16
sdgal PAIF: TTC since November 2014 / Dx: Unexplained IF / Clomid + IUI # 3 / EDD 12/25/16
cahistoryteacher PgAL / PAIF: TTC for 2+ years / 6 IUIs / MC @ 7 weeks / EDD: 12/25/16
Whitney PAIF: TTC for 31 months / Dx: Unexplained IF / EDD: 12/26/16
emilie PAIF: NTNP since March 2014 / TTC since June 2014 / Tx: polyp removals and 4 IUIs / EDD: 12/26
Sunny75 PAIF: TTC for 15 months / Dx: Unicornuate Uterus / Two failed IUIs / Hysteroscopy to remove a cyst / BFP on first natural cycle after that! / EDD: 12/28/16

[tbonequeen13]

How far along are you? 22 weeks

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Doing ok...despite the anterior placenta I've had a couple of "I'm 99% sure that was a kick" moments...I'm ready for them to be more regular though, they really are reassuring

Any appointments or milestones this week? nope

QOTW: If you could throw your own baby shower, what theme would you choose? I'm actually kind of glad there usually isn't a shower for 2nd time Moms...I am supremely uncomfortable being the center of attention and I had my BFF make our shower last time co-ed so DH had to share the spotlight with me...she wants to throw another one this time but I'm trying very hard to talk her out of it because we really don't need anything.

[lastnamewithheld]

How far along are you? 22 weeks!

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Great! I'm in the anterior placenta group with you, tbonequeen13, and I'm just finally beginning to feel him squirming around. It's really trippy and so very neat.

Any appointments or milestones this week? nothing this week. In fact, nothing for the rest of the month!

QOTW: If you could throw your own baby shower, what theme would you choose? N/A. I don't want a baby shower! I keep sending grumpy cat "NO" memes to my BFF when she brings it up.

[tbonequeen13]

lastnamewithheld, the funny thing is, even with the AP, I'm pretty sure I'm feeling this kid earlier than I did DD#1...not consistently, but I really don't think DD#1 was kicking this early....makes me wonder what it'd be like without the AP

[littlelion]

-22w/STM/Team blue
-I'm doing good these days. No more sciatic pain, back pain is better managed. The more frequent kicks and punches are reassuring. DH has already felt one too. Now it's a matter of staying calm if I realize he's been still for a while.
-No appts this week

I may not bask in being the center of attention, but I love planning themed parties. I would do a halloween theme but cutesy of course. My bday is 10-30 so I had lots of halloween bday bashes. And since I'm scheduled to deliver dec1st, having a late Oct shower works.

[mommytoava]

How far along are you? 24w

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Physically okay, baby is starting to become more active which is reassuring. Emotionally, I just want to get August over with. Little things are upsetting me and there are so many reminders this time of year of lasts. I hate this.

Any appointments or milestones this week? None this week

QOTW: If you could throw your own baby shower, what theme would you choose? Probably a garden theme since that's what we're doing with the nursery. I know my mom is planning something but no idea when it is.

[WineNChocolate]

How far along are you? 21w2d

Physically and Emotionally? Emotionally to be honest all over the place. I go from really happy/content to in a pretty shitty mood/depressed. Its like I can see that I ma in a funk and I am screaming in the back of my head to snap out of it. I was working out yesterday and doing my squats which I have always done. I try and do them slowly and properly with breathing to not strain anything and in my head popped..what if your water broke early cause you doing this. Then I went to my boobs not being as full as they used to be maybe that is a sign things are NOT good. I had to push through my workout and get myself out of that. I also have been fighting the what to do with two? How to give enough attention? How to be a good mom to both? How am I going to do this! I try and talk to DH he is understanding but I don't think he really gets it. All my friends well they don't have kids or just not the right person to talk about it too...so it feels lonely at times.

Any Appointment/Milestones this week? None for me this week. I have one next week...just a regular old check up. I think I am due some blood here soon actually. I hope I haven't missed it! Crap have to look when I get home. Milestones, I guess just getting passed halfway point is a miracle!

QoTW: If you could throw your own baby shower, what theme would you choose? DR. WHO! Okay big dork alert so the new nursery is Dr. Who themed and I am getting a lil crazy but its going to be AWESOME! DH and I are big Dr. who fans like all the way back to watching the 70s lol. I have his name being made with a Dr. Who theme right now and well I have ordered art work for his walls and there are plans to make his armoire look like the Tardis...why..because we are kind of crazy...

Speaking of baby showers my office asked if I would like one and I felt awkward saying like yeah I would like one! Like ummm hey give me your money and stuff. But it would be helpful for boys things and well the essentials such as diapers. How do I say I want one without saying I want one.

tbonequeen13, lol.. Well first yes to the no real kicks and boo on anterior placenta..thats my world. I know when he has kicked something important in the lower regions lol cause of the pain but other than that..no great moments. I would ask your friend to make it more like a appz and drinks thing maybe not a whole shindig. Get the friends/family together if you will and just ask for like everyones favorite baby book. OR you could just do Diaper party. I don't really need a second one either but people are wanting to throw one...so I will just ask for it to be small. NO cake and all that stuff no decorations just you know get together.

lastnamewithheld, LOL with the grumpy cat memes...if she anything like my best friend it would happen anyway and it would be a surprise probably at the worst time. Like that one day you just really didn't give a shit on how you look so you just put on like the worst yoga pants and T-shirt ever, come home and surprise. lol. On a serious note, do you not need any baby things is that why you dont' want one?

littlelion, Ugh do you want my sciatic pain and pelvic ligament issues. I wish mine would find somewhere else to go! Oh hallowed bday bashes are the best. I have a friend who is 10/30 and she never wanted costume parties and I always had to find a way to do something for her on the side. I always wanted to go out for Halloween all dressed up like everyone else. So her birthdays didn't have a lot of people there it was always awkward. WHO doesn't want to celebrate Halloween.

mommytoava, Oh garden theme could be really cute for a baby shower and a nursery! Would love to see what you come up with. I hope that September brings on some easier times for you!

[Winnifred]

How far along are you? 23 + 2

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Doing good physically, still dealing with heartburn and being tired, but not that big of a deal. Emotionally doing pretty good. I find myself panicking if I haven't felt her move (like right now), and then I'll start noticing all kinds of movements that calm me down (baby - take that as your cue to start kicking me, ok?).

Any appointments or milestones this week? Regular OB check up today

QOTW: I agree with others that I hate being the center of attention, I'd much rather throw a shower for someone than be the guest of honor. My favorite themes right now would be fall or floral.

[tbonequeen13]

littlelion, Halloween is my favorite holiday! A Halloween themed shower would be AWESOME!

mommytoava, T&Ps that this month passes quickly and as uneventfully as possible for you- I cannot imagine how difficult it is for you

WineNChocolate, I have those worries and fears about having 2 as well...I think it's normal...I'm sure just like figuring out how to care for a newborn the first time, we'll just do the best we can until we get the hang of things and while I'm sure there will be rough days, it will all work out ok in the end

Winnifred, i worry when baby has a quiet spell too..can't wait till the movements are more regular

[requiressnacks]

tbonequeen13, I agree that being the center of attention is weird. I think I'm still feeling weird from my wedding shower.
lastnamewithheld, LOL at grumpy cat memes.
littlelion, glad your back pain is better
WineNChocolate, I REALLY don't want a work shower. I hope they don't try to surprise me. and LOL at Dr. Who theme!
Winnifred, +1 for HB! I also enjoy throwing showers/parties. Way more fun.


How far along are you? 24 weeks

How are you doing physically? Emotionally? Emotionally, doing well now that I feel the babies consistently. Physically, I feel like I'm falling apart. There must have been a growth spurt this week because all of a sudden I feel GIGANTIC and all my parts hurt.

Any appointments or milestones this week? Growth Scan and OB appointment on Thursday!

QOTW: If you could throw your own baby shower, what theme would you choose? I would choose a Friday night happy hour/cocktail party. I figure that would be something I would want to attend and everything is better with a few drinks.

[Deleted]

How far along are you? 20w4d

How are you doing physically/emotionally? Pretty good, starting to feel more and more movement. DH felt her move a little bit too. I'm starting to worry about going starting up work this week students. I'm exhausted already and we've just had meetings, plus my classroom is quite warm. I just don't want to over do it.

Appointments/milestones: no appointments but I've felt more legit movement and nudges. I think I've felt some real kicks maybe once or twice a week.

QOTW: I don't really want a theme. I loathe baby shower games so when my friends asked I asked for just a simple brunch or luncheon with friends. We're all teachers and deal enough with themes all day so a nice grown up brunch is nice.