PGAL/PAIF Check-In 8/15/16 - 8/21/16

[caer]

Pregnant After Loss / Pregnant After Infertility (PGAL/PAIF) check-in is posted once a week (generally on a Monday) for those of us who have unfortunately experienced a loss or a history of infertility and are now pregnant. Anyone who participates may start the thread each week.

Out of respect to all the ladies here, please add a trigger warning or spoiler if you decide to talk about any living children.

PGAL Mantras:

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{PGAL Mantras}
Today I am pregnant and I love my baby.

I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise.

My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c.

Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!

Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot jinx your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!

There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (God forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive"

How far along are you?

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally?

Any upcoming appointments or tests?

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves:

GTKY: Football season is almost here. Are you a football fan? If so, what is your team?

[mosdub]

Thanks for starting caer

How far along are you? 7w5d

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally? Physically the nausea is getting worse. I've been having consistent evening nausea but it's creeping into lunch and late morning. So far I haven't thrown up, but I fight the sensation pretty hard. Emotionally I'm stable but my anxiety about a miscarriage is picking up every day I get closer to this ultrasound. I really really want to see a healthy baby in there. I really don't want to tell all of my friends and parents about another loss. I just want a happy story to tell. I want to see this pregnancy go on to March without complications.

Any upcoming appointments or tests? Ultrasound on Monday. I'm literally counting the days.

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves: I've been googling chances of miscarriage by week, and chances of missed miscarriage by week. I'm sure this isn't healthy to do, but the stats are somewhat reassuring...sometimes.

GTKY: Football season is almost here. Are you a football fan? If so, what is your team? Not a football fan. The only time I watch is on Thanksgiving if it's on, and I would route for the Packers (though not passionately).

[glb30]

Hi, all!

How far along are you? 8w3d

How are you doing? I'm feeling pretty good physically and I'm starting to think this baby might actually happen- which then scares me when I realize it. I'll be really happy when first tri is over.

Upcoming Appointments: I have one on 8/25.

Updates: I had an ultrasound yesterday. The ultrasound was great, which is why emotionally I'm okay today!

GTKY: I watch a lot more of it than I mean to. My H is a big OSU fan. We watch the Bears, and Browns too. I usually get pretty into my fantasy football team.

[kinipela7]

How far along are you? 9 weeks

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally? Tired as hell. Emotionally thought I'd be better since we heard a nice heartbeat but no, loss brain is back at it again and I have to wait 3 more weeks for another appt

Any upcoming appointments or tests?
Sept 6th - regular OB appt
Sept 8th - NT scan
Originally both appointments were on the same day but I changed my OB appt to be before the scan because I didn't want to show up to the scan and get bad news

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves:

GTKY: Football season is almost here. Are you a football fan? If so, what is your team?

I hate FB. It's sooo long and total waste of a day IMO

[glb30]

ugaqueencity i hope the 29th comes quickly. Yay for almost being at the end of first tri!

mosdub the pre U/S anxiety is the worst. I have everything crossed for your ultrasound on Monday. I try and remind myself that everything has been going well. I also sometimes try to look at myself like it is someone else...(If that makes sense...)

[mosdub]

Aug 16, 2016 14:02:04 GMT -5 glb30 said:

mosdub the pre U/S anxiety is the worst. I have everything crossed for your ultrasound on Monday. I try and remind myself that everything has been going well. I also sometimes try to look at myself like it is someone else...(If that makes sense...)

(I don't know why I can't delete that little smiley so I'm leaving it haha) 

Thanks, that was helpful to hear and I do know what you mean.  I know I have no real reason to worry yet, but I keep imagining the ultrasound and the doctor not finding the heartbeat.  I seriously want to hide my face at the ultrasound but I know that will make me look like a crazy person. 

[caer]

I'm glad you're doing ok ugaqueencity.

(((Hugs))) mosdub. I agree that the wait for the ultrasound is the hardest. I was shaking and crying during my first scan - to the point where they brought me tissues and said something like "I'm not sure you'll be able to see since you're shaking so hard" - so whatever you do, I'm sure it can't be worse than me! This is such emotionally difficult stuff. I hope the next days pass quickly.

I'm so happy for your good scan glb30!

Hope the next few weeks pass quickly to your next appointment kinipela7.

[caer]

How far along are you? I have no idea! I'm 7w4d by LMP, 7w6d by trigger, 8w2d by today's ultrasound. I have my OB appointment in a couple of weeks so they'll tell me then.

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally? Physically, I'm still sick but the meds have made it more bearable. I had a tough PGAL day yesterday, worrying about my ultrasound this morning, but all went well. With my loss, the baby stopped growing at 8w3d so we're not quite past that milestone yet, and I know I have some tough days ahead.

Any upcoming appointments or tests? OB appointment on Aug. 29.

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves: Baby looked good this morning! Measuring ahead and with a heartbeat of 171!

GTKY: Football season is almost here. Are you a football fan? If so, what is your team?
I love football (all sports, really) and also love fantasy football. I'm an Eagles fan. I also follow Penn State.

[callmeKD]

Aug 16, 2016 14:09:22 GMT -5 mosdub said:

Aug 16, 2016 14:02:04 GMT -5 glb30 said:

mosdub the pre U/S anxiety is the worst. I have everything crossed for your ultrasound on Monday. I try and remind myself that everything has been going well. I also sometimes try to look at myself like it is someone else...(If that makes sense...)

(I don't know why I can't delete that little smiley so I'm leaving it haha) 

Thanks, that was helpful to hear and I do know what you mean.  I know I have no real reason to worry yet, but I keep imagining the ultrasound and the doctor not finding the heartbeat.  I seriously want to hide my face at the ultrasound but I know that will make me look like a crazy person. 

this is also my greatest fear. based exclusively off of my loss earlier this year. it's so so hard to think it might be good news and so easy to think the worst. 

[callmeKD]

How far along are you? 11w/3d

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally? Physically - definitely feeling better. still tired, sometimes nausea but much better overall. Emotionally - still worrying daily (okay hourly) that something is going to go wrong.

Any upcoming appointments or tests? Appt for genetic counseling & U/S the end of next week with the MFM.

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves: nothing right now. trying to figure out if we can fit 3 car seats in the back of my vehicle.

GTKY: Football season is almost here. Are you a football fan? If so, what is your team? I'm not a football fan. my H is a huge New England sports fan (he was born in MA). so we are a Patriots household.

[ladytiffany24]

How far along are you? 7w5d

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally? Physically, pretty crappy. The nausea is real. And the exhaustion is overwhelming. Emotionally, I'm okay. Still riding somewhat of a high from last week's ultrasound. But then I think about how long until my next appt (see below) and it freaks me out. Also, we'll be with my mom, brother, sister, her husband and 2 nieces this weekend and we'll finally be telling all of them. H doesn't want to make it a huge deal "just in case." This made me pull back on my plans for DD to wear her Big Sister shirt. Almost as if telling them like this will "jinx" me. Ugh. We'll see what I decide to do come Friday.

Any upcoming appointments or tests? Not until September 12th

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves: Also, I'm a little worried about what my mom's reaction will be. She's a bit of a drama queen and will probably be like, "why did it take you so long to tell me. I'm hurt." *rolls eyes* I just want her to be happy for me.


GTKY: Football season is almost here. Are you a football fan? If so, what is your team?
I got really excited to get in here and answer this question, so that's how excited I am for football season! I am a DIEHARD Cleveland Browns fan (you can all feel bad for me, haha). I bleed orange and brown during football season, no matter how crappy they are. As for college, I've never really gotten into it. H is a huge FSU Seminoles fan (he's alumni) so I've kind of adopted them as my team but I just don't care much.

I'm also HUGE into a fantasy football. I'm usually in at least 3 leagues every year. The one I get most into is one that I'm in with a big group of guys from work (including my H). I was the champ 2 years ago and 2nd place last year. It hurts H's pride a little.

[caer]

I hope your reveal goes smoothly and that your mom responds in a reasonable manner ladytiffany24. And I LOVE your enthusiasm about football! I'm also a big fantasy fan, although not nearly as skilled as you.

[glb30]

mosdub at my second one/after the first heartbeat was on the low side- I actually closed my eyes. I didn't want to try and interpret the ultrasound tech's face- which I did at the first one!

caer yay on a good ultrasound! Sounds like baby is measuring ahead regardless of the date!

ladytiffany24 now I know what the CLE is for. My whole family is from Cleveland so I know way too much about Cleveland sports. I've seen that documentary that came out about Cleveland before the NBA finals THREE times.

[ladytiffany24]

glb30 so you can understand my pain and also the pure excitement from the Cavs championship!

[skk]

How far along are you?  8w5d

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally?  I've had bouts of nausea and fatigue, but it hasn't been too bad overall.  Emotionally it's still a roller coaster.  I've had a couple of dreams about losing this baby and I hate that they are so vivid.

Any upcoming appointments or tests?  The RE cleared me to my OB, so I'll see her on 8/18.

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves:  No updates yet.  Last appointment was a week ago and all looked good at the time.

GTKY: Football season is almost here. Are you a football fan? If so, what is your team? I love football season!  I cheer for my alma mater (U of Hawaii) even though they're not that great, but don't have huge loyalties to any one NFL team. 

[glb30]

Welcome skk! The vivid dreams are so scary. I hope you appointment on 8/18 brings you some peace of mind.

[caer]

Welcome skk! I'm so sorry about the dreams. I've had similar dreams and I know how difficult it can be. (((Hugs)))

I'm so sorry for your loss renegadewhit. Sending you the biggest (((hugs))).

[skk]

renegadewhit I'm so sorry for the loss of your pup. Sending you lots of hugs.

[mosdub]

renegadewhit I'm so sorry losing a pet is so hard. I felt like it took me so long before I could even talk about my late pup without crying. Hugs