TTCAL 9.27.16

[akraus2015]

The Trying to Conceive After a Loss thread is posted once a week (generally on Tuesday) for those of us who have unfortunately experienced a loss. No matter what type of loss you've experienced, from miscarriage to stillbirth to the loss of a child, it is heartbreaking. This thread is to help us commiserate, get support, and to try to navigate trying to conceive, after a loss, every week.


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**If this is your first check-in, and you would like to provide a gtky loss history intro go for it. If not, no worries!**


How are you doing?


Status (TTA, TTC, Benched):


Diagnosis (if applicable):


Updates/questions:



Debbie downer (a place to vent):



QOTW: Do you have any morning rituals that you love?  I'm trying to become more of a morning person!

[akraus2015]

How are you doing? I'm doing well today. Tired, but that's normal these days!

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): TTC, 1DPO on IUI #2

Diagnosis (if applicable): MTHFR, RPL, Secondary IF

Updates/questions: Nada. IUI was yesterday. The wait begins.

Debbie downer (a place to vent): Nada.

QOTW: Do you have any morning rituals that you love? I'm trying to become more of a morning person! Asking the question because I need something that makes me want to wake up in the morning. Right now my only morning ritual is repeatedly hitting snooze while snuggling LouDog.

[rosey06]

How are you doing? Alittle annoyed but I shouldn't be


Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): we jumped off the bench and moved to ttc


Diagnosis (if applicable): miscarriage


Updates/questions: we went back and forth on waiting for the first period before ttc again. Usual ovulation CDs came and went so I tried an opk sat.. negative. Next day(sun).. positive. Monday, no temp rise and back to negative. And I'm not convinced today's temp was a real rise. I guess a couple more days will tell me.
So my body is either playing games, which it's never done before so I blame the miscarriage. OR I picked up those OPKs at the perfect time.


Debbie downer (a place to vent): I guess just that I wish this cycle was over already.


QOTW: Do you have any morning rituals that you love? Not really.

[akraus2015]

Sept 27, 2016 16:43:58 GMT -5 rosey06 said:

How are you doing? Alittle annoyed but I shouldn't be


Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): we jumped off the bench and moved to ttc


Diagnosis (if applicable): miscarriage


Updates/questions: we went back and forth on waiting for the first period before ttc again. Usual ovulation CDs came and went so I tried an opk sat.. negative. Next day(sun).. positive. Monday, no temp rise and back to negative. And I'm not convinced today's temp was a real rise. I guess a couple more days will tell me.
So my body is either playing games, which it's never done before so I blame the miscarriage. OR I picked up those OPKs at the perfect time.


Debbie downer (a place to vent): I guess just that I wish this cycle was over already.


QOTW: Do you have any morning rituals that you love? Not really.

My cycles got pretty wonky after my first miscarriage.  I think it took about 6 weeks or so for my period to return, and then I had a really long cycle, followed by some shorter ones.  I'm not sure if that's why my doctor told us to wait a full cycle to try again or not.

[rosey06]

Sept 27, 2016 16:48:48 GMT -5 akraus2015 said:

Sept 27, 2016 16:43:58 GMT -5 rosey06 said:

How are you doing? Alittle annoyed but I shouldn't be


Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): we jumped off the bench and moved to ttc


Diagnosis (if applicable): miscarriage


Updates/questions: we went back and forth on waiting for the first period before ttc again. Usual ovulation CDs came and went so I tried an opk sat.. negative. Next day(sun).. positive. Monday, no temp rise and back to negative. And I'm not convinced today's temp was a real rise. I guess a couple more days will tell me.
So my body is either playing games, which it's never done before so I blame the miscarriage. OR I picked up those OPKs at the perfect time.


Debbie downer (a place to vent): I guess just that I wish this cycle was over already.


QOTW: Do you have any morning rituals that you love? Not really.

My cycles got pretty wonky after my first miscarriage.  I think it took about 6 weeks or so for my period to return, and then I had a really long cycle, followed by some shorter ones.  I'm not sure if that's why my doctor told us to wait a full cycle to try again or not.

This is actually what I've fully expected to happen.. atleast 6 wks etc. and if I did/do ovulate this week, it'll be exactly 6 wks by the time the cycle ends.

[wannabmama]

FX akraus2015 !!!

rosey06 I hope your body gets its act together!!

How are you doing? Ok, hopeful
Status: IVF #2 underway
Diagnosis: old eggs, crummy swimmers
Updates/questions: nada
Debbie downer: trying to stay positive; doing my first acupuncture today and hoping that helps keep me calm
QOTW: I used to be a big morning person but recently its been really hard to get up. Once I get up, I make coffee and watch the news for a few minutes while snuggling with the pups on the couch, which is nice. Back when I commuted I got up and out the door in 30 min., so this extra time to linger a bit is really nice.

[PepperPottsJ]

akraus2015, thank you for starting. I have everything crossed for you!!
rosey06, be annoyed, feel your feels it is your right!!! I am so sorry your body isnt moving as fast as you would like. I think I was almost 7 weeks before my period came back, hugs!
wannabmama, My first acupuncture treatment for this cycle is this afternoon I really hope you enjoy it and have everything crossed for you!

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How are you doing? OK-ish, my anxiety is in hyper-drive, which may be whats making me so tired.
Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): TTC, IVF #1 in progress
Diagnosis (if applicable): MTHFR, Fibroids, Old as dirt
Updates/questions: Nuttin
Debbie downer (a place to vent): I'm just so tired
QOTW: Do you have any morning rituals that you love? I'm trying to become more of a morning person! I am so not a morning person, i hate getting out of bed when I am nice and cozy

[akraus2015]

wannabmama , how was acupuncture?

[wannabmama]

Sept 28, 2016 11:13:41 GMT -5 akraus2015 said:

wannabmama , how was acupuncture?

I just got out and I loved it!!
She gave me some diet and supplement ideas but wasn't pushy or annoying.
The actual treatment was crazy...she put in the needles and left me for 40 min and I thought it would be torture laying there still for so long with needles in all these spots. But, I fell deep asleep and thought I was on a beach laying in the sun. I was legitimately startled to wake up in the room. If for nothing else, I'll do it just to feel this relaxed once a week as long as I can afford it.

[akraus2015]

Sept 28, 2016 11:41:55 GMT -5 wannabmama said:

Sept 28, 2016 11:13:41 GMT -5 akraus2015 said:

wannabmama , how was acupuncture?

I just got out and I loved it!!
She gave me some diet and supplement ideas but wasn't pushy or annoying.
The actual treatment was crazy...she put in the needles and left me for 40 min and I thought it would be torture laying there still for so long with needles in all these spots. But, I fell deep asleep and thought I was on a beach laying in the sun. I was legitimately startled to wake up in the room. If for nothing else, I'll do it just to feel this relaxed once a week as long as I can afford it.

I'm so glad it went well!  I tried it one time and I was wayyy to anxious to relax and enjoy it.  I was freaked out that I had to lay so still, and the needles made me itchy.  If this round of IUI is a bust I may try it one more time.  There's a place right by my office that offers services and you pay what you are able, which I really appreciate.

[jayhawk84]

How are you doing? super emotional today


Status (TTA, TTC, Benched):TTC, in the TWW currently


Updates/questions:none really

Debbie downer (a place to vent): my OPP situation at work has been really tough for me. I feel like I cannot escape this constant reminder of pregnancy. It does not help that everyone is constantly oohing and aahing over her and asking how she is doing, when she's due, etc. I don't want to be a bitter Betty about it all but it is just painful right now.


QOTW: Do you have any morning rituals that you love? I'm trying to become more of a morning person! Coffee, coffee and more coffee. I am not a morning person at all.

[jayhawk84]

akraus2015,FX on this IUI for you! I hope the waiting passes quickly.
rosey06,I hope this cycle passes quickly for you.
wannabmama,FX on IVF #2! I hope that this is it for you!
PepperPottsJ,good luck with IVF- I hope that it is successful for you! I'm sorry that your anxiety is making you feel tired- anxiety is such a bitch.
@samrs22,I hope your time on the bench passes quickly- the waiting is so hard.

[wannabmama]

jayhawk84 I'm so sorry about the work OPP, that was the worst for me, too. I feel physical pain thinking about it sometimes. I remember sitting there at the office shower for two KU co-workers and someone asked if I'd hand out the gifts. Oh, yay. I grinned and beared it...and then promptly went out for drinks with friends as soon as it was over.

[rosey06]

I think I actually ovulated! FF gave me crosshairs this AM. So we did get -1 timing atleast. Glad I busted out those OPKs when I did.
So ovulation was just a few days late this first crazy cycle. Now just trying not to get my hopes up cause it never happens first shot with us anyway lol.

[doodler]

I'm back y'all. Hcg dropped. Fuck this. Fuuuuck this shit.

[PepperPottsJ]

doodler, every single hug to you. I am so sorry!

[diamondsndaisies]

How are you doing? lately, I have been thinking about them an awful lot. More than normal. I'm sure it has something to do with the 27th being the 1 yr anniversary. I got on the Molly Bear waiting list today

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): TTC

Diagnosis (if applicable): DVT blood clot in left groin. and TTTS cause of loss.

Updates/questions: I am currently in the strangest cycle to date. FF was wigging out and never could decide if I have ovulated or not. I went ahead and manually put in CH and now I am at DPO14 with a negative test and no sign of my period. I just don't know what to do with this anymore.

Debbie downer (a place to vent): I am pretty upset that it is now been almost a year and I am still not pregnant again. I am so angry that I am having to go through this process all over again. I should have 2 babies celebrating a birthday, not an (almost) empty house still trying to get pregnant. My BIL is getting married next august and I am a BM, if I don't get pregnant soon, I will probably be pg for the wedding and I don't want to have to deal with that either. Obviously if I am, I will just be happy to be pregnant but its just that nothing ever goes as planned. Ever. I am half tempted to bow out because I don't want them to have a perpetually pregnant me in their wedding pictures forever.
I am noticing I am going through a whole other phase of grief again. I had been doing pretty well the last several months and now that October is here again it is all coming back in full force.

QOTW: Do you have any morning rituals that you love? I'm trying to become more of a morning person! roll out of bed. Put clothes on. make coffee. take dd to school. go to work.

[rosey06]

I'm so sorry doodler

Sending hugs diamondsndaisies