Week of 10/23 PAIF/PAL check in

[teachermomtobe]

Tell us what's on your mind this week.

QOTW: Have you told anyone yet?

[teachermomtobe]

I am actually doing well this week IF brain-wise. I think the nausea is helping me feel like I'm actually pregnant. The days seem to be crawling by though and I am counting down to next Friday 11/4 when we have another ultrasound.

QOTW: I have told some of the people who knew about our IF since they have been so supportive through it all. Our families don't know yet and I'm hoping we can wait until Thanksgiving so we can tell them in person.

[huskermom]

DH and I are both pretty nervous still and kind of in a waiting for it to end funk. It's the half birthday of our friends angel today and I think that's playing into it as well. I'm hoping once we start telling more people it will help us get excited because of their excitement.

QOTW: I've told a few good friends who knew I was testing, my former BMB, and my friend who experienced a stillbirth in April. We're debating whether we'll tell our parents before our ultrasound on Nov 18 or not.

[cateyes]

I am in a middle ground. Now that we have seen the heartbeat I am feeling better but l still have close to no symptoms except sensitive boobs and so I am always waiting for the bad news to come. I can't wait for the next US on 11/4. We found a new OB who seems to understand our anxiety and will allow me to have a sneak peak at appointments if needed.

QOTW-We decided to tell our parents last weekend due to wanting them to share in our happiness. They didn't get that with our loss because we were pregnant for such a short time, they only heard about it after the loss. I have also told a few clode friends and some work people because they have been covering court and things during all our doctors appointments and traveling so they knew what was up. We will announce to the "world" at Thanksgiving.

[teachermomtobe]

cateyes, glad you found a new OB who is more understanding. I love that we are ultrasound day twins again on 11/4!

[teachermomtobe]

I'm using Crinone so there is some leaking. Anytime it happens I immediately rush to the bathroom to see if I'm bleeding. I guess that is my IF brain acting up.

[cateyes]

Oct 23, 2016 14:08:00 GMT -5 teachermomtobe said:

I'm using Crinone so there is some leaking. Anytime it happens I immediately rush to the bathroom to see if I'm bleeding. I guess that is my IF brain acting up.

I hear ya! You know what was the worst thought out plan ever? Making generic progesterone pills pregnant IF people put in their vaj RED! Now it looks like I am bleeding all the time and makes my anxiety go up. I can rationalize it and know that what ever color goes up, comes out, but seriously. There are 8+ other basic colors and they choose red?

[teachermomtobe]

Oct 23, 2016 14:23:05 GMT -5 cateyes said:

Oct 23, 2016 14:08:00 GMT -5 teachermomtobe said:

I'm using Crinone so there is some leaking. Anytime it happens I immediately rush to the bathroom to see if I'm bleeding. I guess that is my IF brain acting up.

I hear ya! You know what was the worst thought out plan ever? Making generic progesterone pills pregnant IF people put in their vaj RED! Now it looks like I am bleeding all the time and makes my anxiety go up. I can rationalize it and know that what ever color goes up, comes out, but seriously. There are 8+ other basic colors and they choose red?

OMG!  Seriously whoever designed that clearly never dealt with IF personally.

[cateyes]

Oct 23, 2016 14:24:48 GMT -5 teachermomtobe said:

Oct 23, 2016 14:23:05 GMT -5 cateyes said:

I hear ya! You know what was the worst thought out plan ever? Making generic progesterone pills pregnant IF people put in their vaj RED! Now it looks like I am bleeding all the time and makes my anxiety go up. I can rationalize it and know that what ever color goes up, comes out, but seriously. There are 8+ other basic colors and they choose red?

OMG!  Seriously whoever designed that clearly never dealt with IF personally.

Seriously. I now have the stupid phobia that I am going to miscarry and not know it because it always looks like I am bleeding. I know it sounds dumb because there would be so much more but it's like, no pregnancy symptoms maybe no loss symptoms. These pills are not helpful!!!! 5 weeks and counting! Lol

[cheezee]

I'm feeling much better after our sono. I thought I would be much more emotional during it but it was so surreal and fast. I was looking at the 6ish week sono of DD and thought I would see something similar. I think RE didn't zoom in as much this time so when it all looked so incredibly tiny on the screen I was convincing myself something was wrong. We saw the tiny flicker of the heartbeat for a few seconds and then it was over. Then RE said come back in one week and I was expecting a two week wait so that made me think he was worried too....but I really think he is just ready to pass me off to OB. I go back and forth between really excited and then reminding myself the chance of a m/c is still significant. I'm such a Debbie downer sometimes.

QOTW - we have told most of our immediate family minus a few. I'll probably tell them after the next sono. The BFFs too. I know girls at work will probably figure it out since I'm not coming in late for appts all the time anymore. The world will know after first tri.

[cateyes]

Oct 23, 2016 14:29:47 GMT -5 cheezee said:

I'm feeling much better after our sono. I thought I would be much more emotional during it but it was so surreal and fast. I was looking at the 6ish week sono of DD and thought I would see something similar. I think RE didn't zoom in as much this time so when it all looked so incredibly tiny on the screen I was convincing myself something was wrong. We saw the tiny flicker of the heartbeat for a few seconds and then it was over. Then RE said come back in one week and I was expecting a two week wait so that made me think he was worried too....but I really think he is just ready to pass me off to OB. I go back and forth between really excited and then reminding myself the chance of a m/c is still significant. I'm such a Debbie downer sometimes.

QOTW - we have told most of our immediate family minus a few. I'll probably tell them after the next sono. The BFFs too. I know girls at work will probably figure it out since I'm not coming in late for appts all the time anymore. The world will know after first tri.

Hugs. After lots of research (way to much time down the rabbit hole) I found it reassuring that once a good, solid heartbeat is seen, the chances of MC go way way down to like 3-4%. Most of the major hurdles have past! Just wanted to share to give you even a tiny bit of reassurance.

[lindsay]

I'm totally wiped out constantly. And ready to fly through these next ten days until my next U/S. I so want both babies to be fine. And I am still totally freaked out for a twin pregnancy and life!

We've told immediate family, a few close friends and a couple close coworkers/bosses. Will wait to tell more people were out of the first tri most likely.

[lulu783]

I'm struggling this weekend. I don't know if it's because I'm running around/not sitting at a desk all day, but I just don't feel any symptoms. The constant nausea is gone and I feel like the bloat is too. Just trying to tell myself symptoms can come and go and counting down the days until my first appointment on 11/1.

[cateyes]

Oct 23, 2016 19:16:16 GMT -5 lulu783 said:

I'm struggling this weekend. I don't know if it's because I'm running around/not sitting at a desk all day, but I just don't feel any symptoms. The constant nausea is gone and I feel like the bloat is too. Just trying to tell myself symptoms can come and go and counting down the days until my first appointment on 11/1.

I have noticed when I am super busy it seems my half symptoms go away-like I don't have time to think about them or notice how tired I am. FX it is the same for you too!

[ihatepizza]

Oct 23, 2016 19:39:38 GMT -5 cateyes said:

Oct 23, 2016 19:16:16 GMT -5 lulu783 said:

I'm struggling this weekend. I don't know if it's because I'm running around/not sitting at a desk all day, but I just don't feel any symptoms. The constant nausea is gone and I feel like the bloat is too. Just trying to tell myself symptoms can come and go and counting down the days until my first appointment on 11/1.

I have noticed when I am super busy it seems my half symptoms go away-like I don't have time to think about them or notice how tired I am. FX it is the same for you too!

+1 to this. Also my symptoms are down after a good solid sleep (which happens on weekends).

[ihatepizza]

Oct 23, 2016 14:27:40 GMT -5 cateyes said:

Oct 23, 2016 14:24:48 GMT -5 teachermomtobe said:

OMG!  Seriously whoever designed that clearly never dealt with IF personally.

Seriously. I now have the stupid phobia that I am going to miscarry and not know it because it always looks like I am bleeding. I know it sounds dumb because there would be so much more but it's like, no pregnancy symptoms maybe no loss symptoms. These pills are not helpful!!!! 5 weeks and counting! Lol

I'm on prometrium so mine are a brownish/ beige colour, I swear I turn into a scientist every time I use the bathroom. The discharge is so so anxiety provoking so I can't even imagine if it was red

[ihatepizza]

After hearing a great heartbeat I should be happy but I feel like I have so much to lose. Just constantly saying the mantras and taking it day by day. My symptoms are reassuring but they are not enough to calm my nerves. I'm so glad to have this BMB because I feel like my worries are normal

ETA we told both immediate families and friends who know about IVF. I've been fighting with my mom about this who wants to tell extended family and doesn't believe it's fair I get to "cherry pick"" who I tell. She doesn't have any loss or IVF experience and I can understand where she is coming from but I have too much fear still to do this

[honda13]

Hugs to all of you!

I felt better after seeing a good heartbeat on the ultrasound. I'm still very nervous, but it's better.

GTKY: My closest friends know and my mom and stepdad. We will be telling my dad and my in-laws. It's MH birthday and we are going out to dinner. I will be 8 weeks and we bought dd an "only child expiring 2017" shirt to wear. Everyone coming to dinner knows about our loss so I'm ok with them knowing early. We won't make an announcement until after our 12 week appt on November 30th.

[samanthasays]

Oct 23, 2016 13:39:15 GMT -5 huskermom said:

DH and I are both pretty nervous still and kind of in a waiting for it to end funk. It's the half birthday of our friends angel today and I think that's playing into it as well. I'm hoping once we start telling more people it will help us get excited because of their excitement.

QOTW: I've told a few good friends who knew I was testing, my former BMB, and my friend who experienced a stillbirth in April. We're debating whether we'll tell our parents before our ultrasound on Nov 18 or not.

H and I are the same too! I think because we tried SO hard for 3 fucking years, and this was a (very happy) surprise, I feel like it cant be real, it cant last, we cant get lucky after all of that time. 

[samanthasays]

I have had a lot of discharge, it is terrifying me, every time I feel it I rush to the bathroom to wipe to check if it is blood I have had absolutely no red on a panty liner, and with my 2 CP's I was heavily spotting/bleeding from the day of my BFP on. I am trying so hard to just relax and take it day by day. I am travelling for work tomorrow and Wednesday, that will be a welcome distraction for my PAIF/PAL brain.

I told my sister and my BFF, my parents are coming to visit when I am 7 weeks, so I will tell them then if everything is still going well. I am so worried to tell anyone, my first 2 I told family right away and it was so heartbreaking to have to tell them I lost it. I want to save myself from that if I can.

[huskermom]

Oct 24, 2016 9:58:33 GMT -5 samanthasays said:

I have had a lot of discharge, it is terrifying me, every time I feel it I rush to the bathroom to wipe to check if it is blood I have had absolutely no red on a panty liner, and with my 2 CP's I was heavily spotting/bleeding from the day of my BFP on. I am trying so hard to just relax and take it day by day. I am travelling for work tomorrow and Wednesday, that will be a welcome distraction for my PAIF/PAL brain.

I told my sister and my BFF, my parents are coming to visit when I am 7 weeks, so I will tell them then if everything is still going well. I am so worried to tell anyone, my first 2 I told family right away and it was so heartbreaking to have to tell them I lost it. I want to save myself from that if I can.

*Hugs* You gotta do what's best for you and if that means waiting then that means waiting. And I hear you on the discharge. I don't remember having this much with my son so I freak out any time I feel anything.

And surprise pregnancies are a total mindfuck. Our son was a BCP baby so major surprise. I was in my first semester of nursing school and not working so we were panicked. But they're the best kind of surprise. Sending all the good and calming vibes your way.

[samanthasays]

Oct 24, 2016 12:44:38 GMT -5 huskermom said:

Oct 24, 2016 9:58:33 GMT -5 samanthasays said:

I have had a lot of discharge, it is terrifying me, every time I feel it I rush to the bathroom to wipe to check if it is blood I have had absolutely no red on a panty liner, and with my 2 CP's I was heavily spotting/bleeding from the day of my BFP on. I am trying so hard to just relax and take it day by day. I am travelling for work tomorrow and Wednesday, that will be a welcome distraction for my PAIF/PAL brain.

I told my sister and my BFF, my parents are coming to visit when I am 7 weeks, so I will tell them then if everything is still going well. I am so worried to tell anyone, my first 2 I told family right away and it was so heartbreaking to have to tell them I lost it. I want to save myself from that if I can.

*Hugs* You gotta do what's best for you and if that means waiting then that means waiting. And I hear you on the discharge. I don't remember having this much with my son so I freak out any time I feel anything.

And surprise pregnancies are a total mindfuck. Our son was a BCP baby so major surprise. I was in my first semester of nursing school and not working so we were panicked. But they're the best kind of surprise. Sending all the good and calming vibes your way.

I keep saying the universe is fucking with me we tried so hard for so long, and now that we have a dream vacation booked for November, I took a new job where I am travelling all the time, and I just bought a damn sauna, we get pregnant! But I will give all of that up a million times over for a take home baby. It is nice though to have a full life to fall back on if I have another loss. It will still hurt of course, but I am in a better place to handle it that the first 2. 

[huskermom]

Oct 24, 2016 13:38:44 GMT -5 samanthasays said:

Oct 24, 2016 12:44:38 GMT -5 huskermom said:

*Hugs* You gotta do what's best for you and if that means waiting then that means waiting. And I hear you on the discharge. I don't remember having this much with my son so I freak out any time I feel anything.

And surprise pregnancies are a total mindfuck. Our son was a BCP baby so major surprise. I was in my first semester of nursing school and not working so we were panicked. But they're the best kind of surprise. Sending all the good and calming vibes your way.

I keep saying the universe is fucking with me we tried so hard for so long, and now that we have a dream vacation booked for November, I took a new job where I am travelling all the time, and I just bought a damn sauna, we get pregnant! But I will give all of that up a million times over for a take home baby. It is nice though to have a full life to fall back on if I have another loss. It will still hurt of course, but I am in a better place to handle it that the first 2. 

Oh my gosh! Naturally this is when the universe would give you what you've been wanting for years. Hopefully you don't have to fall back on that awesome life and you can just figure out how to live it with a new baby.

[punkybrewster]

These PIO shots are slowly killing me. It's not the injections themselves, I don't mind that part at all. Although the angle is a little hard to get to since MH is out to sea. But the whole area is soooo itchy all the time, it's awful. I am basically covered in welts and bruises. I told MH my rear end will never be the same after this. I asked my RE about using any type of cortizone cream or anything, and they said no, so I guess I will just have to suffer through. It has gotten a little better the past day or two so hopefully that continues.

QOTW: We have told quite a few people. We were pretty open about our IVF all along, so most of the people that knew we were going through that know I am pregnant. There are a few more people that knew about the IVF but don't know the results, and I will probably tell them after my first or second ultrasound depending on how things look. We won't announce to the world though til around Christmas most likely.

[cateyes]

Oct 24, 2016 14:34:14 GMT -5 punkybrewster said:

These PIO shots are slowly killing me. It's not the injections themselves, I don't mind that part at all. Although the angle is a little hard to get to since MH is out to sea. But the whole area is soooo itchy all the time, it's awful. I am basically covered in welts and bruises. I told MH my rear end will never be the same after this. I asked my RE about using any type of cortizone cream or anything, and they said no, so I guess I will just have to suffer through. It has gotten a little better the past day or two so hopefully that continues.

QOTW: We have told quite a few people. We were pretty open about our IVF all along, so most of the people that knew we were going through that know I am pregnant. There are a few more people that knew about the IVF but don't know the results, and I will probably tell them after my first or second ultrasound depending on how things look. We won't announce to the world though til around Christmas most likely.

Yes to the soooo itchy!!! Are you icing first and then using a heating pad after for like 5 minutes-game changer!

[MrsEmuTavi]

I'm fine right now I think because I have so long until I need to start worrying. We found out that we weren't bringing home a baby at our anatomy scan. I'm going to try to convince my new OB (old one is switching to a practice 45 minutes away) to get me a scan at 16W.

QOTW: we've told immediate families, the S15 board, and my aunt. I'll be telling a few coworkers soon but I need to tell my best friend who is childless-not-by-choice first.

We will go FB public after the anatomy scan.

[punkybrewster]

Oct 24, 2016 14:44:08 GMT -5 cateyes said:

Oct 24, 2016 14:34:14 GMT -5 punkybrewster said:

These PIO shots are slowly killing me. It's not the injections themselves, I don't mind that part at all. Although the angle is a little hard to get to since MH is out to sea. But the whole area is soooo itchy all the time, it's awful. I am basically covered in welts and bruises. I told MH my rear end will never be the same after this. I asked my RE about using any type of cortizone cream or anything, and they said no, so I guess I will just have to suffer through. It has gotten a little better the past day or two so hopefully that continues.

QOTW: We have told quite a few people. We were pretty open about our IVF all along, so most of the people that knew we were going through that know I am pregnant. There are a few more people that knew about the IVF but don't know the results, and I will probably tell them after my first or second ultrasound depending on how things look. We won't announce to the world though til around Christmas most likely.

Yes to the soooo itchy!!! Are you icing first and then using a heating pad after for like 5 minutes-game changer!

I was doing that at first, but I didn't think it was helping. Maybe I will try starting that up again.