PGAL/PAIF Check-In (11/8)

[caer]

Pregnant After Loss / Pregnant After Infertility (PGAL/PAIF) check-in is posted once a week (generally on a Monday) for those of us who have unfortunately experienced a loss or a history of infertility and are now pregnant. Anyone who participates may start the thread each week.

Out of respect to all the ladies here, please add a trigger warning or spoiler if you decide to talk about any living children.

PGAL Mantras

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Today I am pregnant and I love my baby.



I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise.



My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c.



Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you. We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!



Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot jinx your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!



There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (God forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive"

How far along are you?

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally?

Any upcoming appointments or tests?

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves:

GTKY: In honor of Election Day, tell us about our voting style. Do you vote every election? Only on the presidential years? Do you choose to protest and withhold your vote?

[mosdub]

Hey caer, thanks for starting.

How far along are you? 19w3d

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally? Physically pretty fine. Slight back aches, slight acid reflux. Emotionally I had a little cry session last night. It dawned on me that the last time I was 19 weeks pregnant I had weird symptoms like swollen legs, high blood pressure and I strangely got stretch marks all over my stomach over the course of one day only. One week later at the A/S we discovered the loss of the baby and the partial molar pregnancy and that my uterus was dramatically growing due to a cancerous placenta - hence the overnight stretchmarks. I started crying just from sadness for that loss and how different this pregnancy is. I don't have those strange symptoms, and I can feel the little one moving and prodding. I wouldn't say I was sad, just really emotional reflecting on all of the pain and anxiety from the last couple years, and to know here I am now with a *hopefully* completely healthy baby.

Any upcoming appointments or tests? A/S next week.

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves: All up there

GTKY: In honor of Election Day, tell us about our voting style. Do you vote every election? Only on the presidential years? Do you choose to protest and withhold your vote? I vote in all the local elections now - after working in schools I realized how much local government matters!

[caer]

(((Hugs))) for all the emotions mosdub.

[glb30]

mosdub this is an understandably trigger-y time for you. Huge (((hugs)))

[glb30]

AFM, 20+4, and doing much much better after the a/s. I've also started feeling the baby reliably. (Right around 20 weeks.) We went public on social media, and I was flooded with texts, calls and messages. The support has been amazing and kept me from freaking out after I posted. (I had told all my family and good friends, so these were people I didn't necessarily think would be so excited- but they are, and it's making so happy!)

mosdub did you have the baby shower at work? How was it?

[ladytiffany24]

Sending tons of hugs mosdub!



How far along are you? 19w6d

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally? Physically, not too bad. Some occasional heart burn and sciatica but that's about it. Emotionally, I'm starting to have some anxiety about my A/S tomorrow. I feel like I haven't felt a ton of movement lately. While I realize that may not be that big of a deal, it's weighing heavy on my mind and making me extra nervous for tomorrow. I'm really scared of finding out something is wrong...or, that my baby is gone. I'd appreciate any positive juju, prayers, good vibes (whatever your style) for my ultrasound tomorrow at 1:45pm.

Any upcoming appointments or tests? A/S TOMORROW!

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves: See above.

GTKY: In honor of Election Day, tell us about our voting style. Do you vote every election? Only on the presidential years? Do you choose to protest and withhold your vote? I vote in almost all of them. Or at least I try. I know I've missed a couple of non-presidential elections since I've been old enough to vote, but I always try to get out there and do it!

[caer]

Congrats on going public glb30!

Sending you so many good thoughts for tomorrow ladytiffany24.

[caer]

How far along are you? 19w6d

How are you doing Physically/Emotionally? I'm ok pregnancy-wise. I already unleashed my political feels in the randoms. It's been a tough day.

Any upcoming appointments or tests? A/S is one week from today.

Updates/Questions/Rants/Raves: I can't believe I'm halfway. I'm feeling a ton of movement recently. I'm still self-conscious about the size of my bump (I continue to get a lot of "you're small!" comments) so hopefully everything looks ok at our scan next week.

GTKY: In honor of Election Day, tell us about our voting style. Do you vote every election? Only on the presidential years? Do you choose to protest and withhold your vote?
I vote in every primary and general election. I love voting and am particularly passionate about our local races.

[glb30]

ladytiffany24 sending so many positive thoughts your way!

caer yay for movement!

[mosdub]

Nov 9, 2016 10:01:01 GMT -5 glb30 said:

AFM, 20+4, and doing much much better after the a/s. I've also started feeling the baby reliably. (Right around 20 weeks.) We went public on social media, and I was flooded with texts, calls and messages. The support has been amazing and kept me from freaking out after I posted. (I had told all my family and good friends, so these were people I didn't necessarily think would be so excited- but they are, and it's making so happy!)

mosdub did you have the baby shower at work? How was it?

You remembered!  No, it didn't happen (which I'm thankful for).  I ended up having to drive to a different location for training so they pushed it to another time.  

[callmeKD]

I found these photos beautiful!


www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/11-incredibly-beautiful-ways-parents-honored-their-rainbow-babies_us_581116e8e4b064e1b4b0538a

[mosdub]

glb30 congrats on going public I might join you next week after my A/S! Glad you're feeling the love!

[mosdub]

ladytiffany24 I am right around the same time as you and a few days ago I felt almost no movement all day/night. Then a couple days later he was rolling around like crazy. One of the apps said that baby is only awake for a total of 6 hours in a day, so it's possible s/he's just going through a growth spurt and sleeping a lot! I'm sure all will go well, and I'm sending you healthy wonderful vibes for an amazing and complication-free ultrasound tomorrow.

[mosdub]

caer I'm sure your bump is just the right size! I'm starting to come down from this election. I've moved through the stages of grief and am landing on acceptance I think.

[sms2524]

Nov 9, 2016 19:14:38 GMT -5 callmeKD said:

I found these photos beautiful!


www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/11-incredibly-beautiful-ways-parents-honored-their-rainbow-babies_us_581116e8e4b064e1b4b0538a

Love these! That one with the smoke bombs is amazing!