The closer I get to Thursday, the more anxious I'm feeling. I didn't realize it before, but this appointment is the exact same timing as my appointment where I learned my last pregnancy was going south. I still have a really good feeling about this time, and I have way more symptoms than I've ever had, but I won't feel great until I get past this last milestone.
I'm doing alright, PgAL wise. I've had a great feeling about this pregnancy pretty much from the second I got my BFP. Its crazy to me... but, I'm happy nonetheless.
Otherwise, I've been feeling like crap. I feel guilty for being so miserable because we have been through SO much to get here, but man this pregnancy is taking every ounce of my being. I've lost 11 pounds (and I didn't start out overweight), and I have no clue where it is coming off of, because I have a rather large blump. I just can't seem to make myself eat. I've been taking my meds so that I don't throw up, but I still don't feel like eating much. Hopefully I'll be able to fathom eating some real food again. My next appointment isn't until next week, but I plan to ask the doctor about it when I'm there.
Post by AmazingTulip on Dec 5, 2016 9:03:19 GMT -5
MissSally, sorry you're feeling so crappy. I have the opposite problem. I eat non stop. It's the only way I feel good.
I'm just kind of in this weird place right now. I have no reason to believe that this pregnancy is not going well, except for past history. I did have a dream last night that I had a boy. Just trying to be positive.
MissSally I feel you. I have been feeling like complete crap and either want to eat all the things but am done after a bite, or don't want to eat anything at all.
I'm here. I'm going to spend a little more time lurking before I dive in, but I wanted to start in this thread.
I was around O14 when we all came over, then barely started thinking about being active in the F17 board before we lost that baby. I feel like I might be more active once I pass that point (10 weeks, but the baby stopped growing at 9).
I feel mostly hopeful, but I'm just so angry I can't be happy and tell people at Christmas. I wish I had that happy pregnancy that I had the first time around.
MissSally, I'm glad you shared your thoughts here because I'm feeling exactly the same way and I'm having so much guilt about it. I know I should just be grateful to be pregnant and not complain, but I seriously hate being pregnant. I cried a lot last night because I feel like if I were to even say it out loud I'm jinxing myself, or I don't deserve to be pregnant because I'm complaining, but I hate not feeling like myself. It's like having a terrible hangover that NEVER goes away.
Being out and seeing my girlfriends on Saturday didn't help like I thought it would. They were all so excited for me and touching my belly and asking me a million questions, and my two other pregnant girlfriends were just glowing and raving about how great they feel. I felt like such a downer because people kept saying "How are you feeling?!?! " and all I wanted to say was "FUCKING MISERABLE!". So I just smiled and lied instead.
akraus2015 so much yes to all of this. Its so hard to be thankful for something that makes you so miserable. (hugs) I hope it gets better for both of us!
This is a tough week for me. I hit 6 wks today. For my loss, I started spotting the night of 6w3d and was full blown losing it the next day. I just wish it was next week already. I'm holding on to hope that we saw the yolk on fri (no yolk on the loss) and it measured 2days farther than my loss did.
I haven't heard from my dr about the ultrasound. I'm hoping she calls and says 'oh hey let's do another to see more'. Actually I might call later... giving her a chance to review it first.
Otherwise, I feel fine.. except these painful boob.
Me: 31 Wife: 30. Legally married 2008, thanks CA! TTC #1 since 11/14 using donor sperm. IUIs Jan-Aug 2015 BFN Sept & OCT 2015 added Femara. BFN Saw RE December 2015. IUI with Clomid & Trigger Jan 2016 BFN IUI #13 with Follistim April 2016 BFFN IVF #1 July 2016. 14R, 10F, 6 Day 5 embryos. 4 PGS normal embabies!
I was bleeding bright red last night and of course had a freak out moment. Why does everything about this process have to suck?! It's just not fair. Luckily my RE let me come in this morning and my cervix is closed and there was a tiny little flicker of a heartbeat. We go back Thursday and I'm on bed rest until then. I'm trying to take this day by day, if not minute by minute at this point.
Me: 31 Wife: 30. Legally married 2008, thanks CA! TTC #1 since 11/14 using donor sperm. IUIs Jan-Aug 2015 BFN Sept & OCT 2015 added Femara. BFN Saw RE December 2015. IUI with Clomid & Trigger Jan 2016 BFN IUI #13 with Follistim April 2016 BFFN IVF #1 July 2016. 14R, 10F, 6 Day 5 embryos. 4 PGS normal embabies!
The closer I get to Thursday, the more anxious I'm feeling. I didn't realize it before, but this appointment is the exact same timing as my appointment where I learned my last pregnancy was going south. I still have a really good feeling about this time, and I have way more symptoms than I've ever had, but I won't feel great until I get past this last milestone.
((Hugs)) milestones are hard. I hope Thursday comes fast and it is a great appt.
TTC #1 starting July 2013, RE last 2014 First Angel baby lost July 11, 2014 IUI #1 with injections successful: EDD 11/24/15 Rainbow baby DD born 11/14/15 TTC#2 October 2016 Second Angel baby lost Jan 5, 2017
This is a tough week for me. I hit 6 wks today. For my loss, I started spotting the night of 6w3d and was full blown losing it the next day. I just wish it was next week already. I'm holding on to hope that we saw the yolk on fri (no yolk on the loss) and it measured 2days farther than my loss did.
I haven't heard from my dr about the ultrasound. I'm hoping she calls and says 'oh hey let's do another to see more'. Actually I might call later... giving her a chance to review it first.
Otherwise, I feel fine.. except these painful boob.
((Hugs)) I hope your dr schedules something soon so you can make it past the milestone with more reassurance
TTC #1 starting July 2013, RE last 2014 First Angel baby lost July 11, 2014 IUI #1 with injections successful: EDD 11/24/15 Rainbow baby DD born 11/14/15 TTC#2 October 2016 Second Angel baby lost Jan 5, 2017
I was bleeding bright red last night and of course had a freak out moment. Why does everything about this process have to suck?! It's just not fair. Luckily my RE let me come in this morning and my cervix is closed and there was a tiny little flicker of a heartbeat. We go back Thursday and I'm on bed rest until then. I'm trying to take this day by day, if not minute by minute at this point.
I'm sorry about the bleeding but glad your RE had you come in. FX Thursday shows everything growing fine. The flicker is so exciting!!
TTC #1 starting July 2013, RE last 2014 First Angel baby lost July 11, 2014 IUI #1 with injections successful: EDD 11/24/15 Rainbow baby DD born 11/14/15 TTC#2 October 2016 Second Angel baby lost Jan 5, 2017
Post by ldubhawksfan on Dec 5, 2016 14:09:49 GMT -5
AFM, I'm not great. My dr left a msg on Sunday saying I looked further and upped my EDD and wanted to make sure I was on the blood thinner. I left a msg this morning asking whether I should be concerned about no fetal pole, especially if I'm measuring further along (I'm pretty confident on my O based on temping so I think the new date is bs). His nurse called back and wanted me to come in for bloodwork tomorrow. GDI, my work is 30 mins away from my dr, so it's not easy to swing in for shit, especially if he is going to make me wait over an hr! I guess I'm still just preparing myself for the next US to still not show a HB.
TTC #1 starting July 2013, RE last 2014 First Angel baby lost July 11, 2014 IUI #1 with injections successful: EDD 11/24/15 Rainbow baby DD born 11/14/15 TTC#2 October 2016 Second Angel baby lost Jan 5, 2017
TTC #1 starting July 2013, RE last 2014 First Angel baby lost July 11, 2014 IUI #1 with injections successful: EDD 11/24/15 Rainbow baby DD born 11/14/15 TTC#2 October 2016 Second Angel baby lost Jan 5, 2017
@idubhawksfan limbo is awful. So many fingers crossed for good blood results tomorrow.
I don't even understand what the point of the bw is tomorrow. If I'm nearly 7 weeks and have had an US, they shouldn't be betas. Plus I thought levels plateaued at some point. If it's the standard iron levels and blood type, that can be done at my next one. I hope my dr actually calls me back later and I get to talk to him.
TTC #1 starting July 2013, RE last 2014 First Angel baby lost July 11, 2014 IUI #1 with injections successful: EDD 11/24/15 Rainbow baby DD born 11/14/15 TTC#2 October 2016 Second Angel baby lost Jan 5, 2017
Post by AmazingTulip on Dec 5, 2016 15:20:10 GMT -5
JustJudy, did the doc say what the bleeding was from? I hope it goes away soon.
ldubhawksfan, I hope you can get some answers soon. I'm not sure betas would be very valuable at this point. They do level off and the rate of increase at this point wouldn't tell you much. Not sure what else they would be testing for. Hang in there. Thinking of you.
Ugh, ldubhawksfan, I'm so sorry. If I drive 30 minutes I'd want a ultrasound not just bw.
AmazingTulip, He thinks perhaps my cervix is super sensitive and was bleeding from the ultrasound I had Friday. Everything else looked fine so it may just have been one of those weird flukes.
Me: 31 Wife: 30. Legally married 2008, thanks CA! TTC #1 since 11/14 using donor sperm. IUIs Jan-Aug 2015 BFN Sept & OCT 2015 added Femara. BFN Saw RE December 2015. IUI with Clomid & Trigger Jan 2016 BFN IUI #13 with Follistim April 2016 BFFN IVF #1 July 2016. 14R, 10F, 6 Day 5 embryos. 4 PGS normal embabies!
Post by easilyunamused on Dec 5, 2016 19:23:40 GMT -5
JustJudy, glad your dr isn't concerned with the bleeding.
ldubhawksfan, I'm so sorry you're in limbo and your dr won't offer more information for the bw. I work better the more information I have and it's frustrating when they don't tell you.
Post by vancitygirl on Dec 5, 2016 19:41:23 GMT -5
I am so pessimistic right now that I'm just trying to plan a time when thinking about this could even fit into my schedule. Yes I'm heartbroken that things look bad, but I'm more frustrated that I have to wait out knowing if it's going to be viable or if I need to move on. I made my mom cry saying that to her, she said I need to be hopeful and I just...can't do that to my heart anymore.
I am so pessimistic right now that I'm just trying to plan a time when thinking about this could even fit into my schedule. Yes I'm heartbroken that things look bad, but I'm more frustrated that I have to wait out knowing if it's going to be viable or if I need to move on. I made my mom cry saying that to her, she said I need to be hopeful and I just...can't do that to my heart anymore.
So many hugs to you. I feel so cold not being optimistic, but I really hope that by doing so, if it isn't viable, I won't slip into depression again with the loss. I hope you get answers soon. When is your next US?
Last Edit: Dec 5, 2016 19:56:35 GMT -5 by ldubhawksfan
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