Very little sleep last night, cue me panicking about my milk supply. Was he eating every hour and a half because he was getting little to no milk each time? Bf is so stressful to me because I have no idea what or how much he is getting, and I don't let down for the pump so that gives me no indication of my supply. We have a weight check today to make sure he is back up to birth weight so hopefully that will give me some reassurance. I really want bf to work this time mainly because formula is expensive and it is nice not to have to carry around/ keep up with bottles. // end dear diary
I had probably the world's most disturbing dreams last night. I should have seen it coming since I had a bad anxiety day yesterday, but man, I don't understand where my brain comes up with some of this stuff.
meeggaannw , that is totalllyyy normal behavior, even though the lack of sleep sucks big time. Remember, the more milk he drinks, the more you will make. Sometimes bf babies go through feeding spurts where they can eat as often as every hour, it's just ramping up your supply more and more. You've got this, lady! Just keep nursing as often as he wants to. One thing that really helped my sanity with #1 was buying a scale.
ETA: I also just want to reiterate (in general) that the pump is not a good indicator of supply for anyone at all (unless you're in a normal pumping routine, like pumping at work - and even then it's possible you'd pump less than if baby was nursing).
Very little sleep last night, cue me panicking about my milk supply. Was he eating every hour and a half because he was getting little to no milk each time? Bf is so stressful to me because I have no idea what or how much he is getting, and I don't let down for the pump so that gives me no indication of my supply. We have a weight check today to make sure he is back up to birth weight so hopefully that will give me some reassurance. I really want bf to work this time mainly because formula is expensive and it is nice not to have to carry around/ keep up with bottles. // end dear diary
You will feel better after the weight check. Also, ask your pedi or find a LC to do a weighed feeding. In case you don't know what that is, you weigh the baby, have them nurse and then weigh them again. It will tell you how many ounces they transferred. Both of these things really set my mind at ease with DS.
Also, don't forget all that nursing in the beginning is to build your supply as he grows. So, he's just telling your body to make more milk. Oh and it totally sucks. Don't feel bad for hating it! I promise it gets so much better.
I had probably the world's most disturbing dreams last night. I should have seen it coming since I had a bad anxiety day yesterday, but man, I don't understand where my brain comes up with some of this stuff.
+1. I've been a bit of hot mess with my hormones/anxiety lately. I'm thrilled I actually slept, but I had a dream that my family was on a cult. In said cult, if I didn't cook an eggplant dish every day the cult leader was going to kill me. Of course, my eggplant fell out of my pocket.
Mh has to be in NJ later today so he didn't go in to the office. Yay for an extra set of hands this morning and pooping without a screaming toddler banging at the door! Ds was going from window to window frantically signing for Grandpop. He got upset when mh told him it wasn't a Grandpop day. This cute little story got reported back to Grandpop and guess who is coming over for lunch? Wheeeeeee!! I'm loving all the unexpected help today.
I had probably the world's most disturbing dreams last night. I should have seen it coming since I had a bad anxiety day yesterday, but man, I don't understand where my brain comes up with some of this stuff.
+1. I've been a bit of hot mess with my hormones/anxiety lately. I'm thrilled I actually slept, but I had a dream that my family was on a cult. In said cult, if I didn't cook an eggplant dish every day the cult leader was going to kill me. Of course, my eggplant fell out of my pocket.
WTF brain? Ha!
Ummmmm I'm going to put one of mine in spoilers, read at your own risk, it's pretty messed up.
Post by weeklyplanner on Jan 17, 2017 9:39:15 GMT -5
rinny I'm trying not to laugh because I'm sure that dream was not fun while it was happening. But seriously though, our brains need to cut us a break! It's bad enough being really pregnant and in the postpartum stage. I think all hormonal women should only dream about happy things!
NO daddy you can not take DS to nap at 3pm, that ship has sailed!! I'd rather have him go to bed at 7/8 tonight thanks. He's had a grump about it but it would be me dealing with the fall out any way not him. So he's gone for a nap poor tired daddy...
Good luck silvermelody and tex!! Super excited for more babies today! lakegirl, let YH know that NJ (at least north NJ) is a freezing rain mess right now. Hopefully it'll switch to just rain this afternoon, but give himself some extra time for idiots around him.
Mw appt today. Running the errands I couldn't do yesterday, and keep forgetting to call my friends mom that's a doula. She needs one more birth for her cert so she's doing it for free, so we'd both be doing each other favors.
Post by heybulldog56 on Jan 17, 2017 11:06:37 GMT -5
meeggaannw, I could have written your post. I feel you. This breastfeeding thing is so stressful. The LC at the hospital did the weighed feed thing and it definitely made me feel better (temporarily). It was proof that I am producing milk and that baby is being fed but now, a day later, I am right back to stressing about it. I would recommend it just because you can use it to remind yourself that everything is working
Baby gave me two stretches of three hours of sleep which was glorious. Totally unexpected but I won't complain. Night feeding was a bit stressful as he did not seemed satisfied. This of course ramped up my anxiety. He has eaten twice this morning without a problem though so... who knows. What a mind fuck this BF game is.
The worst part of the morning, however, was when DS1 had to leave for daycare. Oh my poor heart. He did not want to go. DH finally had to scoop him up and carry him away. He was reaching out for me over DH's shoulder and screaming "mommy!". It was awful. I am crying just thinking about it.
Post by meeggaannw on Jan 17, 2017 11:15:41 GMT -5
Thanks ladies, I'm hoping he has gained today and I can stop stressing, at least for a day or two. weeklyplanner and heybulldog56 I actually did a weighted feeding at his doctors appointment last week and he transferred 1.5 ounces which the pedi was happy about, but that was a week ago so I worry things could have changed. I had milk at the beginning with dd and she was gaining and then all the sudden stopped and I didn't realize/ accept it until we took her to the pedi and she had actually lost weight. I felt horrible and like a failure and now I'm feeling a little ptsd from that.
Post by heybulldog56 on Jan 17, 2017 11:22:24 GMT -5
Totally understandable meeggaannw. That's great that DS transferred 1.5 ounces! How old was he at the weighed feeding? I'm course feeling concerned because DS2 only transferred about 15 mL at his weighed feeding but it was yesterday when he was four days old so... I may be looking for things to worry about.
Post by weeklyplanner on Jan 17, 2017 11:22:51 GMT -5
heybulldog56 Sorry about the rough toddler exist this morning. That's got to rough with the hormones. I'm sure things were fine once they left the house though. Hugs!
Thanks ladies, I'm hoping he has gained today and I can stop stressing, at least for a day or two. weeklyplanner and heybulldog56 I actually did a weighted feeding at his doctors appointment last week and he transferred 1.5 ounces which the pedi was happy about, but that was a week ago so I worry things could have changed. I had milk at the beginning with dd and she was gaining and then all the sudden stopped and I didn't realize/ accept it until we took her to the pedi and she had actually lost weight. I felt horrible and like a failure and now I'm feeling a little ptsd from that.
1.5 ounces is great! Maybe do another weighed feeding? You could always purchase a cheap baby scale at BRU, but that might be worse because you might get obsessed with weighing the little guy. How old is he now? Don't forget there are growthspurts around 1, 3, and 6 weeks (I think). All that extra nursing could just be a sign he's growing.
Totally understandable meeggaannw. That's great that DS transferred 1.5 ounces! How old was he at the weighed feeding? I'm course feeling concerned because DS2 only transferred about 15 mL at his weighed feeding but it was yesterday when he was four days old so... I may be looking for things to worry about.
It was his 2 week appt, so his little tummy holds more than it would at 4 days old. I wouldn't worry, I'm sure that's what he needs for his age. I say don't worry but I understand, bf is just stressful and I'm starting to think not worth it for me.
Thanks ladies, I'm hoping he has gained today and I can stop stressing, at least for a day or two. weeklyplanner and heybulldog56 I actually did a weighted feeding at his doctors appointment last week and he transferred 1.5 ounces which the pedi was happy about, but that was a week ago so I worry things could have changed. I had milk at the beginning with dd and she was gaining and then all the sudden stopped and I didn't realize/ accept it until we took her to the pedi and she had actually lost weight. I felt horrible and like a failure and now I'm feeling a little ptsd from that.
1.5 ounces is great! Maybe do another weighed feeding? You could always purchase a cheap baby scale at BRU, but that might be worse because you might get obsessed with weighing the little guy. How old is he now? Don't forget there are growthspurts around 1, 3, and 6 weeks (I think). All that extra nursing could just be a sign he's growing.
It was a morning feed which I've heard have m ore milk? He actually turned 3 weeks yesterday so that's reassuring to hear about the growth spurt. If the timing works out today I'll ask to do another weighted feeding. I have thought about getting a scale but I think I'd obsess about it and it might make things worse on my anxiety.
Grandpop came over in his truck, not the SUV that has their extra car seat. Guess I have to drive the boys and join them for lunch instead of staying home to clean the downstairs bathroom. Twist my arm!
Good to know pibblemom, it's just wet here. I'm not sure how far north he had to go. I don't know how his tires are either but they passed inspection so hopefully not awful.
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