TTCAL 02/14/17

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The Trying to Conceive After a Loss thread is posted once a week (generally on Tuesday) for those of us who have unfortunately experienced a loss. No matter what type of loss you've experienced, from miscarriage to stillbirth to the loss of a child, it is heartbreaking. This thread is to help us commiserate, get support, and to try to navigate trying to conceive, after a loss, every week.

Out of respect to all the ladies here, please add a trigger warning if you decide to talk about any living children and please hide your signature if it contains pictures or tickers of babies or children. We also kindly ask for grads to refrain from commenting in this thread.

**If this is your first check-in, and you would like to provide a gtky loss history intro go for it. If not, no worries!**

How are you doing?

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched):

Diagnosis (if applicable):

Updates/questions:

Debbie downer (a place to vent):

QOTW: Salty or sweet?

[scoutradley]

My pregnancy hasn't been 100% confirmed a loss. Is it okay if I ask a few questions here? If not I totally understand.

[ajetter]

Feb 14, 2017 20:31:54 GMT -5 scoutradley said:

My pregnancy hasn't been 100% confirmed a loss. Is it okay if I ask a few questions here? If not I totally understand.

I'm fine with it but I don't know that I represent the majority or that I'd be much help. I'm sorry you're in limbo.

[inaya]

Hi, I'm relatively new to GKU and new to this check-in. I was active on TTCAL back in the Bump days.

(Trigger warning, LC mentioned) Brief background is that we had 2 losses in 2013, got pregnant with our rainbow at the end of that year, and during that pregnancy found out that we're both carriers for a rare genetic condition. Due to the details of that, it's most likely impossible for us to have a living child with the condition but we do have a 25-33% chance of conceiving and miscarrying a baby with it. Our rainbow daughter is 2-1/2 now and we're "lightly" TTC.

How are you doing? OK. I'm starting to feel more anxious about the possibility of being PgAL. This is cycle 5 of this round of TTC and we've mostly been NTNP but I'm starting to paradoxically get twitchy about really trying and also feeling the anxiety about it all. Up until now I've mostly been able to just be in denial about what it could all mean.

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): TTC

Diagnosis (if applicable): MH &I are both carriers for CDG-1a

Updates/questions:

Debbie downer (a place to vent):

QOTW: Salty or sweet? Sweet. I like salty, but sweet is my downfall

[inaya]

Feb 14, 2017 20:31:54 GMT -5 scoutradley said:

My pregnancy hasn't been 100% confirmed a loss. Is it okay if I ask a few questions here? If not I totally understand.

It wouldn't bother me, but I can't speak for others and don't really know this group's culture yet. You can PM me if you want, I'm not a professional or expert or anything but I've been around the loss groups for quite a while. I know it's hard to find a place to ask about anything when you're in limbo.

[cnf2013]

Feb 14, 2017 20:31:54 GMT -5 scoutradley said:

My pregnancy hasn't been 100% confirmed a loss. Is it okay if I ask a few questions here? If not I totally understand.

I'm fine with it. I'm fairly new to the check in too with only one prior loss, so I might not be much help.

[cnf2013]

How are you doing? Better. I'm both sad and relieved to have not gotten pregnant last cycle. It's weird. I'm definitely feeling calmer now though.

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): TTC WTO

Diagnosis (if applicable):

Updates/questions: starting temping again this cycle. Not doing it last cycle was more stress than not.

Debbie downer (a place to vent):

QOTW: Salty or sweet? Salty. I do not add any salt to my food personally, but I love savory salty foods.

[scoutradley]

Thanks ajetter inaya cnf2013! ramadiculous PM'd me so I asked her a few questions. I really appreciate the offers and the personal welcomes.

[aprilz81]

How are you doing? Ready to get started...

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): TTC as soon as CD1 arrives

Diagnosis (if applicable): PCOS

Updates/questions: Friday marks 3 months since losing Ava and we will start TTC again as soon as CD1 arrives (any second now, my last BCP was Saturday). We are going to try on our own for one month and hope I ovulate on my own the first cycle off the pill and if I don't ovulate or it doesn't work we are going straight back to the RE. I just turned 36 and don't have time to wait.

Debbie downer (a place to vent): We just got back from a lovely vacation in Punta Cana and while it was mostly good I found myself thinking of Ava a lot more than I expected. I didn't get too sad, but as I walked the beach or relaxed by the pool I would remember holding her or how fun it was to feel her move. I want that again, only this time I want to hold a living, breathing baby.

QOTW: Salty or sweet? I love both with a slight edge towards salty. I can devour a bag of chips if left alone.

Siggie question: My siggie has a picture of Ava's feet and her birth stats even though she was stillborn. I hid it today as a precaution, should I continue to do so?

[inaya]

Feb 15, 2017 10:26:09 GMT -5 aprilz81 said:

Siggie question: My siggie has a picture of Ava's feet and her birth stats even though she was stillborn. I hid it today as a precaution, should I continue to do so?

Again, I'm new to this check-in but on the loss boards, any siggy info for lost angels is 100% fine any time. Unless someone corrects me, I think that's fine.

[ajetter]

***TW: LC mentioned***

How are you doing? Meh. I'm fine as long as I'm busy. If I spend too much time in my own head it isn't good.

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): TTC, WTO (CD6)

Diagnosis (if applicable):

Updates/questions: It's crazy, I feel like I wasn't pregnant. It all feels like it was a dream. And yet I never thought I'd be TTC again so it feels strange to be back in this place too. Trying to decide when to start using OPKs. I've never O'ed before CD14, usually after that. Is CD 10 early enough to catch a surge?

Debbie downer (a place to vent): Yesterday was clearly pregnancy announcement day. At least that is how I felt. I get twinges of jealousy and then I hate myself for it. And DD1's school party was rough. I had my other two with me and multiple adults commented on it. "Oh three girls! Wow! The teen years will be rough! Oh that's so fun!" And more stuff. Nothing truly negative, I just kept thinking in my head but I'm supposed to have four. Right now I just have to keep telling myself over and over I want everyone to be happy, and just because I lost one baby doesn't mean I'll never have another.

QOTW: Salty or sweet? Overall I'd pick sweet. But really my preference is a combo. I love ice cream with cashews.

[scoutradley]

My first time here guys. Loss history: one potential loss 2 1/2 years ago. I had a positive on one kind of test and a negative on another kind and my period was slightly late. I'm am unsure if this was a loss or no. I lean toward yes because I had my normal pregnancy symptoms. And I am currently miscarrying.

How are you doing? I'm sad, very tired and still hurting physically. I'm also having a very hard time letting myself cry and I don't know why.

Status (TTA, TTC, Benched): benched currently until I have stopped miscarrying. Unsure if we'll start TTC or TTA for awhile.

Diagnosis (if applicable): I had PID twice which increases the risk for several bad outcomes.

Updates/questions: I got the official confirmation today that my levels were at a 4.

Debbie downer (a place to vent): I hate it when someone says "you can try again" or "there will be another baby".

QOTW: Salty or sweet? Both. I love salty/sweet combos.

[ajetter]

scoutradley I'm so sorry. Hugs.

[cnf2013]

Lots of love and hugs scoutradley

[aprilz81]

scoutradley I'm so sorry. Have you asked for some prescription pain meds if you are in that much discomfort?

[scoutradley]

Feb 16, 2017 9:09:20 GMT -5 aprilz81 said:

scoutradley I'm so sorry. Have you asked for some prescription pain meds if you are in that much discomfort?

I don't react well to meds in general so I tend to shy away from prescriptions. I'm feeling quite a bit better today thankfully.