New here (my intro/story)

[lovelyjaide]

I lost my baby at 41 weeks she was stillborn on February 11th.

After starting labor on the 10th I went to the hospital expecting it to be a happy occasion. But when they went to find my baby girl's heartbeat and couldn't my heart dropped. She was always consistent in her heartbeat and we never had to work hard to find it. They brought in a doctor and an ultrasound machine to see if maybe they could see a heartbeat. They, couldn't but they kept trying and brought in one more doctor to "just make sure". I knew that they wouldn't, they had been searching for like 10 minutes now.
They finally confirmed my daughter did not have a heartbeat, but I was in labor so they moved me to a delivery room. 

I delivered baby Aela Mae and did get to spend time with her and have photos taken and for that I am glad.


Anyways I cam here just looking for support. It's weird and hard to be home with the thought "I should have a baby with me".
        

[tthgirl]

I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter, Aela Mae.

[littleowl913]

I'm so sorry for your loss of Aela Mae. I hope you find the support here you need.

[happyin14]

I'm so sorry for the loss of Aela Mae. And so glad you have the photos! Welcome - although I am so sorry you are here.

[dadalou]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your daughter. My son was stillborn at full term last February. I understand the there should be a baby thoughts. I had those a lot too.

[flutterfly88]

I'm sorry for the loss of your Aela Mae. I hope you find the support you're looking for here.

[twixiesky]

I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter, Aela Mae. That feeling is hard when you know your child's behavior and what's normal and not for them during appointments.
I hope you find the support you need here.

[wrenofthesea]

I am so sorry for loss of your daughter Aela Mae, that is a beautiful name. The thoughts that you should have a baby with you but don't are really hard and difficult. I too lost my daughter at 41 weeks in October. I hope that you find the support you need here.

[lovelyjaide]

Thank you all.

[mrswheelo]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you find the support you're looking for here. I'm almost 4 months out from my loss and I still have the "I should be doing this with my baby" feelings.

[girpipley]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my twin boys on the same day. I will be thinking of you.

[jenn83]

I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find comfort and strength here. It has been a great support system since I came onboard months after my loss. Sometimes just reading everyone elses thoughts are comforting knowing that you are not alone in your thinking. Grieving for a child is different from any other experience I have ever been through - and the MOST DIFFICULT. Sending hugs.

[cheesypeas]

I am so sorry for your loss of Aela Mae. I hope you find some comfort in this board.

[shandorfml2]

I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet daughter. She has a beautiful name

[penguininthecity]

It's a very surreal: I'm also constantly thinking that I should have a near-3-month old (I lost my little girl in early December the day after she was born). Also the feeling of grief and loss after you were expecting to celebrate. There's definitely no words that will make things better, but hoping you do find lots of comfort and support here.

I'm very sorry for the loss of Aela Mae. *big virtual hugs*