Things I wish I knew
Feb 25, 2015 12:51:58 GMT -5
Post by littlelion on Feb 25, 2015 12:51:58 GMT -5
dashook thanks for sharing. I also didn't fall immediately in love with my baby. And I waited and waited. After 4 wks I talked to my sister and told her I thought something must be wrong with me since I wasn't feeling all the overwhelming love that a mom should feel for their baby. And she helped me feel ok with that...she said it happened to her as well & that she fell in love gradually. Now 3 months later I do love my baby and fall more in love each day.
And yes, BF is such a complicated issue. I wasn't for it or against it before, I decided to wait and see how it played out after lo was born. After giving birth, I did feel the pressure to BF. And luckily things worked out for us. I worry about making enough for him, I hate going out and trying to figure out where to feed him and who I could offend if I do it right there and then, and yet I resent having to watch what I eat or drink in case it bothers him, resent having a limit on my time away from him out and about since I could spring a leak. And I love and hate that I am the only one that can feed him (unless I want to spend that time pumping which is a whole other hassle). And now at my 1st week back at work, I feel the stress of deciding to continue to bf vs making life easier for me and just ff. And of course, now I have strong feelings towards BF my baby as long as possible.
And yes, BF is such a complicated issue. I wasn't for it or against it before, I decided to wait and see how it played out after lo was born. After giving birth, I did feel the pressure to BF. And luckily things worked out for us. I worry about making enough for him, I hate going out and trying to figure out where to feed him and who I could offend if I do it right there and then, and yet I resent having to watch what I eat or drink in case it bothers him, resent having a limit on my time away from him out and about since I could spring a leak. And I love and hate that I am the only one that can feed him (unless I want to spend that time pumping which is a whole other hassle). And now at my 1st week back at work, I feel the stress of deciding to continue to bf vs making life easier for me and just ff. And of course, now I have strong feelings towards BF my baby as long as possible.