Tough Conversation

[excited30]

This coming Thursday I am going to sit down with my husband and have a very tough conversation.  We have been separated for several years.  We haven't actually talked about our relationship in a long long time.  All the talking we do is about and around our 3 yr old daughter.  The thing is, that I've been unable/not ready to initiate this conversation until very recently.  I have started to experience anxiety a lot lately and I know it's building because I haven't been addressing our relationship.  I've been dreading talking about it with him because I know our marriage is over.  This is the guy I love, but it's not going to work.  I don't want to get into the why of it online, but it's not. I've known it for a long time and I am broken hearted... this conversation will be the initiation into divorce.  Please pray for me and him.  I have tears in my eyes as I type this.  

[freezorburn]

Sending prayers... take good care of yourself!

[20thirteen]

Hugs and love, excited30

I still have your picture on my fridge from that Mother's Day gift exchange on TD, DD waves hi to you guys a lot even though she has no idea who you are.

This is going to be rough, and I'm so sorry. My heart hurts for you. Good luck, we're here if you need us.

[excited30]

Thank you ladies very much. I'm trying not to over think tomorrow's conversation, but my whole being is anticipating it. I hope that I sleep tonight.

20thirteen that's so cool that your daughter waves at our picture Makes me smile. I really enjoyed participating in that exchange. I don't want to organize it, but I'd love it if something like that was done again. It was so nice to support each other in that way for Mother's Day.

[20thirteen]

I was thinking about that the other day. While the girl that organized it turned out to be CRAZY, she did put that thing together. I also would be interested in doing an exchange like that for mother's day.

[becwheat]

How did it go?

I honestly did not remember that you were not yet divorced! My memory sucks sometimes.

[excited30]

He really honored me in conversation this morning. My heart is ripped apart. We decided on divorce. I am a wreck and a mess of tears all day since

[20thirteen]

hugs excited30

[excited30]

Thanks 20thirteen for your hugs. I think I am in shock. I have been constantly cold since our conversation yesterday and just very very sad. I'm trying to decide what to do with my little girl this morning as I don't think that staying in the house will be that healthy for us. I have to work this afternoon and care for someone else's 2 kids for 4 hrs...I really wish I had the weekend off. I also, as weird as it might sound, want to know how my husband is doing. One of my biggest fears is losing our friendship and the good we've built in the past couple years. I know that everything is going to change but I truly hope that once our relationship boundaries settle we will be stronger parents and even better friends than before. I just feel like death has ocurred today and have been awake since 6am. I had to take something at 1:30am to sleep too.

[emmaswan]

Hugs excited30. It's okay to mourn the loss of the marriage -- it is still a loss after all.