I feel a little funky today. A touch light headed or a small headache. Hard to tell. Trying to chug water to make it go away. I can't wait for morning nap time so I can lie down too and maybe rest this foggy feeling off.
Pretty tired after our trip to l&d to check out contractions. Other than that, feel pretty good. LO is taking it easy on me this morning after scaring me lastnight.
Overly emotional today. Mainly because I just found out my nurse of four years may not be coming back . I knew she was going on tour with her drummer boyfriend for a month which is inconvenient because of DD being sick but now she's thinking of moving to California and not coming back. The nursing agency can't find anyone to replace her. I probably wouldn't like them anyway. But I am freaking pregnant! What the hell am I going to do !?!? I am so stressed. Can't stop crying. I had to call her school and talk to her teacher to let her know what's going on and I just started bawling. I am sure I sounded like a crazy person.. I am so stressed out right now. I have to pick DH up from work everyday because he doesn't have his license for various reasons from a few things that happened before we met and DD is back on the ventilator with being sick. I don't know what I am going to do. My nurse leaves on Monday and I don't see DD coming off the vent and being back to normal by then. Normally it's not a big deal to take her places but the ventilator makes it damn near impossible. I am not feeling today at all. I know I shouldn't be upset with my nurse but I really really am. I am so pissed!!! She wants to go live the party groupie life and that's her choice but damnit could she have picked a worse time!!!!
at 10:30p, My husband was pissed at fedex/kinkos for ephing up the poster he's taking to a meeting today, so he spent 2 noisy hours packing for the trip/meeting. (it's in TX). Two hours in which I was trying to fall asleep.
and then DS1 woke me up bc he was thirsty at 515am. Then DH got up for work. I did manage to fall back to sleep around 7. Fortunately DS slept until 8:30. But OMG I am exhausted.
DH did take out Mt Trashmore before he left this am, so I can't be too pissed, right??
Had a tough time sleeping last night. Wound up kicking DH out of the bed in the middle of the night because of his snoring.
I also kind of feel like I'm nesting at work (though I'm still taking occasional breaks to check here in the morning). As soon as afternoon hits, I get laser focused on my workload. I feel bad because it makes me irritable whenever a co-worker stops by my desk, especially to bug me with something they shouldn't be. I have so much to do and it's just crazy to think that I have to get it all at a point where somebody can easily take over once I'm gone for nearly three months. I don't feel this way at home yet because I can still kind of pawn stuff off on DH.
I feel pretty great today. Back to 8+ hours straight of sleep last night and I actually flat ironed my hair this morning before work. It's getting harder and harder to make it up the 6 flights of stairs at work each day though!
Post by pghtruelove on Mar 25, 2015 9:53:48 GMT -5
Extremely tired. I didn't sleep at all last night because of peeing, and not being able to get comfy. Also I'm flying back to Pittsburgh today and I can never sleep the night before travel. Being tired makes me feel worse. Super nauseas which is awful. On the plus side because of this little girl I get pre priority boarding for southwest so I get to pick any seat I want! Yay! Hope everyone has a great day!
maddib - So sorry you have to deal with all of that right now. Creepy internet hugs to you. Hopefully you and your SO can figure something out at least short term. Any family around to help out?
Thank you! I will take creepy internet hugs right now! And I do have my step mom willing to learn it's just so hard for me to trust someone else. DD has this thing where when she gets mad and cries she stops breathing and turns stiff and blue. When she was little it required bagging and CPR to open her lungs. Now she is better in the sense that I can talk her through it and she starts breathing again but she still has spells where she's blue stiff and unresponsive for 30 seconds and comes out of it really dazed. And if her trach comes out the person watching her has to move on instinct to get it back in before that happens otherwise it's too hard to get the trach in when she's stiff. I have had this nurse for four years and there were some scarey times but she is now just as comfortable with it all as I am. Trying to train somebody new as well as a finding a new nurse to train scares the shit out of me. Back before I found this nurse I didn't ever leave the house because I had nurses freeze up and not know what to do and if I hadn't been there my daughter would be dead. I am terrified to leave her in the care of someone who hasn't been around or knows what can happen. Normally my DD is the happiest child on earth now. Whenever my step mom has seen her she has never coded in front of her. It happens at home and I worry they don't know what to expect. It doesnt happen all the time now but still can happen and I am scared..
Post by periwinkledaydreams on Mar 25, 2015 11:05:14 GMT -5
I've been pretty MIA lately as I've hit a really rough patch the past month and a half, and really crashed this last week. Been dealing with chronic migraine all 2nd tri that has me pretty much bedridden in the dark in agonizng pain all day every day and a slew of doctors messing with meds trying to get it under control. Last week I went a full seven days without falling asleep at all. I ended up being taken to the ER by ambulance during a PT appointment because my bloodpressure was scary low and I almost passed out. My OB followed up then and turns out I had also lost 6 pounds since I saw her last. She had me admitted to L&D all weekend on IV fluids just at least trying to get me to fall asleep, and to get the migraine somewhat under control. Its been quite hellish on my body and my mental state, but through all of this my baby girl seems to be completely unphased. She maintains her strong heartbeat and growth and that's my silver lining. I'll be seeing a high risk MFM from now on which gives me some comfort because I am terribly anxious and afraid of all the pain I've been in, of how sad I've become, and mostly of how much medication I've been given.
I did finally admit that there is so much going on and that I am feeling overwhelmed, depressed, sad and anxious and that I want to talk to someone, and had my OB refer me to a therapist. For a while I rationalized that because I knew exactly why I felt this way, that it wasn't necessary, but it is. I also joined up on the PPA/PPD board for some extra support. I want to encourage anyone else who may be struggling with similar feelings to reach out of course first to your doctor for support, and also know that a board exists for this with resources linked.
Whew sorry for how long my post just became! It's been awhile. Today my headache is at about a 6 out of 10, which is bearable, so I'll take it. Perhaps I'll try to accomplish something tangible. I already pretended to get dressed for HDBD lol!
Post by sapphyre0702 on Mar 25, 2015 11:11:24 GMT -5
Simply exhausted and totally unfocused and unmotivated to work. How am I going to get through two more months faking caring about work!?!? It doesn't help that my commute is an hour each day.
I've been pretty MIA lately as I've hit a really rough patch the past month and a half, and really crashed this last week. Been dealing with chronic migraine all 2nd tri that has me pretty much bedridden in the dark in agonizng pain all day every day and a slew of doctors messing with meds trying to get it under control. Last week I went a full seven days without falling asleep at all. I ended up being taken to the ER by ambulance during a PT appointment because my bloodpressure was scary low and I almost passed out. My OB followed up then and turns out I had also lost 6 pounds since I saw her last. She had me admitted to L&D all weekend on IV fluids just at least trying to get me to fall asleep, and to get the migraine somewhat under control. Its been quite hellish on my body and my mental state, but through all of this my baby girl seems to be completely unphased. She maintains her strong heartbeat and growth and that's my silver lining. I'll be seeing a high risk MFM from now on which gives me some comfort because I am terribly anxious and afraid of all the pain I've been in, of how sad I've become, and mostly of how much medication I've been given.
I did finally admit that there is so much going on that I want to talk to someone, and had my OB refer me to a therapist. I also joined up on the PPA/PPD board for some extra support. I want to encourage anyone else who may be struggling with similar feelings to reach out of course first to your doctor for support, and also know that a board exists for this with resources linked.
Whew sorry for how long my post just became! It's been awhile. Today my headache is at about a 6 out of 10, which is bearable, so I'll take it. Perhaps I'll try to accomplish something tangible. I already pretended to get dressed for HDBD lol!
I am so sorry you have to go through all of this. I can understand chronic migraines better then most. I have had a brain surgery that still hasn't fixed the problem. I have been lucky this far that my ob prescribed Percocet seems to help the really bad ones but I totally empathize with you !! I hope they can figure something out and give you some relief soon!!
My boobs feel full. :: sigh :: I'm down to nursing DD about every few days because I'm really not into it yet I'm convinced that tandem nursing will go a long way in easing the transition from "only" for her (so don't want her to lose her latch). My boobs haven't been making milk in forever, but now they definitely feel full and hot.
Hugs to all of you ladies having a hard time right now! Thinking of y'all!
It sounds like sleep issues are a common theme around here, so just add me to that list too. I wake up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom and then have problems falling back asleep. My sinuses are feeling pretty stuffy today,which doesn't help with the tiredness. I just want to lay on the couch with jalapeno chips and a chocolate milkshake hahaha.
I am right there with everyone on the lack of sleep. My heartburn is also rearing it's ugly head again today because I took my Prevacid too close to when I ate breakfast. Boo! I think I had my first BH today too. I got out of bed too quickly and had this horrible cramp for like 10 seconds. It went away and hasn't come back since. Trying to drink lots of water and rest..
Positive today is I've been getting lots of LO kicks this week. Loving all my baby feels!
I'm literally bored to goddamn tears today. I have had a cold the last couple of days and have been resting. Today I'm starting to feel better and I literally have nothing to do or anyone to talk to. I know in a few months I'll probably be thankful for days like this (if they even exist then) but today I'm just over being in my house with nothing to do.
Post by missjenniebean on Mar 25, 2015 17:05:55 GMT -5
My attitude sucks. My furbaby pissed me off by eating the cat food and refusing to walk in the grass and go to the bathroom when we were outside. Which means she hasn't gone pee or poop since six this morning and it is now after six in the evening. She knows I am mad at her and is staying clear. Some days I wonder how I can take care of a kid when I can barely handle my pup.
Other than my temper, I am so extremely tired. Even after a nap. Also, my one ankle that was sprained a while ago is so achy today, must mean rain!
Overly emotional today. Mainly because I just found out my nurse of four years may not be coming back . I knew she was going on tour with her drummer boyfriend for a month which is inconvenient because of DD being sick but now she's thinking of moving to California and not coming back. The nursing agency can't find anyone to replace her. I probably wouldn't like them anyway. But I am freaking pregnant! What the hell am I going to do !?!? I am so stressed. Can't stop crying. I had to call her school and talk to her teacher to let her know what's going on and I just started bawling. I am sure I sounded like a crazy person.. I am so stressed out right now. I have to pick DH up from work everyday because he doesn't have his license for various reasons from a few things that happened before we met and DD is back on the ventilator with being sick. I don't know what I am going to do. My nurse leaves on Monday and I don't see DD coming off the vent and being back to normal by then. Normally it's not a big deal to take her places but the ventilator makes it damn near impossible. I am not feeling today at all. I know I shouldn't be upset with my nurse but I really really am. I am so pissed!!! She wants to go live the party groupie life and that's her choice but damnit could she have picked a worse time!!!!
So sorry! Is your daughter doing better today? I hope the antibiotics are working for her.
My boobs feel full. :: sigh :: I'm down to nursing DD about every few days because I'm really not into it yet I'm convinced that tandem nursing will go a long way in easing the transition from "only" for her (so don't want her to lose her latch). My boobs haven't been making milk in forever, but now they definitely feel full and hot.
Mine have been feeling really full the last week or so not hot yet, thankfully.
I feel pretty great today. Back to 8+ hours straight of sleep last night and I actually flat ironed my hair this morning before work. It's getting harder and harder to make it up the 6 flights of stairs at work each day though!
How in the world can you sleep through the night? You must have the nicest (ie furthest from your bladder) baby ever!! I was so excited I only woke up twice last night. It's been 3-5 times for weeks now.
Post by sapphyre0702 on Mar 25, 2015 19:55:57 GMT -5
Does anyone else get agonizingly full after dinner if you eat a "normal" meal? The past two weeks or so I can only eat a half meal or else I get this horribly full feeling and pain like a stomach ache (I am guessing my stomach is squished up there now) around my bra line. Occasionally I forget and eat a normal meal and pay dearly for it after. It doesn't happen after breakfast or lunch though.
Overly emotional today. Mainly because I just found out my nurse of four years may not be coming back . I knew she was going on tour with her drummer boyfriend for a month which is inconvenient because of DD being sick but now she's thinking of moving to California and not coming back. The nursing agency can't find anyone to replace her. I probably wouldn't like them anyway. But I am freaking pregnant! What the hell am I going to do !?!? I am so stressed. Can't stop crying. I had to call her school and talk to her teacher to let her know what's going on and I just started bawling. I am sure I sounded like a crazy person.. I am so stressed out right now. I have to pick DH up from work everyday because he doesn't have his license for various reasons from a few things that happened before we met and DD is back on the ventilator with being sick. I don't know what I am going to do. My nurse leaves on Monday and I don't see DD coming off the vent and being back to normal by then. Normally it's not a big deal to take her places but the ventilator makes it damn near impossible. I am not feeling today at all. I know I shouldn't be upset with my nurse but I really really am. I am so pissed!!! She wants to go live the party groupie life and that's her choice but damnit could she have picked a worse time!!!!
So sorry! Is your daughter doing better today? I hope the antibiotics are working for her.
She's better in the sense that I was able to drop her oxygen from 5 liters to 2 liters but she's still on the vent all day which is a major set back for us. And with the nurse leaving it just makes it way more difficult.. And her damn heart rate is soooo high. Up in the 170's. Normally when she's not active it's 110-120 and when she's active like playing or crawling it's 130-140. So 170 while she's resting is definitely really high. I am giving the medicine one more day to see if she improves then I am taking her in to have them run some cultures and tests. If it's viral pneumonia that would be bad. She would be admitted and given antivirals which is some serious crap. So here's to hoping she improves tonight..
Does anyone else get agonizingly full after dinner if you eat a "normal" meal? The past two weeks or so I can only eat a half meal or else I get this horribly full feeling and pain like a stomach ache (I am guessing my stomach is squished up there now) around my bra line. Occasionally I forget and eat a normal meal and pay dearly for it after. It doesn't happen after breakfast or lunch though.
Yes. I can't eat my normal sized meals anymore. Small meals and snacking for me.
Post by lunalovegood on Mar 25, 2015 21:20:41 GMT -5
maddib so sorry about your nurse leaving. That must be so stressful for you. Hope the meds start working better and your daughter does not need to be admitted.
maddib so sorry about your nurse leaving. That must be so stressful for you. Hope the meds start working better and your daughter does not need to be admitted.
Thank you! I hope so too. I had a panic attack today which was pretty bad and my DH made me call my doctor. They prescribed something for the anxiety and I feel a little better but ya today was pretty bad for me. I have never experienced anything like it.
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