Hugs for me?

[lizblue]

Feeling shitty right now and don't even know why. Rationally I'm far enough away from our infertility stuff to accept it, but today I just feel so raw. CD 1 is happening at any second and I'm weepy and feeling sorry for myself.

Somebody send hugs and vodka. Thanks.

/pity party.

[menrandes]

Huge **hugs** lady. Drink all the vodka you need to, and know we are here for you whenever!

[sarcaztic10]

Sending you so many (((hugs))) and lots of vodka lizblue

[rubysi]

So many hugs coming your way. Sometimes life likes to slap us with some sadness.

[lizblue]

thank you my friends. I woke up with a brighter outlook (and horrible fucking cramps) and I'm just going to be nice to myself today. And later I am going to eat a fat fucking burrito.

Xo

[rslh10]

You eat the shit out of that burrito and you enjoy every second!!! ((Hugs)) to you my love.

[megrae12]

Ooh my friend. So many ((hugs)). You know I'm here if you need anything. Love Ya, lady.

[skategirl128]

So many big hugs heading your way! Much love to you too!!!

[4furrypaws]

Oh my friend...I'm glad you are some better today. I'm still gonna tackle you and HUG the crap outta ya though!!!

xoxo

[therealbug]

Mar 27, 2015 22:28:49 GMT -5 lizblue said:

Feeling shitty right now and don't even know why. Rationally I'm far enough away from our infertility stuff to accept it, but today I just feel so raw. CD 1 is happening at any second and I'm weepy and feeling sorry for myself.

Somebody send hugs and vodka. Thanks.

/pity party.

Oh sweetie, no, no you are not. An IF diagnosis sucks and there is no time line on when you will come to acceptance. Be gentle on yourself and do not beat yourself up if you have a bad day or days. 

I've said this before but it bears repeating:  it took me 8 years to come to peace with my IF diagnosis. I'm not saying that every day was a bad day but there was a moment of very clear acceptance and peace with what my future was - and a lot of sucky random days in between.  

Just like mourning your losses, this is another loss and it takes time. 

Lots of (((hugs))) and I'm passing a bottle of belvedere your way.

[o2girl]

Oh Liz! I'm so sorry you are feeling so blue. We can have a duel pity party and get drunk and eat all the shitty feel good food. So many ((((hugs)))) for all the shitty shit and just because you're awesome.

[holdingouthope]

I'm sending you all the (((hugs))) and vodka, Liz. I hope you enjoyed the hell out of that burrito. Love you, lady.

[rmpar29]

Sending so many (((HUGS))) love. I'm so sorry that you are feeling really shitty right now. Please know that you are in my T&Ps!

[kateisoptimistic]

Just seeing this now, sorry you are having a rough time. Sending you lots of ((hugs)) and cocktails. Be kind to yourself love.

[lizblue]

Hey - don't worry guys! Shit got way better when my H broke a valve in our basement and I am without water for 24 hours, waiting on an emergency plumber! At least I'm not sad about my fertility anymore.

In all honesty, I do feel better. I have to remind myself (or have therealbug, remind me) that grief is not linear, and that this is a lifelong process. I just have all the feels about this lately and being super hormonal and "late" doesn't help.

We are NTNP from now on, and I convinced myself that we had amazing timing this past month on our cruise and stupidly got my hopes up. Now that I'm three days "late" I a.) broke out the wondfos- all BFNs of course b.) am kicking myself for not temping c.) kicking myself even harder for getting my hopes up and d.) am hormonal as fuck because I'm about to get my period.

I just need to get through this hard time and come out on the other side. Thanks for listening - you guys are always there to pick me up. xo

[therealbug]

Oh that sucks so bad about the water! I hope they got it fixed for you - otherwise, a really nice hotel is in order.

[readinglove]

(((hugs))) for you lady! I'm glad you're in a better headspace now...minus the water situation. Eep! Hope that gets fixed quickly! As much as we tell ourselves grief isn't linear, when those rises and falls happen, they're shitty to deal with, no matter what. We're always here to listen and help you get to the other side - even if that means picking you up and carrying you.

[elliecat17]

((HUGS))