Adoption Blues
Mar 31, 2015 12:16:26 GMT -5
Post by persianmaman on Mar 31, 2015 12:16:26 GMT -5
How frequently do you (or did you) get adoption blues during this whole process? Not so much during the waiting, but the paperwork portion. We have our home study done, but rather than being super over the moon about it, I feel like I'm more unsure and unhappy about it than ever before. Almost like cold feet before a wedding, which I didn't have so I cannot compare.
I'm almost 99% sure that I am feeling stressed out about because of the other thousand non-adoption things that are consuming my thoughts and worries right now that I can do nothing about, which makes me focus on the one I still have to make decisions for. We're paying $$$ for this dying tree to come down, I'm trying to juggle this damn life insurance thing, my school, my work, job searching, keeping the house tidy, rehousing our big bunny boy with a new a family, helping DH arrange travel for his job, prepping to go to Vegas for a memorial service, and the damn list keeps going on.
At this point, I don't want to give up the adoption. I want that kid, I want that family, but I feel like we started the process one year too early with no time to prepare and now we have to do all the paperwork again (well, just the expensive paperwork, yay fingerprinting and doctor's visits). We're too far in to pause. It's making me feel incompetent - if I can't handle all this, how could I possibly be a good mom?
Blah, just wanting to know that it isn't just me and that this passes.
I'm almost 99% sure that I am feeling stressed out about because of the other thousand non-adoption things that are consuming my thoughts and worries right now that I can do nothing about, which makes me focus on the one I still have to make decisions for. We're paying $$$ for this dying tree to come down, I'm trying to juggle this damn life insurance thing, my school, my work, job searching, keeping the house tidy, rehousing our big bunny boy with a new a family, helping DH arrange travel for his job, prepping to go to Vegas for a memorial service, and the damn list keeps going on.
At this point, I don't want to give up the adoption. I want that kid, I want that family, but I feel like we started the process one year too early with no time to prepare and now we have to do all the paperwork again (well, just the expensive paperwork, yay fingerprinting and doctor's visits). We're too far in to pause. It's making me feel incompetent - if I can't handle all this, how could I possibly be a good mom?
Blah, just wanting to know that it isn't just me and that this passes.