Hi there
Apr 11, 2015 16:39:17 GMT -5
Post by soultrane on Apr 11, 2015 16:39:17 GMT -5
I'm joining you guys from the November 15 board where I met some wonderful ladies over the past few months. I am so glad to have found this board so I have a place to talk about my son and my loss since they're both a pretty big part of who I am right now. I posted on the Pregnancy Loss board, and have lurked on CAL a bit, but I didn't feel that either was a good fit for what I'm feeling so far, so the timing of this board is perfect, or as perfect as something can be right now.
Quick version of my story: I had my first appt this past Monday and should have been 8w3d but we unfortunately saw an empty yolk sac/questionable fetal pole instead. My levels dropped between Monday and Wednesday so here I am today, experiencing my first loss after a dose of Cytotec this morning. Despite how I'm feeling physically right now (holy shit this sucks), I'm in pretty good spirits today and I attribute that largely to my 2 year old who always keeps me laughing.
I've had my good days and bad days this week, and I'm sure that will continue. I feel oddly at peace with this though now that we have a plan in place (Cytotec this weekend and D&C scheduled for this week if needed). Being in limbo all week was terrible and just drained me emotionally, but it also allowed me to prepare for the worst.
So anyway, that's me. I'm sad that we're coming together under these circumstances, but I'm so thankful to have a place that seems to fit my situation right now.
Quick version of my story: I had my first appt this past Monday and should have been 8w3d but we unfortunately saw an empty yolk sac/questionable fetal pole instead. My levels dropped between Monday and Wednesday so here I am today, experiencing my first loss after a dose of Cytotec this morning. Despite how I'm feeling physically right now (holy shit this sucks), I'm in pretty good spirits today and I attribute that largely to my 2 year old who always keeps me laughing.
I've had my good days and bad days this week, and I'm sure that will continue. I feel oddly at peace with this though now that we have a plan in place (Cytotec this weekend and D&C scheduled for this week if needed). Being in limbo all week was terrible and just drained me emotionally, but it also allowed me to prepare for the worst.
So anyway, that's me. I'm sad that we're coming together under these circumstances, but I'm so thankful to have a place that seems to fit my situation right now.