Bi-weekly Wine and Cheese 4/14

[sarcaztic10]

Hello everyone!

It is that time again, update us on what is going on in your life both TTC related and not TTC related. 

And of course lots of wine and cheese! 

[sarcaztic10]

I am battling the cold from hell right now. It just came upon me overnight and settled in my chest and sinuses. I am drinking tea like it is my job. I cant take any cold medicine because I have a bad reaction to some of the ingredients in it and I just end up worse for the wear if I try to take any. I am going to stop by the store after work and pick up more tea.

TTC related I am still on a break and on BCP. I had an appt with my RE today to discuss any tests that we wanted to do while I was on break and a possible change of plan for when we get off the bench. She is checking with my insurance but they want to run karyotyping on me and H if possible. She drew blood for a repeat AMH and TSH check today. She is also checking if my insurance will test me for insulin resistance and a bunch of other testes that I have never had done.

As for a change of plan for our next cycle she said that we should wait for the tests to come back but she presented me with 2 options. I can either go with IVF or do IUI with injects. Even though I have insurance that covers some of the cost of IVF I don't think it would be financially possible for us for a few years at least. I still have to discuss it with H but I want to go with the IUI with injects and try a few of those. I have only had one failed IUI and several medicated cycles so I don't think it is time for an talk about IVF yet... Especially since it is not something we can afford right now.

[4furrypaws]

sarcaztic10 I hope you get to feeling better asap hun!

So. I am in Miso hell right now. Two doses since Friday and still nothing but cramps and light/med bleeding. Fuck me. When I called the office today they said to wait until tomorrow am and if nothing they would either do a third dose or schedule a D&C. Fuck me. So...do I try to go to work tomorrow...while still carrying around my passed baby...Fuck me.

I just can't see us ever being successful on our own. But the financial cost of IVF/PGD...WTF. I have no insurance coverage for it either. Fuck Me.

So, sorry to be a poop head...but I'm just in a real bad place right now.

[sarcaztic10]

4furrypaws (((Hugs))) it took 2 big doses of miso for me to pass loss #2. It happened all of a sudden too so just based on my experience I would say don't go to work tomorrow and I will hope that the miso works by then.

I got the IVF talk from the RE and even with coverage the sticker shock is crazy. I know we wouldn't be able to do IVF for like 5 more years until we save a ton of money (or win the lottery...) and even then it would be hard to do. I just don't see IVF in our future and it sucks, more (((Hugs))) to you.

[sarcaztic10]

@wickedcandy ugh, I am sorry that you aren't getting any answers (((Hugs))). It just totally sucks when you know something is wrong but tests aren't showing you anything. I hope that they are able to give you some answers soon.

[skategirl128]

Feel better sarcaztic10! Big hugs!

4furrypaws I'm so sorry lots of big hugs!!

Big hugs @wickedcandy! I'm sorry you still don't have answers. Not knowing is so stressful- much love!!

As for me I'm two weeks past surgery. I go in for treatment on Thursday. I was cleared to teach my baking class this afternoon, but that's it! I've been out and about a little but still so scared of getting sick. I go in for a check on Thursday too so I'm hoping I can get released to pre-surgery activities (swimming mostly is what I'm wanting to do). I'm doing so well and I'm still so hopeful that I'm beating this! The biggest complaint I have is my lack of energy. I'm always so freaking tired!

[4furrypaws]

Apr 14, 2015 16:02:09 GMT -5 @wickedcandy said:

((Hugs)) 4furrypaws & sarcaztic10

Well today's appointment was.. A big fat, no answers, I did 7 vials of bw & X-rays and go back may 12th, but something is going on, we just don't know what.

I hope so much the testing brings some answers hun. xo

[4furrypaws]

renegadewhit It will be here before you know it!

[skategirl128]

Apr 14, 2015 20:20:04 GMT -5 @wickedcandy said:

skategirl128, you teach baking ?

I do I teach for preschoolers and adults! It's so much fun! Today we made homemade angel food cake strawberry shortcakes with homemade whipped cream!

[rmpar29]

sarcaztic10 - Thanks for the check-in love! I'm glad that you are getting some more testing done and I hope that your insurance covers it. I agree that jumping to IVF might be a bit premature at this point. (((HUGS))) I hope you feel better soon!

4furrypaws - Oh love, I'm so sorry that the Miso isn't working. I hope that you are able to get a third dose and that your body start cooperating. So many ((((HUGS))))! Please update on what the doc says today. You are in my thoughts honey!

@wickedcandy - Well, crap! I had hoped that the doc would at least have an inkling of what's going on. I'm so sorry love!

skategirl128 - I'm sorry that you are so tired, but I'm glad that you are doing well! I hope that you can swim soon honey.

renegadewhit - I hope the time flies by for you dear! Sounds like you've got enough to keep you busy.

CALR: Just in another TWW. I O'd really late (CD23) so I really little hope. I had a weird temp a couple days ago that made my heart say "that could be implantation" but then my head says "You're an idiot, you woke up early and it's just a whacky temp". Ugh...

NCALR: DH and I are making some good progress on our house. I have most of the door moldings painted on the first floor. Our guest bath is almost done, and the half bath needs a final coat of paint. We got some of the outside cleaned up last Sunday when it was so nice out and I hope to get some bulbs dug up and replanted this weekend.

Also, I think the anti-depressants are starting to help. I'm still exhausted, but not feeling as depressed as I was. I just have to get through next Friday (one anniversary of losing my mom) and then my mood should improve some more.

[rubysi]

sarcaztic10, hugs and I hope you feel better soon.

4furrypaws, hugs I am so sorry you are going through this.

@wickedcandy, I hope you get some answers soon.

skategirl128, Good luck on Thursday.

renegadewhit, sounds like you will be busy... I hope the time passes quickly.

rmpar29, That sounds like an impressive amount of work. I am glad hear you are feeling better.

AFM : I feel like a bloated guppie. Egg retrieval is tomorrow and the 16+ follies are ready. Today the weather should be nice enough for me to get back into the garden. The heavy rain and hail gave me another lazy day of my staycation.

[sarcaztic10]

skategirl128 I love that you teach baking! That is so cool! I am happy to hear that you are doing well and I hope that you will be able to go swimming soon.
renegadewhit I hope that you are able to keep your mind off of everything. Your schedule sounds packed so that should help a lot!
rmpar29 Yay for more progress on the house! I am glad that you are feeling better.
rubysi Good luck on your ER tomorrow!!! I will be sending lots of positive vibes your way! Let us know how it goes!

[readinglove]

Oh my goodness...how did 2 weeks go by again?? Popping in quickly to post, and will be back later to read and respond to you lovely ladies.

I am so over school/work right now. The year needs to be over, and it needs to be summer. There are only 34 days left, and I know how much we have left to cover, but...ugh. The students are killing me slowly. Plans are coming together for our trip to Chicago (I'm the adviser for a group, and we take a 3 day trip there), and I have some really amazing students going. They're the crew I had last year, and they are just...the best. I adore them so very much - which is probably part of what has made this year so hard. 

CALR, it's the glorious TWW. Debating whether or not to test Saturday morning - which would be 10DPO. It's my grandparents' 50th anniversary party, and I'd like to enjoy a few adult beverages...I keep going back and forth about it. I have no idea or inkling as to how this cycle went. I'm hopeful, but also...not. If that makes any sense at all.

Also, the weather here has been beautiful. Getting back into running has been amazing. Looking forward to my run tonight, followed by a mani/pedi.

[rmpar29]

readinglove - ((((HUGS)))) love! I would test if I was planning on having a couple drinks. I hope that you get a surprise!

[readinglove]

Apr 15, 2015 12:02:21 GMT -5 rmpar29 said:

readinglove - ((((HUGS)))) love! I would test if I was planning on having a couple drinks. I hope that you get a surprise!

Thanks sunshine. I think I'm leaning towards testing to be safe. Unless, y'know, AF decides to show early because she's a bitch like that. But at this point...keeping things crossed.

[readinglove]

sarcaztic10 Oh no! Feel better! I hope insurance will cover the testing you want to do, and that YH is on board with doing an IUI cycle.


4furrypaws My heart hurts for you. ALL of the (((hugs))) and adult beverages for you. 


@wickedcandy Ugh. No answers?? I'm so sorry. Are they planning on doing more testing?


skategirl128 Glad to hear about the positive progress! Will be thinking of you Thursday - I hope treatment and the appointment go well.


renegadewhit Holy smokes! That's a busy schedule! Hopefully time flies for you!


rmpar29 I'm keeping FX for you lady! The house progress sounds fantastic! Glad to hear the meds are helping and you're starting to feel better.


rubysi FX for an awesome retrieval tomorrow!! Let us know how it goes!

[therealbug]

sarcaztic10, thank you for the check-in and I hope you get feeling better soon. I really like that your RE is wanting your test results back before settling on a plan.

4furrypaws, so many (((hugs))). I hope the miso kicks in soon and you do not have to have a d&c. More (((hugs))).

@wickedcandy, I'm optimistic that all of the tests they ran will give you some answers (and a plan and relief) at your May 12th appointment.

skategirl128, teaching baking sounds fun! FX you get released to your pre-surgery activities.

renegadewhit, it sounds like you are going to be really busy until May 6th - it will be here before you know it!

rmpar29, Lots of (((hugs))) and I'm so glad that the anti-depressents are helping

rubysi, everything crossed for you!

readinglove, hopeful but not makes perfect sense. Lots of (((hugs))) and I vote for testing if you will not drink at the party otherwise.

AFM

I had my annual appointment on Monday which also doubled as a follow-up check on the cyst that we have been monitoring since last summer. Everything on the u/s looked good. No cyst (yay!) and what looked like two follies. My fibroids that were not removed are all about the same size and everything else looked fine. The OB asked if I was still having any "unusual" bleeding. I clarified with him whether he still considered any bleeding unusual (yes) so the answer was yes. I did tell him that, since the surgery, I seem to be having normal cycles without all of the mid-cycle spotting I was having. He went ahead and did a repeat FSH and LH bloodwork. If that comes back in a normal-ish range, then he said we will assume that I still have some eggs left and the bleeding is actually part of a normal cycle. If the levels come back at elevated menopause levels again, then we need to figure out what to do.

On the non-TTC front, we are going out of town the weekend after next! It's just a little get away but I'm excited for a mini-vacation.

[rmpar29]

therealbug - I hope that your b/w shows some decent numbers love! Have fun on your get away. Oh, how's your news job going?

[holdingouthope]

Hi ladies! I just wanted to pop in and send some love your way.

sarcaztic10 ~ (((Hugs))) I hope you're feeling better. GL with your lab work and your decision re: IUI and IVF, love.

4furrypaws ~ Just so many big, squishy (((hugs))) for you. I'm so sorry for everything you're dealing with.

@wickedcandy ~ I'm so sorry that you still don't have answers. I hope you find something out on the 12th and can put in a place a good plan going forward.

skategirl128 ~ GL at your check-up today, sweetie!

renegadewhit ~ I hope all your fun plans keep you distracted. The 6th will be here before you know it! GL and FX!

rmpar29 ~ FX for you, love. Congrats on all that productivity around the house; that's something to be proud of, for sure! I'm glad the meds seem to be helping, too. (((Hugs)))

rubysi ~ GL TODAY!!!! So exciting!

readinglove ~ FX for you too, lady! Your Chicago trip sounds like fun. That's awesome that you're back into running, and I hope you enjoyed that mani/pedi.

therealbug ~ YAY for no cyst, no fibroid growth, and I have my FX so hard for good news from the labs. Enjoy your mini vacay, my friend.

Edit: Apparently, spelling is hard.

[rmpar29]

holdingouthope - So nice to see you love!

[holdingouthope]

Apr 16, 2015 9:16:13 GMT -5 rmpar29 said:

holdingouthope - So nice to see you love!

I am always, always thinking of my 6+ ladies!!! I'm always a-lurking, even if you don't "see" me.



^^ Not quite that creepy, though.

[4furrypaws]

Apr 16, 2015 9:30:27 GMT -5 holdingouthope said:

Apr 16, 2015 9:16:13 GMT -5 rmpar29 said:

holdingouthope - So nice to see you love!

I am always, always thinking of my 6+ ladies!!! I'm always a-lurking, even if you don't "see" me.



^^ Not quite that creepy, though.

Bahhaahaha!!! It's ok if your that creepy love...you can creep me any time!

[readinglove]

therealbug Thanks! Definitely testing Saturday morning. Better safe than sorry. GL with your testing - let us know how things turn out!!

holdingouthope Thank you! The mani/pedi was glorious...and now I keep gazing at my nails. They're just so pretty. Hope all is well with you!

[rubysi]

readinglove, FX the next 34 days go quickly... it's only 2 more wine and cheese parties.

therealbug, that's a great update. I love mini vacations.

holdingouthope, it is so nice to see you here. I lurk on CAR and love your updates.

***update***

Retrieval was not comfortable since the ovaries didn't want to play nice. One hid behind my ute and the other moved alot. Grand total was 13 eggs. They seemed pleased and I am hoping that I will have some to work with. I will get my first report tomorrow. And it seems oxy is the first pain med I haven't tossed my cookies with. It is beautiful outside and I want to play in the garden... I think I will wait until dh wakes up. Thanks ladies for the well wishes.

[holdingouthope]

Apr 16, 2015 15:53:24 GMT -5 rubysi said:

***update***

Retrieval was not comfortable since the ovaries didn't want to play nice. One hide behind my ute and the other moved alot. Grand total was 13 eggs. They seemed pleased and I am hoping that I will have some to work with. I will get my first report tomorrow. And it seems oxy is the first pain med I have tossed my cookies with. It is beautiful outside and I want to play in the garden... I think I will wait until dh wakes up. Thanks ladies for the well wishes.

Yay for 13!! That is a great update! I hope you feel better and the effect of the meds wears off soon. I can relate; pain meds do NOT treat me well. I'll be stalking your updates, sweets. FX for some great reports to come! xoxo

[sarcaztic10]

rubysi yay fur 13 eggs!!! FX fir a good report!!

therealbug I am hoping for good test results for you!

readinglove I would also choose to test on Saturday. I totally understand feeling hopeful but at the same not feeling it at all.

[readinglove]

rubysi Dang...That's a good way to look at that! Thanks for the perspective - definitely needed it after today. FX for a good report on the eggs!

[therealbug]

holdingouthope, hiiii!!!!

rubysi, 13 is a great start! I'm sorry it was not comfortable and that the oxy is not getting along with you. Hoping for a fantastic update tomorrow!

My labs came in already (saw them online). My vitamin D is low at 27.2. The doctor had mentioned I should start taking calcium citrate when I asked about having my vitamin D level checked so I'm not sure if he will bother to call with the results. (This is the crappy OB that I need to replace).

My FSH level was 20.7 and the LH was 8.6. The FSH level fits with my known low ovarian reserves and is not great. The LH level is below menopause but also not great. For some bizarro reason he did not do E2.

[therealbug]

Apr 16, 2015 6:22:26 GMT -5 rmpar29 said:

therealbug - I hope that your b/w shows some decent numbers love! Have fun on your get away. Oh, how's your news job going?

rmpar29, the new job is going really well! I had an eleven hour day today with about 8 of that in court - and I'll need to go in early tomorrow to finish prepping some cases that are on tomorrow morning. 

Good thing I like it

[rachaeleigh]

Ladies,
I just wanted to pop in and say hi. I lurk all of the time and you're all on my mind daily. I always struggle with staying away vs showing support here, but HOH gave me courage :-)












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