So happy to hear the decision is behind you and the boys are kicking and stretching in there! What a crazy two weeks. Hoping you now get at least a few days of calm before the next hiccup. (Obviously, the greater hope is that there aren't any more hiccups at all, but we know your boys and your doctors like to keep you on your toes!)
I've been meaning to ask you if everything worked out with that crazy new employee you posted about on TB the other week. Don't bother to reply if it's too stressful--just hoping to hear you had a positive outcome there, too.
Oh this... It's been strange. I decided to let her have a week to get her shit together, because I really had no other option. Especially after being admitted. Anyway- she started CCing her parents on emails, so yeah... More red flag. THEN I got an email from the county employment enhancement office or something like that. Basically, she has some social delays, and she is working with a case worker at the county. The case worker is amazing and she explained everything to me. There is no danger with this lady, she simply has some social delays that she needs guidance with.
Unfortunately, she can't be left alone with the kids, and since that is what the position is, I have to let her go. For now, it's working to have her fill in the gaps where my other girl has school, but it's not a long term solution. I need someone who can be alone after ratios drop, so until I replace her, my poor manager is working 9 hour days.
I have several people doing interviews with my manager this week and next, and hopefully we can find someone perfect.
I think I held my breath reading that entire last update. You are doing amazing, as are those awesome little boys, and I can't wait to keep reading about the amazing things you are all doing together!
Post by mrsdee1982 on Jan 30, 2015 17:34:38 GMT -5
I just read your latest update and may or may not have exclaimed "hell yes!" a little too loud (since I am in my office) when I got to the part of your WBC dropping.
What a roller coaster ride for you. Hoping R can be back by your side soon.
Post by periwinkledaydreams on Jan 30, 2015 19:32:24 GMT -5
I wish I could send you construction paper.. I love the paper chain idea! The visual and physical representation of time is so helpful mentally I think.
I am just SO happy to read your latest update! Speak it into reality, lady! Your will is a powerful thing. This story DOES have a happy ending! I feel it and I believe it.
Post by Girlymama79 on Jan 30, 2015 19:57:56 GMT -5
You are the strongest woman I know. Or maybe know of would be more appropriate here? I can only hope that in the face of adversity that I can be half as strong as you are now.
Post by baileybaileybne on Jan 31, 2015 3:12:21 GMT -5
Wow wow wow. I am always reading your blog updates at super speed because I just want to know the update straight away, but once again it's so beautifully written. You keep amazing us all with your strength and determination. We are all counting these next two weeks with you and sending our thoughts for the best outcome and also for ongoing strength for yourself.
Post by ombradellarosa on Jan 31, 2015 5:09:09 GMT -5
I felt so much joy to see your decision. You have always wanted these twins and I'm glad you are fighting for them as hard as they are fighting. I cried at your last update. So glad your WBC is down and you didn't have the decision taken away from you. I wish you could have Lipton soup. sending you love and happy thoughts.
You guys........ Robert and I met with the owner/partner/whoever the fuck he is of the practice today. He spent about an hour with us and let us both hash out what we wanted to say.
I was really angry about the "OMG YOUR WBC IS KINDA UP AND I KNOW YOURE PUKING YOUR BRAINS OUT, BUT YOU MUST HAVE AN INFECTION" it made me question them a bunch. I mean, there are plenty of reasons to have a fever other than an IUI, like, an ear infection, ya know? But if all they're going off of is WBC/fever, I fear they would make a hasty decision. The nurses carry around all sorts of stuff that in being exposed to daily that I wouldn't be at home, you know?
Anyway- we brought these points up to him, and also that just the pure stress level of being here with the ups and downs and over monitoring causing anxiety.
We stressed that we live 2 minutes from another hospital, so if shit hit the fan, we would be able to get EMS almost faster than I can get a nurse to respond here (especially my shit nurse from yesterday...sheesh)
Robert got emotional making his points about Piper needing us at home and how we feel like we have to choose between being with her, or fighting for the babies. It was so sweet to see him advocate for her. I could not ask for a better step dad for my little girl. Anyway- Dr. S said he would look over my chart and get back to me.
He looked over my chart from my most recent scan, and my placenta is sitting 1cm above my cervix, which is low, but not a previa, so the risk of bleeding out is not as high now.
He is happy that my bleeding has slowed down to basically nothing, and that my vitals have been good this whole time.
So- I'm going home on Tuesday. I'll have my a/s scan Tuesday morning to double check everything, and then home I go.
I'm not getting my hopes up too high yet, but I am SO PROUD of myself for advocating. I am really shy so usually just listen and obey, but I know I will feel better at home, especially if this ends in heartbreak.
Edit- something wonked up and I couldn't see what I was typing anymore.
One last thing- yesterday they checked the babies HR around 4pm, and they were both up in the 180s :/ because of this, we had to keep them hooked up for 15-20 minutes to make sure they calmed down. They both did, but what they also noticed is that both of them have variability going on. This is AWESOME for 18 weekers, and means they're getting what they need, even with the lack of fluid.
He also said that based on the fact we had heart beats at 5 weeks, rythmatic breathing at 17 , and HR variability at 18 I might be further along than we thought, even if they were measuring small at my 8 week dating scan. This doesn't change much for viability, since they still need to be above 350grams, but it's good to know that IF they reach that weight and have to come out, they are one step ahead of the game
Like I said- not trying to get too excited, but all good news today
Woohoo!!! Way to advocate you two - sending good thoughts to you and the boys for a stellar scan Tuesday so you're home in time to watch at least one Disney movie snuggled with Piper and Robert!
ETA - good for giving them an earful on the reaction to the possible infection. It seemed very unlike the rest of the care you've described.
That's awesome news! I'm so happy for you! You have been on one crazy roller coaster ride already and I'm sending all my thoughts and prayers that it only goes up from here! I can tell that you are your babies are fighters and that gives me so much hope that you will all get the happy ending that we are all hoping and wishing and praying for, for you! I hope being at home with your little one will help relieve some of your stress. R sounds like a great man and step dad!
Fantastic update! So glad to hear that going home to rest and soak up the strength/good energy from family is now on the table. You are an inspiration to all of us, and definitely who they were talking about when the term "warrior mama" was coined!
Still sending so many good vibes your way, and feeling all the feels right along with you. Go boys, go!!
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