Grrr FF got me this time. **Vent **

[vh2014]

FF gave me cross hairs again. I didn't think it was valid but as time went by I got suckered in. My CM matched the temperature pattern mostly. I had 2 temps below the cover line about 4 days in, which I knew was early but it went right back up. I did some chart stalking in the FF gallery and saw others with the same low cover line. I patiently waited for the white box. ..which was this morning. The last couple days I got nauseous in the mornings and a few times midday. Note: this has always been a sign of AF for me. My sex drive jumped up (also AF sign as well as past BFP sign). Went out last night and got a FRER because today was "white box day" and wouldn't you know it? Temp dropped way down this morning and FF took my cross hairs away and no AF either. Still keeping my FX for AF but am so irritated I fell for it. Trying to keep Positive Pollyanna but grrrrrrrrr..... the only thing I can think is acupuncture and supplements are starting to work and keeping my temp a little higher. It wasn't a "pretty" clear shift so I didn't believe it until the count down started. Stupid IF TTC brain. Vent over. I'll edit later with a fun gif for taking your time to read my AW vent. Happy Monday everyone!

[wannabmama]

vh2014 sorry for the frustration and uncertainty. I hope *something* happens for you soon so you can start a new cycle or at least get better info on this one!

[momtex]

Sorry for all of your frustration. Hopefully there is a still a BFP coming your way!

[agpjt413]

So sorry for the FF frustration, vh2014. Keeping everything crossed for a BFP for you soon!!

[Deleted]

freaking ff. I am so sorry for the confusion caused by moved ch's... what a mind fuck

Best wishes the elusive + shows very soon!

[luvmyponies]

So sorry for the frustration! I swear AF knows the second we go out and get a FRER.

[happyktmom]

vh2014, oh the stupid $h8t we go through huh? IF makes us totally crazy. Though impossible, try to do something to distract yourself - anything! Or meditate! Or go to a yoga class.
HUGS to get you through the day!!

[tiresiastheblond]

I'm sorry. I hate Fertility Friend. I also hope you get to break out of this holding pattern soon. Grrrrrr!

[wirt2cute]

vh2014, sorry are you frustrated and IF is being a total ass. Sending big ((Hugs))).

[URMySunshine77]

I'm so sorry for the ups and downs. It's hard when we don't have anything concrete.

[tat2mami]

vh2014 I'm with the others.. I'm sorry for your frustration. I have never even tried FF, but I can only imagine how crazy it can make you! I hope something "positive" happens soon!

[vh2014]

Sorry to disappear this morning. Had to move my acupuncture appointment back to accomodate a work conference call. Anyone who's chart stalking me will see the blue line- I put it back for my acupuncturist so we could look at what FF saw. Given the length of time it was high and my history we proceeded as if AF or BFP was immenent not that it was just another fluke in the 207 days that this cycle has been. (I had to split it in FF). I also had another round of nausea midday. Also tracking that now. If not AF by morning I am to POAS just in case- her orders which makes me feel less crazy for doing it. She also left a point out today just in case.

Now for all of you that have suffered through my craziness with me, some fun gifs:

Me after discovering it took the crosshairs away...


And then:


And for your enjoyment:


Unless you are in the TWW or abstaining for other reasons then have some cookies and chocolate (or all 3 if you want):



And once again, I appreciate all of you for listening to me:

[vh2014]

luvmyponies, I hope she knows I went out and got one. I am tired of being the disowned relative of AF. LOL.

[nikolie93]

Coming in the give *hugs*, , and a twat kick to FF

[vh2014]

Lol nikolie93... and my temp shot up this morning, BFN though. I'm like wtf body. I thought we were starting to sort this stuff out but I guess not. Sigh...

ETA: Fixed autocorrect error. 

[wannabmama]

vh2014 your body is not playing fair!!

[vh2014]

Apr 21, 2015 6:55:21 GMT -5 wannabmama said:

vh2014 your body is not playing fair!!

No kidding.  I am so over it. LOL

[lolbraun]

So sorry for all the frustration- sometimes it feels like a cruel joke!

[muscari]

I don't temp nor use FF so don't have a clue of what things mean *smiles* But I wanted to say I'm sorry for the frustration and the BFN. May AF show her stupid face soon (for the both of us, I'm frustrated by my body as well!!) ((hug))

[KirstenAlecia]

I know this is driving you crazy Hopefully something happens soooooon!

[vh2014]

Apr 24, 2015 2:32:23 GMT -5 KirstenAlecia said:

I know this is driving you crazy Hopefully something happens soooooon!

Thanks! It is. We've been playing with manual mode and the cover line. She feels like *something* has to be eminent with the temps I've been getting. She did a ton of needles on Wednesday that was a hybrid to try and help things along. If the temps stay up test again Monday before treatment and we'll try something more aggressive to try to bring on AF if BFN so we shall see.

ETA.. haven't "seen" you in a while. You've been missed. hope things are going well.

[KirstenAlecia]

Apr 24, 2015 5:13:02 GMT -5 vh2014 said:

Apr 24, 2015 2:32:23 GMT -5 KirstenAlecia said:

I know this is driving you crazy Hopefully something happens soooooon!

Thanks! It is. We've been playing with manual mode and the cover line. She feels like *something* has to be eminent with the temps I've been getting. She did a ton of needles on Wednesday that was a hybrid to try and help things along. If the temps stay up test again Monday before treatment and we'll try something more aggressive to try to bring on AF if BFN so we shall see.

ETA.. haven't "seen" you in a while. You've been missed. hope things are going well.

I've been more active on CAL boards. It felt a little slow around here, but ill be around more. Ive also been really busy with work. Im hoping it slows down soon, Im only a one woman show here and its getting overwhelming!!