Feeling depressed (rainbow mentioned)
May 10, 2015 0:19:00 GMT -5
Post by angelsnight on May 10, 2015 0:19:00 GMT -5
I thought I had been doing really well....I think about my angel every day, but I don't too often cry and even visits at the cemetery aren't too emotional. But now I am wondering if I am maybe more depressed than I realize.
I am a stay at home mom to my rainbow, so maybe that is part of it...no real schedule to stick to (despite setting one), no reason to get dressed or even shower most days (but don't get me wrong, I love being home with her and I don't want to go back to work anytime soon). I'm at the heaviest weight I've ever been at so I am feeling very bad about myself lately and a lot of days it's a struggle for me to even get most of the housework done.
I quite often take a nap when LO does, despite the fact that she sleeps through the night and I really have no reason to need a nap. Some days I take one because I really am tired, but other times, I don't know, it's an escape I guess. I am on Zoloft and I see a therapist but I haven't brought this up to him...mainly because I just started realizing that I may be depressed. It's been two years since we lost our angel, I am so thankful for our rainbow, I guess I feel like maybe I shouldn't still be so depressed.
I'm starting a new diet/exercise regimen Monday...which I have been trying and failing at for five years now, but I am trying something new (Nutrisystem) and my H is doing it with me so I am hoping it helps pull me out of this some. Anyone else feeling this way?
I am a stay at home mom to my rainbow, so maybe that is part of it...no real schedule to stick to (despite setting one), no reason to get dressed or even shower most days (but don't get me wrong, I love being home with her and I don't want to go back to work anytime soon). I'm at the heaviest weight I've ever been at so I am feeling very bad about myself lately and a lot of days it's a struggle for me to even get most of the housework done.
I quite often take a nap when LO does, despite the fact that she sleeps through the night and I really have no reason to need a nap. Some days I take one because I really am tired, but other times, I don't know, it's an escape I guess. I am on Zoloft and I see a therapist but I haven't brought this up to him...mainly because I just started realizing that I may be depressed. It's been two years since we lost our angel, I am so thankful for our rainbow, I guess I feel like maybe I shouldn't still be so depressed.
I'm starting a new diet/exercise regimen Monday...which I have been trying and failing at for five years now, but I am trying something new (Nutrisystem) and my H is doing it with me so I am hoping it helps pull me out of this some. Anyone else feeling this way?