^^^^ WEEKLY CHECK IN 5/12/15 ^^^^

[icequeen]

Good afternoon!

I hope y'all are doing well this week! Let's hear how good/bad your week has been going and support each other. Please PM me if you would like to be tagged for participation, and don't forget to check out our new sub board! Thanks so much!

flcl, mrsb1008, yoshijo28, @rocknrollfriend, @wallflwr926, @ordinaryamy, runnergirl812, helloamanda, @giamia923, snarkysparklefart, @alleykat05, bluerainfire, sko14, @erin2021, spencer1337, RedDDD

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Please state your diagnosis and/or status:

How is your week going?

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share?

Any changes in medication or recent appointments?

GTKY: Do you have any fur babies? Bonus points for pics!

[RedDDD]

Please state your diagnosis and/or status: Depression with anxiety

How is your week going? really slow at work which is making for a very boring week. Weather sucks too so that is no help.

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Im having some trouble sleeping. I am the person that can fall asleep anywhere and at any time but lately im having some trouble falling asleep and then if I wake up with one of the kiddos I have a hard time getting back to sleep. Wondering if its the meds. I have been taking the meds in the afternoons because I feel like I get sleepy but Im thinking maybe I switch it up and start taking them in the mornings. not sure

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? no

GTKY: Do you have any fur babies? Bonus points for pics!

We have one cat (Wizard) and one dog (Bella)

[icequeen]

RedDDD, well I guess not news is good news when it comes to work! I would prefer it that way, anyway. One less thing to worry about! I would call your psych and ask about the possibility of switching the timing of the dose. If nothing else in your routine has changed, then I would be it is your meds. I hope you get some better sleep soon!

Please state your diagnosis and/or status: Anorexia Nervosa, Bulimia Nervosa, GAD

How is your week going? It's going well so far. I had my US and BW done to check on the baby's progression and we are measuring ahead by 3.5 days! Everything including lining, P4, and E2 all look great, lining is thick, and we even saw a tiny yolk sac which is pretty awesome for this early. I am so relieved and happy. This time I cried tears of joy all the way home, instead of sadness or panic. DH and I have been going through a really hard time communicating about my ED and how to best help me, and I ended up storming out of the house one night. Since then, we are better but we still need to work a few things out.

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? I have been having a hard time not losing weight, and it is not on purpose this time. I actually stopped running and core exercises completely, and dropped more weight at the doctor's office today. I am still having a very hard time restricting my intake and then binging and purging later, which is my own self-imposed road block. This is the hardest behavior I need to work on right now. I am not weighing myself and have no access to a scale.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? I have a therapy appointment this Thursday and DH will be coming in too to join us after I am done. I am really looking forward to it because I cannot seem to verbalize my ED situation to him in a constructive way that helps both of us deal with this.

GTKY: Do you have any fur babies? Bonus points for pics! I don't have any fur babies I used to have a Siberian Husky but she stayed with my mom in Chicago. We are planning on getting a rescue pup soon, as soon as DH's job is finalized.

[helloamanda]

icequeen Sorry I've been MIA! I missed your BFP! Congrats!!! GL at your therapy appointment- That's great that DH is coming too!

Please state your diagnosis and/or status: Depression and Anxiety

How is your week going? So far, so good! We took a mini vacation Friday-Sunday, which was nice. We went to NYC, where we visited friends and saw a show. We used to live there, so it wasn't like a quick and hurried "see everything" kind of trip. Only took 1 Ativan, and that was for the plane ride there. Went back to work today, and it wasn't busy for once, which was nice too.

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Anxiety has been kind of higher. Someone honked at me today and I got so guilty and I felt bad all morning. I don't know why. Something I need to work on. I had a bad day on Mother's Day, and the day before. We visited with my friends who have a 2 year old, and we took a walk by a park and everyone had babies and children... It made me sad. My family is going through tough times financially too, which my mom has been talking about to me, which makes me upset.

I have 2 RE consults in June. We also decided to look into adoption, so we're going to 2 informational meetings this month at 2 different agencies. I'm nervous about both things. I'm worried the REs will both tell me I'm just overweight, and won't help me. And I'm worried about potential birth mom's judging us on our weight and not giving us a chance. Everything comes down to my weight, but it's been hard for me. When I'm upset all I want to do is eat.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? I have a therapy appointment and I will be discussing my guilt and issues with my weight. Also the appointments and adoption meetings. We've also been working on setting boundaries with my MIL because we're visiting my in-laws soon.

GTKY: Do you have any fur babies? Bonus points for pics! I do! I have a pup baby named Aubrie!



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[KayVeeKay]

Please state your diagnosis and/or status: PPD and seeking treatment

How is your week going? I've been pretty even this week. Less mood swings and more of a neutral mood.

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Other than the mood, I've been working really hard to keep my thoughts positive and it seems to be working. I still have moments where I just go off the deep end with sadness about how screwed up my life has been the past year, but for the most part, I want to fix what I can and move on.

As for struggles, I am having trouble remembering to take my meds. I'll think of it in the morning when I take my vitamins, but by bedtime, it doesn't even cross my mind until I wake up the next morning. I even tried moving my vitamins to night and ended up forgetting to take them, too! Until last night we had a rule to leave electronics at the door when getting home, so reminders were useless. Maybe now I can see if that works because I'll be honest, I haven't taken my meds but a few days the past couple weeks. It makes me wish they didn't make me so drowsy. It's kind of odd that it's not negatively affecting my mood, though.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? No changes except my social worker cancelled yet another appointment. I have seen my psychiatrist twice since I last saw her because she's consistently booked 3 weeks out. It's very irritating.

Outside of mental healthy, I went to see a rheumatologist on Thursday. They took x-rays, asked about what symptoms I'm having (headaches, muscles twitching, joint paint, easily bruising, numbness, and tingling, etc), then he proceeded to tell me I don't have any symptoms of an autoimmune disease so he doesn't know why I was even referred. He also chastised me for not having enough calcium in my diet because the bones in my wrists are darker on the x-rays, but I supplement calcium and have high vitamin D levels. I'm so confused, and I made the mistake of Googling what dark bones mean. Nope. Nope. Nope. I'm not even letting my mind go the cancer route. I'll only accept that if I have test results that back that up.

GTKY: Do you have any fur babies? Bonus points for pics! We have two cats. I want a dog, but DH doesn't really like them.

[snarkysparklefart]

Hi everyone!
Glad you had a good appointment icequeen
Lots of hugs to you helloamanda, GL With the RE as well.

Please state your diagnosis and/or status: borderline pd. anxiety. etc.

How is your week going? It's just going. I had a psychiatry appointment today and a meeting with a nutritionist. I was emotionally and physically exhausted so I came home and picked a fight with my H. I'm feeling really apathetic lately.

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? See above for struggles. Accomplishments- I did have a mostly nice Mother's Day.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Was prescribed Paxil today, so I will be starting that Sunday (when I pick up the RX and redo my pill organizer). I hope it helps. It is in addition to my regular anxiety medication (which I take when I anticipate being in a situation that will cause anxiety, like going outdoors in summer with the bee phobia). Even though I discussed it with my psychiatrist today, and the risks are incredibly low, I also like to wait and run it by the family doctor before I start anything (EBF DD2, she sees all of us, and DD2's 2 month appointment is tomorrow).

GTKY: Do you have any fur babies? Bonus points for pics!
I have a 5 year old Pomeranian- a standard sized one, not the little teddy bear one. I think she looks like a little black fox!

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Please state your diagnosis and/or status: anxiety/depression, under treatment

How is your week going? Ok. I'm so busy at work I'm working after DS goes to bed and I don't have any time or energy for DH. I can tell it's bugging him but he should understand needing to work as we are both in the same industry and this stuff just happens sometimes.

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? On Saturday night I went to a concert with a friend while DH took DS to a soccer game. I was feeling really anxious from the moment they left for the soccer game, but I used my essential oils and kept telling myself DS would be fine, and once I got to the show it was so much fun I was totally distracted from the anxious thoughts, and I hung out towards the back so I didn't have to get into the crowd. So that was all good!

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? Nope.

GTKY: Do you have any fur babies? Bonus points for pics! We have 2 kitties, a doggie, and now 3 chickies! I've been having trouble posting pics here, sorry.

[runnergirl812]

KayVeeKay have you had a neurologist consult? Tingling, muscle twitching, numbness, joint pain, all sounds like some type of neuropathy.

[runnergirl812]

Please state your diagnosis and/or status: GAD

How is your week going? it's been better. Still waiting on the recruiter to get back to me with the job offer. He said it would be any day now and it was looking favorable. I hope it bears out. I've been pulling 12+ hr days lately to get my work done and you could stick a fork in me. I'm done.

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? Struggling with worry over BF and his work and custody situation. Stressed about my job situation but managing.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? No changes in meds. I have an upcoming psychiatrist appointment soon. I'm hoping I can stay on the clonazepam a little while longer before she starts weaning me off. She really only wanted me to take it for 3 months until the Prozac got into my system. But I really feel good on both. I'm hesitant to change, even though I know the benzos are addicting.

GTKY: Do you have any fur babies? Bonus points for pics! No fur babies, but I love everyone else's pictures!!

[KayVeeKay]

May 14, 2015 20:39:47 GMT -5 runnergirl812 said:

KayVeeKay have you had a neurologist consult? Tingling, muscle twitching, numbness, joint pain, all sounds like some type of neuropathy.

No they referred me to the rheum because I had bloodwork that is indicative of autoimmune disease when paired with the symptoms. DH is concerned about the bruising and thinks I should see an oncologist. All I'm thinking is how much insurance is going to hate me.

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Please state your diagnosis and/or status:
Depression, Anxiety/Paranoia

How is your week going?
I want to say well. I started feeling depressed last week (during our honeymoon, which sort of sucks) but it hasn't stopped me enjoying things for the most part. Though I'm eating A LOT. 
And I found out last week that I'm going to be an auntie! My SIL is due in December. 

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share?
I got married almost two weeks ago! I only had one wedding related breakdown the week of due to a misunderstanding with my brother. But H managed to patch everything up so it didn't ruin things. All the wedding glitches made me have mini anxiety episodes, but in the end it all went super well. Every 'disaster' just made things better (except the breakdown, that sucked).
I'm struggling to adjust to our apartment. H kind of half set things up when he moved in two years ago and I set up things as I visited. But the place is basically a disaster, it needs a good cleaning, we need to purge our excess possessions, and we have these random wedding gifts to figure out if we're keeping - which for the mean time are taking up our spare room/my office. I'm feeling overwhelmed.

GTKY: Do you have any fur babies? Bonus points for pics!
H and I do not have any, though we regularly care for our families' dogs when we visit. Pic for you:

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May 12, 2015 17:27:30 GMT -5 icequeen said:

How is your week going? It's going well so far. I had my US and BW done to check on the baby's progression and we are measuring ahead by 3.5 days! Everything including lining, P4, and E2 all look great, lining is thick, and we even saw a tiny yolk sac which is pretty awesome for this early. I am so relieved and happy. This time I cried tears of joy all the way home, instead of sadness or panic. 

I too was gone and missed this! Congratulations icequeen! I'm extremely happy for you! (In case my punctuation wasn't clear, lol)

Good-bye and good riddance to the scale! I hate them with the power of a thousand suns. H likes them to chart his health regimes because his weight can vary hugely. For me, whose weight mostly stays in a 10 lb range, it just makes me feel sucky on the days I'm at the high end. I hope the lack of scale helps you too.

[icequeen]

Y'all, thank you so much for all the congrats! We are definitely happy and blessed.

helloamanda, I wish you the best with your RE consults. I was lurking and saw you went to Dr Rapisarda in Chicago? He was my RE with my first DD before we moved. I loved FCI and am surprised that you had a negative experience. I hope you continue going to therapy and maybe meeting with a dietitian to create some meal plans you can stick to even during the most stressful times.
KayVeeKay, it's so good to hear you say you are being more positive. I know there will always be hard days but you seem to be really trying to change your outlook and that's never easy when you're so used to beating yourself up. I hope the rheum is able to provide some relief!
snarkysparklefart, I've heard good things about the minimal side effects on Paxil so I hope it works for you! Good luck at the family doctor!
@rocknrollfriend, I'm so glad you went to the concert and had a good time, you deserve a night off so much. I'm sure YH understands about the work situation, but he's just frustrated. I hope it eases up for y'all soon.
runnergirl812, still keeping FX for a new job offer. I hope you and your psych come up with a feasible weaning process and that you still feel the Prozac helps you. It definitely helps me.
@ordinaryamy, congrats on your wedding! I've been thinking about how it went. I know it seems super overwhelming adjusting to a new living situation. I would make a list of all the tasks I need to finish around the home and with wrapping up the wedding and set aside one day for each major point.

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Congrats on your wedding @ordinaryamy!

[helloamanda]

icequeen I was seeing Dr. Rapisarda! We had a consult with him July of last year, and he told us there wouldn't be a problem and we'd be pregnant by the fall. (I was seeing him because I hadn't had a period in 5+ years so I couldn't really conceive without any help!) And it seemed like once the TI and IUIs didn't work, he kind of gave up on me. Suddenly everything was because I was fat, when the last 5 cycles before he never even said it was my weight I'm getting a second opinion from Dr. Feinburg at FCI as well as someone at Northwestern. I've heard nothing but great things about her! I hope to stay with FCI though!

[icequeen]

May 15, 2015 21:27:46 GMT -5 helloamanda said:

icequeen I was seeing Dr. Rapisarda! We had a consult with him July of last year, and he told us there wouldn't be a problem and we'd be pregnant by the fall. (I was seeing him because I hadn't had a period in 5+ years so I couldn't really conceive without any help!) And it seemed like once the TI and IUIs didn't work, he kind of gave up on me. Suddenly everything was because I was fat, when the last 5 cycles before he never even said it was my weight I'm getting a second opinion from Dr. Feinburg at FCI as well as someone at Northwestern. I've heard nothing but great things about her! I hope to stay with FCI though!

I hope you do stay with FCI. They really are amazing. I was in and out of the door in less than a month with my first DD. While weight, being either underweight or overweight, is definitely a factor in conception rates, he should have been straightforward with you about that from the start. It seems like he is grasping for straws at the very end when he should have enforced a better weight management plan in the first place. Luckily, the Chicago area has a truly remarkable reputation for reproductive endocrinology so I have no doubt you will find someone who can help y'all successfully.