Post by o2girl on May 31, 2015 16:44:45 GMT -5
Hi. Wow I had zero clue this board existed.
I figured I would introduce myself, because I feel like this is a good place for me too.
I have been pretty active on the CAL board, both here and on TD. Before that I was active on the IF board on TD.
I have 2 older children from another marriage. They are (19 and 10) (yes, 19).
I was a whole 19 when I had my daughter..... So she is already making better life decisions
After I remarried in March 2012, MH and I jumped right into IVF. MH had a history of testicular cancer and that left him infertile as well as no semen.
I had issues with carrying my kids (preterm labor, SCH, etc.), but both myself and MH foolishly thought that TTC a child together (MH has no children of his own) would be easy and maybe a difficult 9 months.... But we would have a child or 2. Boy were we wrong.
We went through the IVF in August of 2012 after being sidelined by a cyst and a new possible cancer scare in MH again. I had 48 huge follicles and 46 eggs retrieved. MH has issues (because of the cancer) with the sperm he stored, so we only had 10 embryos make it to day 5 freeze. This is still a great number as I was 36 at the time. We had to wait on the embryo transfer because I had a severe case o OHSS due to the large amount of follicles and number of eggs retrieved.
We transferred 2 5AA blasts in October 2013. These little ones were lost to a possible CP. At that time I was sent for a pelvic MRI and was subsequently diagnosed with adenomyosis and Compounded MTHFR and another genetic disorder that make breaking down clots a very slow process for my body. This all made sense with the issues I had carrying my first two kids.
I was put on a 3 month course of LUPRON to suppress my adenomyosis and transferred 2 5AA blasts in March 2014. We got pregnant, but at 5.5 weeks I began to bleed and a very large SCH was found. After that it was just a matter of time and I lost both babies by 9weeks.
We switched REs and then we were sidelined more by a s.l.o.w.l.y decreasing HCG..... It took 4 months. That's fine. They did a hysteroscopy and found a polyp... I needed to heal..... But it's a special mind fuck when your body doesn't let go of the pregnancy even when it has been done for a long while.
After my betas were finally tracked to zero, we did a two month course with Lupron. We also thawed our remaining embryos and did the PGS testing on our 6 remaining embryos. 5 were good, one had turners and then one arrested the day of our transfer. So we were left with 4 somewhat decent embryos. We transferred 1 male BB blast and got a BFN in October 2014.
So after all of the shit, I was put on vacation from all things TTC by my RE in order to give my body time to heal. Then, we decided to start Lupron again in January 2015. This didn't happen because I have a weird body post MC and a ute that bleeds for no reason.at.all except that it is and angry ute. -_-
So here we are.... I started Lupron in March and we did a 4 month suppression. I will start prepping for another embryo transfer mid June. Then we should be transferring another embryo July 15th.
I'm pretty tapped out emotionally by all of this. MH and I agreed to try with all of our embryos before we give up. My kids are pretty supportive. Although my son (the 10 year old) tells me all the time that he wants to be a big brother. ::::sigh:::: I feel like my body is letting everyone down sometimes. MH always wanted kids of ours. He does realize that maybe the children I have are the only kids he was meant to have. We have made peace with this notion........ But it is still hard sometimes.
So haiiiii!!
That was a novel... Here is some dessert
ETA: Dates are hard apparently
I figured I would introduce myself, because I feel like this is a good place for me too.
I have been pretty active on the CAL board, both here and on TD. Before that I was active on the IF board on TD.
I have 2 older children from another marriage. They are (19 and 10) (yes, 19).
I was a whole 19 when I had my daughter..... So she is already making better life decisions
After I remarried in March 2012, MH and I jumped right into IVF. MH had a history of testicular cancer and that left him infertile as well as no semen.
I had issues with carrying my kids (preterm labor, SCH, etc.), but both myself and MH foolishly thought that TTC a child together (MH has no children of his own) would be easy and maybe a difficult 9 months.... But we would have a child or 2. Boy were we wrong.
We went through the IVF in August of 2012 after being sidelined by a cyst and a new possible cancer scare in MH again. I had 48 huge follicles and 46 eggs retrieved. MH has issues (because of the cancer) with the sperm he stored, so we only had 10 embryos make it to day 5 freeze. This is still a great number as I was 36 at the time. We had to wait on the embryo transfer because I had a severe case o OHSS due to the large amount of follicles and number of eggs retrieved.
We transferred 2 5AA blasts in October 2013. These little ones were lost to a possible CP. At that time I was sent for a pelvic MRI and was subsequently diagnosed with adenomyosis and Compounded MTHFR and another genetic disorder that make breaking down clots a very slow process for my body. This all made sense with the issues I had carrying my first two kids.
I was put on a 3 month course of LUPRON to suppress my adenomyosis and transferred 2 5AA blasts in March 2014. We got pregnant, but at 5.5 weeks I began to bleed and a very large SCH was found. After that it was just a matter of time and I lost both babies by 9weeks.
We switched REs and then we were sidelined more by a s.l.o.w.l.y decreasing HCG..... It took 4 months. That's fine. They did a hysteroscopy and found a polyp... I needed to heal..... But it's a special mind fuck when your body doesn't let go of the pregnancy even when it has been done for a long while.
After my betas were finally tracked to zero, we did a two month course with Lupron. We also thawed our remaining embryos and did the PGS testing on our 6 remaining embryos. 5 were good, one had turners and then one arrested the day of our transfer. So we were left with 4 somewhat decent embryos. We transferred 1 male BB blast and got a BFN in October 2014.
So after all of the shit, I was put on vacation from all things TTC by my RE in order to give my body time to heal. Then, we decided to start Lupron again in January 2015. This didn't happen because I have a weird body post MC and a ute that bleeds for no reason.at.all except that it is and angry ute. -_-
So here we are.... I started Lupron in March and we did a 4 month suppression. I will start prepping for another embryo transfer mid June. Then we should be transferring another embryo July 15th.
I'm pretty tapped out emotionally by all of this. MH and I agreed to try with all of our embryos before we give up. My kids are pretty supportive. Although my son (the 10 year old) tells me all the time that he wants to be a big brother. ::::sigh:::: I feel like my body is letting everyone down sometimes. MH always wanted kids of ours. He does realize that maybe the children I have are the only kids he was meant to have. We have made peace with this notion........ But it is still hard sometimes.
So haiiiii!!
That was a novel... Here is some dessert
ETA: Dates are hard apparently
( what a tough journey. I'm so sorry for the losses and struggles that you have and are enduring. Welcome to the board. 
