TTC Check-in - June 1

[RM80]

I'm mobile- so no list this week! You know who you are!

Tell us where you are, what's going on, and what's on your mind this week.

Reminder- please don't post bfp's here, post to the main board so we can all wish you well and kept this a safe space!

QOTW: When your in a funk, feeling down, blue, etc what do you do to get out of it? Or advise for others to keep their sanity through this whole process?

[RM80]

Can't believe it's June!

Today is CD1 for me. I'm not feeling it and was considering canceling this cycle. I just feel done and over it after everything. Well I decided to go ahead so I have my US tomorrow and I'll start my femara/gonal-f combo cycle. This is the end of the road for us for a while if this doesn't work and I'm ok with that. I'm ready to move on with parenthood or childlessness whichever is our direction.

QOTW: I'm a bad dealer, I use food & retail therapy... Baaaaaad

[mahler5]

RM80 -- I'm sorry you are not feeling it. I really hope this is the one for you guys.

We are taking this cycle off. Not because we want to but because the guy that does the genetic testing is only here once a month. I guess their regular embryologist doesn't do it. It will probably save us time in the long run though, considering we have 7 embryos left and the first two didn't work, so I think there is a likely chance at lest some of them are genetically abnormal. The RE did say that thawing and refreezing on average decreases the implantation rate by 5% based on the small amount of research out there.

Assuming we have at least one normal embryo we are scheduled for an FET July 14th.

I am enjoying being off the meds right now. We are rehoming our dog tomorrow, so I'm upset about that but we have to becaus she doesnt do well with the toddler at all.

So, it might be a good time to take the cycle off. We will be sad and so will our other dog.

QOTW--- exercise, walk the dogs, binge watch tv.

[Stringy]

Howdy - I am on to IVF. Had my consult today to go over the whole thing. She said that I can keep using the endometrin instead of PIO shots, which were my main fear, and the others don't seem all that much worse than what I was already doing. So today I feel optimistic. I'm on CD8 so I have to wait for the next cycle to start. I'm scared cuz it feels like the end of the road, but hopeful it will get some answers or a baby. I'm not sure which stims I'll be on yet. They also did another draw to check my AMH.

I guess thats it.

Oh! QOTW: i dont know. when I get down I get pretty down. I was so down yesterday I was thinking about getting back into therapy. But today felt better, especially after my consult.

[RM80]

I'm sorry about your dog @mahler, I know it's for everyone's best but I'm sure it's really hard! Sending hugs

[esquette]

Nothing new around here. Taking the prenatal vitamins. Head is spinning a little from how different everything could be in a year. Still on track to start in July. Sent the forms to the sperm bank on Friday!

Question for y'all: did you ever get cold feet? I don't want to delay another year or anything, but I am feeling a little... Terrified? I know we are going to make good parents and that I want kids badly, but the last couple of days I've felt pretty content with the life we have. I'm also scared about finances. Anybody ever have these kinds of feelings? Probably once you get started, it's "all in" for a while. I dunno. This all feels really hard to admit to you all. I'm also really excited too. I'm a hot mess.

QOTW: I cope in different ways. When shit is really bad, I sort of retreat from my support network and depend on my Sweetie a lot, which is ultimately counterproductive, because I need support! When stuff is just "normal" stressful, I do my fair share of snacking and binge-watching the same sitcoms over and over.

[mahler5]

Jun 1, 2015 22:13:14 GMT -5 esquette said:

Nothing new around here. Taking the prenatal vitamins. Head is spinning a little from how different everything could be in a year. Still on track to start in July. Sent the forms to the sperm bank on Friday!

Question for y'all: did you ever get cold feet? I don't want to delay another year or anything, but I am feeling a little... Terrified? I know we are going to make good parents and that I want kids badly, but the last couple of days I've felt pretty content with the life we have. I'm also scared about finances. Anybody ever have these kinds of feelings? Probably once you get started, it's "all in" for a while. I dunno. This all feels really hard to admit to you all. I'm also really excited too. I'm a hot mess.

QOTW: I cope in different ways. When shit is really bad, I sort of retreat from my support network and depend on my Sweetie a lot, which is ultimately counterproductive, because I need support! When stuff is just "normal" stressful, I do my fair share of snacking and binge-watching the same sitcoms over and over.

After our first try with my wife using IUI we took a 4 month break. I think my wife may have had cold feet a little. And her schedule was insane so we switched to me doing IUIs. And after 5 we were going to take a break because of the expense but luckily the last one worked. The financial part is tough. We are putting off buying a house here but we are in our mid to late 30s so I would rather put it off. We are not at an age where we can put off having another baby. But it does feel weird. We were homeowners before we moved and it feels weird to be starting over in that respect. Even if it doesn't work, I have to know we tried.,

[JustJudy]

esquette, I've been trying for 5 months now, and J tried for 2 so we're a full year into the process when you add in testing and buying the first vials of DS. Every month it doesn't happen I think for a second maybe we're not meant to be parents, but then I come back to my senses. As much as I like our life just the two of us and the fur babies, I really want to be a mom and raise a tiny human

Sorry for the CD1 RM80,

AFM, I'm spotting so tomorrow will be CD 1 and we officially move on to cycle 6. Ugh. I'm so over this, but yet not at the same time. Definitely planning on doing round 6 at home again. I don't think I'll do acupuncture this time, it felt more like an expensive nap than anything else. Maybe a massage a week instead, I can get on board with that.

QOTW: When I'm feeling down I like to watch a comedy or go to the gym.

[kona]

RM80 fingers crossed this is the one!

[crazyaunt84]

RM80 - I'm sending you all the strong, good thoughts I can muster.

Stringy - not glad you're on to the big leagues, but glad to have a familiar face starting out on the IVF journey around the same time I am. Sending tons of support! (Jealous of the endometrin. My PIO came on Friday with the rest of the drugs.)

I'm feeling a bit in limbo. I'm on CD 21 and still have a full cycle to sit out before we begin in July. In a way, its nice to have the time to mentally prepare for what's ahead, and in a way it's making me crazy to be thinking about it non-stop so far in advance.

QOTW: When I'm blue, nothing helps more than a soak in the hot tub with C and a bottle of wine.

And since this forum seems a bit blue this week, here's some wine for everyone...

[cetcar]

So this is a little strange, but can I do my 'own' check-in here?

I'm (CET) starting the prep to (possibly) do a freeze-all IVF later this year, maybe September or so. The idea is to do the ER, embryo creation and possibly testing, and then freeze them for future use. At this time we're thinking partner surrogacy, but who knows what life will bring. It was always our plan to do this with my eggs, but when we got pushed into CAR's IVF this spring things got a little confusing.

But, I'm not getting any younger, and with all the insane TTC expenses this year, for tax purposes it's advantageous to just put it all in one year so some is deductible. I still think it's a little insane, since we have embryos left over from CAR's cycle, but we're really attached at this point to the idea of our family maybe having children from each of us. We'd be using the same donor, so they would be genetic siblings still.

Anyway... yesterday I took my first step and had my baseline appointment. It was nice to be able to just keep using the coordinator and staff at our same RE's office so there was no introductory appointment to try and schedule. Had an ultrasound, and they said everything looked good 'in there'- nothing unexpected, and plenty of resting follicles. So far, so good. Now just waiting on the results of the bloodwork.

[RM80]

cetcar, how exciting to be making steps with CAR's eggies!

You two need separate accounts so i can keep track of you!!

[cetcar]

RM80 - Yep, we probably should have separate accounts. I'm actually CET (and going to start the IVF). My wife CAR, is the one who has been TTC up to this point, and already did her IVF

[dannigirl]

*** lose mentioned ***

We have decided to take the summer off.

After getting AF 5 days early this cycle, it's become apparent that it's a mess, and we started trying again too soon since losing our little girl in Dec.

As long as my cycle starts to go back to 28 days, we will try again end of Aug, beginning of Sept. This way too, I can concentrate on myself. I've gone down hill since the failed IUI's and it hasn't been pretty. I need to do my own thing, get healthy and stop being so negative about my body and what it's capable of.

Since we decided to wait, I've already started feeling better. I want to try and lose the last 10lbs I gained from the pregnancy. I have a feeling that's throwing things off too.

[RM80]

Oh dannigirl- big hugs to you right now. I hope the summer off helps your body recover & for you to feel ready again.

[wittyandwaiting]

Sorry, late to the game again this week.

It's CD11 here and this month we've been doing an follicle stimming protocol where they increased my dose daily to avoid too many eggs but still aiming for multiple targets. As of today I have two great follicles and one potential up and comer along with a good estrogen level so I triggered today and our IUI is booked for tomorrow morning!

QOTW: ha! I busy myself with other things, especially things I can control, like cleaning, little or big projects, etc. Right now I'm working on staying super positive.

I have so much responding to do that I'll get to tomorrow morning but I'm sending good thoughts to all of you.

[kona]

wittyandwaiting good luck with the IUI today!

[crazyaunt84]

dannigirl - sending hugs

[wittyandwaiting]

RM80, Even though you're feeling over it I am totally cheering for you.
Pretty much exactly like this:


mahler5, Happy to hear that you are able to get the testing done; hopefully that moves to closer to a real take home baby. Sorry about things with your dog, I don't even know exactly

Stringy, Woo hoo! Bring on the IVF! Sending you all sorts of awesomeness and positivity!

esquette, I think just about everybody experiences some sort of OMG-my-life-is-going-to-change-forever-what-the-heck-am-I-doing-are-we-ready-for-this-can-I-seriously-be-a-parent-what-if-we-screw-up moment.

JustJudy, I'm also forgoing the expensive naps this time around. FX for number 6!

crazyaunt84, Loved that GIF! I can't believe that she is spilling wine though? Who does that?!?! Hooray for moving on to IVF and happy to hear that you're in a good place!

cetcar, That's super smart CET, happy to hear that everything is looking good in there and of course you can do your own check in!

dannigirl, **Hugs** Cheers to you for being kind to yourself and taking time off when you need it. I have a whole (private) Pinterest board full of warm fuzzies that I look at on hard TTC days.

Thanks kona! Less than one hour to go!!!!

[Stringy]

Good luck today wittyandwaiting,

I'm a little jealous that I'm going to ovulate this week with no chance of anything happening. Stupid months off!

[wittyandwaiting]

21.5 million!!!!!!!!!

Beta on June 16!

[cetcar]

wittyandwaiting, Whoa, nice count! You just need one to find the egg. We'll be cheering them on.

[RM80]

Femara/letrozole question!

This is my third cycle taking it but this time its giving me MASSIVE headaches. The only difference is i took it at night with my last two cycles, this time I moved it to the AM to be consistent with all my other pills. Do you think it would be OK to not take tomorrow AM and take at night or just stick it out? Its only 3 more days, but holy crap, the headaches are really hampering my ability to work and get anything done during the day and Tylenol isn't even putting a dent in it.

ETA- lesson learned, night time only in the future!

[wittyandwaiting]

RM80 - I had the same problem this time around, that's why I had my killer headache for about a week. I was told that once you pick a time you can't change it.

Sorry.

[RM80]

Jun 4, 2015 14:40:38 GMT -5 wittyandwaiting said:

RM80 - I had the same problem this time around, that's why I had my killer headache for about a week. I was told that once you pick a time you can't change it.

Sorry.

That's what my nurse said too LAME-O.  Oh well, lesson learned I guess!