Weekly Check-In Week 6/1

[setsuna17]

Thank you for starting this, pineappleoranges!

Please state your diagnosis and/or status: Panic disorder without agoraphobia, general anxiety disorder

How is your week going? Not sure. I've been going through a lot of health things and I'm unsure if they're panic related or not. That's what makes panic so icky I guess. I ended up going to the emergency room on Friday and getting a few things worked up but they couldn't tell my why the whole left side of my body is tingling, but at least it's not an emergency. I guess we move on to see if it's neurological.


Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share?
struggle wise, I've been pretty bad. My health issues have made it hard to focus at work. I'm at least proud that I've been talking myself down during anxiety a lot better and I haven't taken a day off. I've worked through it. Also, I just started trying meditation from someone's recommendation for Headspace. It made me fall asleep, but that in itself is a good thing.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments?
Appointment on Monday afternoon. Currently been off meds for over one week since I had a bad time with Zoloft. We'll see what the doctor says on Monday.

GTKY: What traits in others are you attracted to? Intelligence and humor. A great combo. And the ability to laugh at one's self. I am not too serious of a person.

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Please state your diagnosis and/or status: Schizophrenia, PTSD

How is your week going? A lot of ups and downs. I had to have a few punch biopsies done last week and one of them hurts so fucking bad. It's right where the underwire on my bra is (and another is on my back where the edge of the band is), so I pretty much can't wear a bra. Unfortunately, because my boobs are so big, the weight pulling down on the stitch also hurts like a motherfucker. I tried sports bras and it's not as bad, but still hurts. Ultimately, though, the problem is that I haven't been able to get much sleep because of the pain which only makes my psych symptoms worse. Not to mention the lack of sleep makes me a whiny little bitch and just exacerbates the impact of the pain. Viscous circle and all that.

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share? We finally got the bikes out and went on an awesome ride over the weekend. It felt so great. I'm hoping we can go again this weekend. I've been going to a group that my case manager suggested, but I'm pretty sure I'm done with it. It's all about recovery and no matter how much I try, I can't figure out how it could possibly help me. I've gone for like 7 weeks now and learned absolutely nothing. I kept hoping I would be able to relate to SOMETHING, but no.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments? I saw my psychiatrist for (hopefully) the last time. For now at least. As of a couple weeks ago we are no longer preventing pregnancy! I've gotten off all my meds except the psych meds, and I may or may not go off of them once I get pregnant. I'll probably try and if it doesn't work out I'll go back on them. We'll see.

GTKY: What traits in others are you attracted to? Intelligence, sarcasm, sense of humor

[flcl]

@pineappleoranges, thanks for starting this. I know you've been dealing with a lot of stress and am impressed with how hard you are working to keep things together.

setsuna17,((hugs)) for all of the struggles you've been battling. FX for your doctors app and that you start feeling better real soon.

@led, hoping you heal fast from your punch biopsies and that you're able to get some rest. Really excited that you no longer have to TTA!

[flcl]

Please state your diagnosis and/or status:
Depression, anxiety, panic attacks


How is your week going?
Fast so I'm not complaining... work has been kicking my butt these last few weeks. I feel like I'm just treading water which isn't great but at least the end is near. I have a huge meeting tomorrow with people who are verbally abusive and absolutely obnoxious so I'm hoping my anxieties will decrease a bit when that's done. Things at home are the same... trying to not get pissed at H for feeling like I do way more than he does. I need to work on telling him how to help me but I get tired of always having to tell him.


Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share?
I scheduled myself a week date with a couple of friends to get our nails done tomorrow after work. I figured it'd be good to decompress after my meeting. I just need to work on NOT feeling guilty about taking this time for myself vs rushing home right away to see LO. It's hard to not feel like I should be at home with him if I'm not working.


Any changes in medication or recent appointments?
After taking meds for what seems like forever, I've now been med free for almost 2 years (officially in July). I've been managing through diet and exercise so my mood really plummets when I do a poor job in either category.


GTKY: What traits in others are you attracted to?
I'm attracted to people who are intelligent, genuine, kind and treats me like a priority.

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Jun 3, 2015 19:18:50 GMT -5 @pineappleoranges said:

@led Can they give you anything for the pain? I have a llow pain tolerate so I usually have to tsleep it off but the pain interrupting your sleep is a viscous cycle. If I go enough days without sleeping I sleep walk/ do random activities.

How excited are you about not preventing?


Thanks for checking in.

They suggested aleve. I see the doctor on Friday, when I called they said they could get me in today but I already have other appts set up in a row on Friday so it didn't seem worth it. It's not like it's super bad or anything. Just bad enough that it's a nuisance. 

And I'm super fucking excited about TTC again. We thought we were going to be CLNBC after 5 years and no luck, but after months of trying to come to terms with that we decided to keep trying. We ended up taking about 10 months off of trying. The last specialist I saw said there were no more tests to be done and everything (minus MTHFR) always came back normal. He did, however, tell us that given our history we likely have a less than 50% chance of any future pregnancy going to term. So while I'm still very excited to be trying again, it's also terrifying. 

[flcl]

Jun 3, 2015 19:42:05 GMT -5 @pineappleoranges said:

flcl I was stressed about work too. I find that setting mini goals are what keeps me floating. I will say that the feeling of panic rising is the absolute worse.

Do you find that certain activities trigger you not being able to exercise or eat right?

You are a priority and there is nothing wrong with having some time for yourself. Remember that you do the best job for your LO when you are rested and have some you time.

It's really just a terrible cycle.  I start to feel down so I eat poorly or stop working out.  Or, I'm too busy to work out so I feel down and eat poorly....

[flcl]

@led, keeping my FX for you!

[KayVeeKay]

Diagnosis: PPD

Week: So far, so good for the most part. I've just been really forgetful. I took the whole week off to clean house because it's a veritable pig sty. My psych was all like "to your standards or really dirty," which kind of pissed me off. There are piles of crap in my house that are literally 5 ft tall because of DH. I'm not the one she should be thinking has a problem here. I had an appointment on Tuesday and couldn't get LO to daycare before it so they turned me away instead of taking the 30 mins to get it over with. I also forgot about my PCP appointment yesterday until about noon, so I had to reschedule that for next available at three weeks out.

Struggles/accomplishments: I've compartmentalized the crazy and senseless stuff going on at work because I don't want to be driven to constant tears. I'm pissed about it, but I'm really trying to redirect my focus on fixing the problem, once and for all because I don't want to lose my job as much as I may hate it at times.

Meds/appointments: I met with my psych, as I mentioned earlier, on Monday. I'm really growing to dislike her and how everything little detail I say seems to lead to probing about it. Cleaning house, for example. Is it strange that I took off work to clean so LO could be at daycare while I do it and actually get something accomplished? Maybe, but I really don't think it means much more than that. Case in point:



GTKY: Sarcasm and sense of humor in general.

[juliayadda]

@led you sound like you are in such a good place right now! I hope you can get some good solid sleep soon

Diagnosis: depression and GAD. Treated but chronic.

My week is going well in both my professional and home life.

Struggles/accomplishments:

1. I had a very bad month MH wise and kinda disappeared from here.
2. I am doing better but not 100%
3. The coworker I have been having a hard time with told me yesterday he and his wife are getting divorced. I am glad he told me because it explains a lot. I feel a little bit like an asshole for giving him the benefit of the doubt.
4. I hope I can put aside my hang ups and be a good friend because I was divorced 6 years ago and it is the absolute worst.

GTKY: Humorous and genuine people attract me. I also love nerds and weirdos!

[juliayadda]

@fclc I am in the same boat at work but summer is much slower for me so I am keeping my eye on the prize.

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Please state your diagnosis and/or status: Bipolar Disorder, GAD, ADD, and Narcolepsy

How is your week going?
Slow. Really Slow. We've started IF testing.

Any struggles or accomplishments you would like to share?
Just trying to stay focused. Constant pelvic pain is starting to wear me out. The gyn wants to schedule a laparoscopy because they can't find the source of the pain. I don't want to be in pain anymore, but potentially being out of work for a week freaks me out. My caseload just went up to 43 people and we bill on a monthly cycle. We aren't required to bill for everyone every single month, but the pressure is always there.

Any changes in medication or recent appointments?
Psych scheduled for 6/9.

GTKY: What traits in others are you attracted to? That's a good question.
@pineappleoranges - Do you mean physical or personality traits?

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@led - It sounds like things are going really well for you. I'm really glad to hear that. Does the case manager have any alternative groups that you might be able to attend? Or possible a related activity that may provide the same sort of support? (if that makes sense)
I hope you get some relief from the pain from the biopsy sites soon. Bras are great are the best invention ever until you are experiencing discomfort in an area they are touching.

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Jun 4, 2015 9:23:48 GMT -5 @pineappleoranges said:

@wallflrw926 any trait. Sexual or otherwise. Just a trait that draws you to someone.

Ok. I'm probably overthinking it.

[motownthrowdown]

Hi everybody!

Diagnosis/status: post partum depression, general anxiety disorder, ocd

How is your week? My days are spent at the NICU where my daughter is, which is stressful. She has an infection, being treated with antibiotics. They are doing a spinal tap today to rule out meningitis as a complication. So my week has been stressful and dramatic.

Struggles/accomplishments: struggling with the aftermath of the birth of my daughter. I went from bedrest at my house on a Monday to hospital bedrest on Wednesday with the hope of getting her further along to an emergency c section with about 45 minutes notice the following evening due to severe preeclampsia and fetal distress. I'm going back to work on Monday to try and save some of my time off for when she comes home, but I'm not ready and I don't want to. I don't really have a choice though.

Meds/appointments: lexapro. 6 week post partum follow up on the 22nd.

Gtky: sarcasm, honesty, intelligence

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setsuna17 - GL with your doctor's appointment. I had problems with tingling extremities. Once in while it will come back, but it seems to be related to my sleeping position.
flcl - That is so wonderful that you have hit the two year mark. Congrats.
KayVeeKay - If you don't feel you making progress with your psych, it does not hurt to look at other options. It's your care, your choice.
juliayadda - ((hugs))

Sorry, I left @pineappleoranges out. I wish you lots of luck with the psychiatrist. Finding the right meds was life changing for me.

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Jun 4, 2015 9:26:03 GMT -5 @wallflwr926 said:

@led - It sounds like things are going really well for you. I'm really glad to hear that. Does the case manager have any alternative groups that you might be able to attend? Or possible a related activity that may provide the same sort of support? (if that makes sense)
I hope you get some relief from the pain from the biopsy sites soon. Bras are great are the best invention ever until you are experiencing discomfort in an area they are touching.

I meet with her tomorrow to talk about it. So we'll see.

[KayVeeKay]

@wallflwr926 I think for the most part I am, but the last couple of visits have been very trying because she's been dancing around suggesting that my diagnosis has changed from PPD when both my LCSW and a psychologist from the same office whom I talked to about 3 weeks ago say it hasn't.

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Jun 4, 2015 10:32:44 GMT -5 @led said:

Jun 4, 2015 9:26:03 GMT -5 @wallflwr926 said:

@led - It sounds like things are going really well for you. I'm really glad to hear that. Does the case manager have any alternative groups that you might be able to attend? Or possible a related activity that may provide the same sort of support? (if that makes sense)
I hope you get some relief from the pain from the biopsy sites soon. Bras are great are the best invention ever until you are experiencing discomfort in an area they are touching.

I meet with her tomorrow to talk about it. So we'll see.

Cool. Good luck.

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Jun 4, 2015 10:52:39 GMT -5 KayVeeKay said:

@wallflwr926 I think for the most part I am, but the last couple of visits have been very trying because she's been dancing around suggesting that my diagnosis has changed from PPD when both my LCSW and a psychologist from the same office whom I talked to about 3 weeks ago say it hasn't.

It sounds like she is adding in more stress to your life. If possible, I would present this concern to the LCSW and psychologist to see if they can assist.

[KayVeeKay]

Jun 4, 2015 11:02:47 GMT -5 @wallflwr926 said:

Jun 4, 2015 10:52:39 GMT -5 KayVeeKay said:

@wallflwr926 I think for the most part I am, but the last couple of visits have been very trying because she's been dancing around suggesting that my diagnosis has changed from PPD when both my LCSW and a psychologist from the same office whom I talked to about 3 weeks ago say it hasn't.

It sounds like she is adding in more stress to your life. If possible, I would present this concern to the LCSW and psychologist to see if they can assist.

I see the LCSW next week. I mentioned my concerns when I saw her last, and she said she would look into it. Right now, I'm just trying not to let it get to me.

[flcl]

KayVeeKay, I'm sorry to hear that your psych is being rather annoying. I went through a period of time when I felt the same way about my psychiatrist... I ended up bursting into tears, telling him that my life was falling apart and our sessions were only adding to the stress. He treated me much better after that. And hey- I don't think there's anything wrong with you taking the day off to clean... it's your day off, do whatever you want with it!


juliayadda, you and I must have disappeared from here around the same time... I wasn't doing the greatest either and it was hard checking in on here for me. I'm glad that you're back and that you're doing better. Going through divorce is so hard and it can feel so isolating. I'm confident you can be a good friend... people really don't understand what divorce is like unless they've gone through it themselves.

motownthrowdown, ((hugs)) FX your baby girl is ok and recovers soon. I can't even imagine how hard things are for you right now. Best of luck going back to work and keep us updated on how you're both doing if you get the chance...