** Weekly Goals Check In: 6/22/15 **

[icequeen]

Good afternoon, y'all!

Hope your week is off to a good start. Please let us know how did with your goals last week and set some new ones for this week if you choose, following the format below. I wish you all the best of luck this week and look forward to your update! Please also be sure to include any trigger warnings you feel are appropriate. Thank you

Goal:
Short or long term?
Why is it important?
How am I going to accomplish it?

[yoshijo28]

Last week's goal was to make it through my 7 training presentations and make sure to be energetic and give my best for each class.

I was happy with my performance 6/7 times. Once or twice I felt dizzy and had to stop once to get some protein bar and coffee. Usually I made sure to eat enough before. One of the classes wouldn't engage me at all so I finished it quickly because I got bored. They were the overnight shift and were tired.

For this week:
Goal: To listen to and QA the 40+ employees I just taught new procedures to.

Long or short: Long for now, should take about a month or less

Why is it important: My QA team is very busy and needs help. I want to unofficially QA the employees before their July sessions so they have time to adapt to new procedures

How will I do it? I'm going to try to do 2 employees a day, or 10 a week. Something ALWAYS comes up and I never have as much time as I think I do. So I get overwhelmed, can't motivate myself, and sometimes won't do my best for this reason.

[icequeen]

* Pregnancy and ED mentioned *

yoshijo28, that's really impressive! I'm so glad you were able to make it through your presentations and listen to your body. Maybe you can try this, and I know for myself it would be a little challenging, but it might be better to eat some carbs for better memory and alertness, since glucose is the brain's preferred source of energy. Protein is super helpful too, but it's mainly used for muscle function, blood flow, and metabolic reactions. This is just what I remember from all my clinical classes but I know carbs are "scary" foods for some people, like me :/

Last week my goals were to not to lose any more weight, reduce my exercise over the weekend, and have 2 non ED (behavior free) days. I had my OB appointment today and it went well, but I lost 2 lbs. I am a little discouraged by this because I felt as though my eating was improving, and I even cut down my work outs, not only on the weekends, but by 15 minutes each day. I was not able to complete the final goal (I got halfway through Saturday and Sunday) because MH and I had a big argument and it made me go into full panic mode and just give up on myself. I'm determined to do better this next week.

Goal 1: Gain back at least 2 pounds by next OB visit, which is just under a month away
Short or long term? short
Why is it important? Uhhhh pregnant people need to gain weight.
How am I going to accomplish it? By using my common sense and not putting my body and baby in greater danger. I will continue to challenge myself with higher calorie foods on non ED days.

Goal 2: Have 2 non ED days over the weekend
Short or long term? short
Why is it important? Because I failed at this last weekend and I am so disappointed in myself.
How am I going to accomplish it? Tell my husband about some triggers ahead of time so we don't end up arguing.

Goal 3: Eat 3 "cheat meals" this weekend without purging
Short or long term? short
Why is it important? I want to learn how to enjoy food again without feeling guilty.
How am I going to accomplish it? I send pics of what I am eating to my mom and sister to help keep me accountable, so I think I will do this again, and let them know what my goal is.

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GL with your goals this week icequeen and yoshijo28! icequeen, you know I know how struggles with our H's can derail us. Try not to get too down on yourself - I admire you for challenging yourself again this week and I believe you can do it!

My goal is the same as last week - I didn't make my therapy appointment. Work took up all my time during DS's nap. It's really busy at work again this week, but I think I can find time this Friday.

[yoshijo28]

icequeen I'm sorry the argument hindered your plan last weekend. I know that for me at least, when I have a plan things must go exactly right or it ruins the whole thing. Again with the all or nothing mentality. But, I guess we need to learn to cope with things not going exactly how we want. I'm still really proud of you for attempting this. A few weeks ago you weren't ready to do that. Even though you lost 2 lbs you've still been making positive changes like reducing your exercise. Good luck with eating your "scary" food this week I'm really hoping you can do it!

@rocknrollfriend I hope you can make your appointment this week!

[yoshijo28]

Jun 22, 2015 20:37:10 GMT -5 icequeen said:

* Pregnancy and ED mentioned *

yoshijo28, that's really impressive! I'm so glad you were able to make it through your presentations and listen to your body. Maybe you can try this, and I know for myself it would be a little challenging, but it might be better to eat some carbs for better memory and alertness, since glucose is the brain's preferred source of energy. Protein is super helpful too, but it's mainly used for muscle function, blood flow, and metabolic reactions. This is just what I remember from all my clinical classes but I know carbs are "scary" foods for some people, like me :/

Last week my goals were to not to lose any more weight, reduce my exercise over the weekend, and have 2 non ED (behavior free) days. I had my OB appointment today and it went well, but I lost 2 lbs. I am a little discouraged by this because I felt as though my eating was improving, and I even cut down my work outs, not only on the weekends, but by 15 minutes each day. I was not able to complete the final goal (I got halfway through Saturday and Sunday) because MH and I had a big argument and it made me go into full panic mode and just give up on myself. I'm determined to do better this next week.

Goal 1: Gain back at least 2 pounds by next OB visit, which is just under a month away
Short or long term? short
Why is it important? Uhhhh pregnant people need to gain weight.
How am I going to accomplish it? By using my common sense and not putting my body and baby in greater danger. I will continue to challenge myself with higher calorie foods on non ED days.

Goal 2: Have 2 non ED days over the weekend
Short or long term? short
Why is it important? Because I failed at this last weekend and I am so disappointed in myself.
How am I going to accomplish it? Tell my husband about some triggers ahead of time so we don't end up arguing.

Goal 3: Eat 3 "cheat meals" this weekend without purging
Short or long term? short
Why is it important? I want to learn how to enjoy food again without feeling guilty.
How am I going to accomplish it? I send pics of what I am eating to my mom and sister to help keep me accountable, so I think I will do this again, and let them know what my goal is.

***ED behaviors mentioned**


Carbs aren't an issue for me as long as they contain some type of protein/nutrients and are healthy. It's the portion size that I think got me. I also eat a protein bar everyday but I have a hard time eating it in 1 sitting and just eat pieces at a time so I only eat enough to get by and not feel too sick. When I'm ready for ED related goals I think that will be a good one!

[icequeen]

yoshijo28, I think you should do the ED related goals whenever you feel mentally ready for it. I know it takes a lot of courage to change and you are making enormous strides in other areas.
@rocknrollfriend, hugs to you. I know you understand. I hope you can get around to making that appointment this Friday.

[motownthrowdown]

***lc mentioned***

My last goals were getting more rest and pumping at 2am. There really is no extra time in my day for more rest. Seriously. I did talk to a lactation consultant today and we discussed my pumping schedule and output. I'm doing 15 ounces a day and she said that's fantastic. She also said that as long as I'm getting in 7 or 8 pumping sessions a day, I can sleep as much as I want. So I can skip the middle of the night ones as long as I do all of my daytime ones. Once I catch up on sleep (I'm still turning off my alarm in my sleep), I should pump if I wake up to hit the bathroom.

Goal: adjust my pumping schedule to consistently get in 8 sessions per day.
Short term: once baby is home, this will adjust.
Importance: I want to be able to breastfeed and I know breast milk is the best thing for her.
How: be more consistent in the evenings. I tend to pump a little late, which throws everything off. I'll also be drinking more water, since that ties in with production.

[icequeen]

motownthrowdown, that's awesome that your lactation consultant is pleased with your progress. I am seriously so impressed by your dedication and it really is invaluable to your DD. I hope you can rest a little easier knowing that you are doing really well and that having your baby home will make things so much more feasible.