PgAL checkin (6/24)

[morwen]

I'm just going to start this again today since we did it last Wednesday. As we get more people, if we decide on a different day, we can change.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit):


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?:


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:


GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be?

[morwen]

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 8/raspberry


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: Spotting seems to be stopping (turning more brown) I think it was probably from the dildo cam. Also, so tired, and so hungry.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Meeting my midwife today (as long as she's not attending a birth).


GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be? Italy...the food, the scenery.. yes please.

[apunicorn]

Thanks for starting morwen!

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 8/raspberry

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: Physically nauseous and exhausted. Feels just like a hangover! Emotionally I'm OK, just chugging along.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: 12-week scan with Harmony testing in a month. Yippee!

GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be? Swiss winter home and Hawaii summer home please

[swivelchair5]

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w5d (appleseed)

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: So tired! Maybe have had a couple tiny waves of nausea when I have slipped from my hourly eating schedule. Feeling a little emotionally distant at the moment. I think I'll just stay a little detached until my U/S next week.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: U/S 7/2

GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be? I would never buy a vacation property, because I generally don't like to repeat my vacations. I like to see new places.

[mellymel15]

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 6w3d/sweet pea


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: Physically, I feel pretty normal still. Every once in awhile, I'll get slightly queasy, but still no MS. I've noticed that liquids seem to go right through me these days and I have more CM, which sucks because I constantly worry that I'm spotting. Emotionally, I go back and forth between being excited and scared shitless. This still doesn't feel real and I constantly find myself saying "if." Like, "If this pregnancy progresses, I'll be in the second trimester by my birthday."


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: My first ultrasound is almost a week away (July 2). I am hoping and praying that I get to see a healthy, strong heartbeat this time. With my first pregnancy in September, the first ultrasound is when I found out I'd suffered a MMC I'm terrified of a repeat.


GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be? I think it would be in Hawaii (specifically, Maui). It's so beautiful there!

Edit- Thanks for the check-in, morwen

[EatsRitz]

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 6w,6d, sweet pea


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: Mostly like hell, physically. Just tired and nauseated most of the time. I'm either constipated or have the runs all the time, so that's annoying. Emotionally, I'm not too bad. Just counting down the days to my u/s.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Tuesday! Less than a week now!


GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be? Greece or Italy. Or Hawaii if I'm being more practical about visiting my vacation home frequently.

[tkford216]

Thanks for the check in!

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 6w3d/sweet pea

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: Physically, I'm tired, mildly nauseated on and off, irritable, and I pee constantly. While my boobs are sore, they've also gotten noticeably bigger, so that part is at least fun. Emotionally, I'm doing okay. I just want to hear a strong HB next week.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Next Tuesday, June 30 at 2:15. Check up with OB and u/s. (It will be a long day as I scheduled it in the afternoon; EatsRitz and I will have to keep each other calm that morning.)

GTKY: This is tough. There are so many places. Italy would be fantastic. I would love a summer home in Door County, WI. H and I want to move out west someday.

[mrsred09]

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 6 weeks 6 days, Sweet Pea


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: Everyday the nausea gets worse, which I am taking as a sign of everything is progressing nicely. I'm always starving, but nothing tastes good. And lastly is the exhaustion. I can't seem to stay awake past 8:30 every night. Emotionally I am doing okay. I am still very anxious for my appointment next Thursday though.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Next Thursday, July 2


GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be? Kauai, Hawaii for sure, but I would have to be super rich to maintain it. I love Hawaii, so really any island would probably do, but it is so expensive to live there.

[mshandlebar]

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 5w5d/appleseed

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: Sore boobs, check. Mild cramping, check. Emotionally, I am petrified. I've stayed calm all week. In the morning, I think "All I have to do is get through today," and when I go to sleep, I think "All I have to do is get through this night." It has worked so far. But, with my appointment looming tomorrow, I am getting more and more anxious. I can't help but imagine the worse.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: tomorrow morning

GTKY: Istanbul, Turkey! I worked there for a few years and absolutely loved it.

[leahks77]

Hi ladies
How far along are you? 5wks 2 days/appleseed
How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm okay. Bloated. Boobs aren't sore, nausea is gone. Emotionally? A goddam disaster. Betas were fine but I can't stop thinking horrible thoughts. I realized last night that I have zero confidence that this pregnancy will work out, and I hate it. And then I blame myself because stress can't be healthy. I'm seriously losing it. And there's nothing I can do. I'm honestly debating asking for third betas today. Ugh.
Upcoming appointments or milestones? Milestone... Today. My last loss was at 5wks2days. And appts, next Thurs 7/2 (along with a few other people!) for my first ultrasound.
GYKY: Honestly I would probably buy property near where I grew up in VT. It's the most beautiful place

[tkford216]

leahks77 If you think a third beta would help you relax, ask for it. And then just remember, just because it's happened in the past, doesn't mean it will happen again. Try to stay positive, as hard as it may be. Hopefully you'll feel better after your u/s next week too.

[mellymel15]

Jun 24, 2015 12:38:19 GMT -5 leahks77 said:

Hi ladies
How far along are you? 5wks 2 days/appleseed
How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically I'm okay. Bloated. Boobs aren't sore, nausea is gone. Emotionally? A goddam disaster. Betas were fine but I can't stop thinking horrible thoughts. I realized last night that I have zero confidence that this pregnancy will work out, and I hate it. And then I blame myself because stress can't be healthy. I'm seriously losing it. And there's nothing I can do. I'm honestly debating asking for third betas today. Ugh.
Upcoming appointments or milestones? Milestone... Today. My last loss was at 5wks2days. And appts, next Thurs 7/2 (along with a few other people!) for my first ultrasound.
GYKY: Honestly I would probably buy property near where I grew up in VT. It's the most beautiful place

I think a lot of us feel the same way, leahks77. This pregnancy just doesn't feel totally real to me yet. I want to be happier, but it's just hard. I miss the innocence and excitement that came with my first BFP—I know I'll never feel that way again.

I think I'll feel a little better if I see a heartbeat next Thursday (again, I now think in "ifs"). What time is your appointment? Mine is at 9 a.m., so I'm glad it's first thing in the morning at least. 

[followthesun]

swivelchair5 and mshandlebar, glad we are EDD buddies!

AFM....
How far along are you (weeks/fruit):5w5d, appleseed


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: Physically, my boobs are sore, I'm frequently hungry, and my skin is super oily and breaking out. This is unusual for me. Emotionally, I am a strange combination of detached and anxious. It's hard for me to invest in this, because the pain of last time is still fresh in my mind. I hate that I am telling the few people I am telling by saying "I'm pregnant again, but don't get excited." I feel robbed of the chance to enjoy this, but I don't know to change that.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:Not until July 7th at 7w4d. They are treating me like a "normal patient" which is both scary and reassuring in some way. I will have an U/S and a lengthy appointment. I am praying for on-track development and a strong heartbeat, but we had that with our loss at that point so I know I won't feel much better then. Sigh.


GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be? DH and I love New Orleans. I would love to have a little place in or around the French Quarter as a getaway.

[leahks77]

@tkford I talked to the nurse and she said that since my numbers would most likely be over 15000 by tomorrow, the OB really doesn't like to do betas since the doubling can slow and cause unnecessary concern. They did however bump up my u/s. They actually offered to peek tomorrow, but I have to work. And unfortunately my job isn't one that I can take a half day or go in late But I realized that if i was really losing my mind I would have offered to call out of work. And I didn't. So I think I'm better than I expected. Thank you for your encouragement!

[leahks77]

mellymel15 ugh it sucks! I hate that the innocence was taken away too. I'm so sorry you (and all the other lovely ladies here) are in the same crappy boat.
Fingers crossed for your scan next week!! Mine actually got bumped to Tuesday (I think partially/all due to my meltdown today) but it's in the morning too. I always schedule appts and scans for the morning if they're available. The stress of all day is waaaaay too much! I'll be thinking of you next week!

[juliern]

How far along are you (weeks/ fruit): 5 w,6d(Appleseed)

How are feeling? Physically? Emotionally?
I still feel pretty good. I'm still not having much for symptoms besides sore boobs and being tired. Emotionally: I'm still in a weird place. I still don't feel pregnant , but I'm trying to not think much about it.

Appointment: next Thursday July 2nd, I have my first ultrasound.

[kellybenelly83]

Good morning!
How far along? 6 weeks 6 days!
Feeling? What a roller coaster. Today is my edd. Its also the day the last time I started to bleed instensly. I actually am feeling ok with the edd part, but I'm super stressed to make it to tomorrow which is our official loss milestone. Though I have had no bleeding or cramping. The 7 week mark is my first hurdle.
Appointment? Monday we have our follow up u/s. I'm trying so hard to visualise a strong heartbeat and healthy baby. I keep looking at the Blob picture on my fridge and hoping it has grown a bunch.
Gtky? I would be on a quiet lake with mountains around and no neighbours. Just quiet.

[leahks77]

((Hugs)) kellybenelly83 What an emotional day. Be extra nice to yourself today.

[mellymel15]

Jun 25, 2015 9:48:28 GMT -5 leahks77 said:

((Hugs)) kellybenelly83 What an emotional day. Be extra nice to yourself today.

I second this. Sending you hugs, kellybenelly83. 

[EatsRitz]

Oy, kellybenelly83. Those are not fun dates to remember. Huge hugs.

[tkford216]

kellybenelly83 That's a lot of shit for one day. I hope you have a busy weekend and Monday can be here before you know it. Sending positive thoughts for a great u/s!

[followthesun]

kellybenelly83, you get all the hugs today. Hang in there, lady.

[ishihara]

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 6w5d, by best guess. My ticker is a day off.

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?: Physically, mildly nauseated, but no vomiting. My breasts are just now starting to get tender. And the bloat started up this week too. Emotionally, I am swinging back and forth between optimistic and sure that we'll be getting bad news at my next appointment.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: I have an u/s on Monday (6/29). My appointment was originally scheduled for July 9, but I couldn't stand to wait that long to find out what is going on, so I begged for an earlier appointment. Just hoping for a strong heartbeat!


GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be? Probably the Outer Banks. I had a truly magical vacation there a couple of years ago. I feel silly for not saying somewhere fabulous like Greece, or cool like Germany, but that vacation was just so perfect. I'd like to recreate it.

[kellybenelly83]

thanks for all the love yesterday ladies. I think I took the whole day well, kept myself busy and focused on THIS baby. and today as a reward.....MILESTONE #1 day!!! I officially now am more pregnant than I have ever been! I cannot wait until Monday to see our little blob!!

[leahks77]

Jun 26, 2015 8:34:58 GMT -5 kellybenelly83 said:

thanks for all the love yesterday ladies. I think I took the whole day well, kept myself busy and focused on THIS baby. and today as a reward.....MILESTONE #1 day!!! I officially now am more pregnant than I have ever been! I cannot wait until Monday to see our little blob!!

So happy for you! Looking forward to your Monday update

[league2b3]

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 7 weeks


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?:

Physically, I'm doing fine. No real appetite, and intermittent nausea, but nothing to really complain about.

Emotionally, it comes and goes. I alternate between being excited to not believing that there is really anything growing.

I have started having weird dreams, which is odd, because I generally don't remember dreams at all. Last night, I dreamed I was at my ultrasound next week. Like I think will happen, I was measuring behind due to my late ovulation. But, at least there was something in my ute.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: Our first ultrasound will be on 7/2. My only ultrasound with our last pregnancy did not go well...there was nothing there, no sac, nothing. So I have lots of anxiety.


GTKY: If you could buy a house/vacation property anywhere in the world where would it be? I would love to have maybe a timeshare in Cozumel or somewhere tropical.

[mellymel15]

league2b3, you and I both have ultrasounds on 7/2. I will be thinking of you. Last time, my first ultrasound is when I found out about my MMC. There was a fetal pole and sac, but I was measuring behind and they told me that was pretty much the end of it. I think DH is going to have to sedate me next Thursday.

[league2b3]

mellymel15, my H is going with me as well. He went with me to my first appointment since we didn't quite know what to expect. I think he thought I was insane I was wound so tightly. I'm sure this up coming appointment will be even worse! I just hope that there really is something in there, and it's healthy!

FX for both of our appointments next week! There are lots of us that day!