I'm out- bfn

[RM80]

Well, it’s officially a bfn this month and our EDD for our loss baby is in 2.5 weeks. Cue the ugly cry.

As many know this was our last try, at least for a good long while. We may revisit embryo adoption or fostering in the future, but I’m not sure that we’re emotionally ready to put it all out there yet or if we ever will.

I want to thank you all for being such an integral part of the journey for me here and on TB and sharing your wisdom & support. It’s time for me to try to move on and find a new normal that doesn’t involve TTC. Sadly, I think this means I need to sign off this board for a while and get some distance.

I hope those who were in the TTC check-in with me find their bfp’s and take home babies soon, I’m always rooting so hard for you all, something tells me I’ll probably still stalk to see what happens, so you may see the occasional ‘like’ from me.

[JustJudy]

Damn it, I'm sorry. I thought of you before I fell asleep last night hoping for a better update. Sending so many hugs to you.

[kh826]

Ugh! RM80, I am so sorry to read this. You will certainly be missed around here. I hope that you take the time that you need to rest, heal and enjoy life. I wish you all the best!

[ionaerebor]

Oh, I'm so sorry to see this. You will be missed. Wishing you all the best.

[mahler5]

I'm so sorry to hear this. It really sucks.

You will be missed. I really appreciate all the love and support you bring here.

I wish you the best of luck with everything. And selfishly, I hope to see you back here in the near future.

[healz413]

Very angry at the universe on your behalf. Sending lots of love and best wishes to you. I hope that you'll stay in touch off the board if it's something you're interested in (and totally understand if it's not).

[cetcar]

We're so sorry and bummed that this cycle didn't work out.

We'll miss having you around but understand your decision. You were always such a welcoming member of this community. As others have said, hope you do end up 'stalking' but take all the time you need to heal.

[Stringy]

Ugh So sorry - you will be missed- Big hugs.

[jazibel]

So sorry to hear this, you will be missed - but I totally understand needing to take a break, and/or make a permanent transition. Wishing all the best.

[kona]

I'm so sorry to hear this. As others have said, you were always such a positive, inclusive presence here. Wishing you the best with whatever the future holds for you and your family.

[karlamo]

RM80, Biggest bug to you. I'm so sorry that this is how the cycle ended. I hope time helps you heal and you and your wife are able to move forward.

[wittyandwaiting]

Oh no RM80!

I am so sorry that this is happening to you. I really am. I read this post over and over again looking for the right words and I can't seem to find them. I am so happy that I got to know you and will definitely keep in touch.

Thank you for all the care and support that you have shown us all here and I hope the universe starts throwing more awesomeness your way.

[dannigirl]

I am so sorry.

[klake42]

I'm so sorry to hear this.

[shemarie82]

RM80, I am late, but I am so very sorry to hear this. I wish you peace and strength in whichever way your path leads. You will certainly be missed.