PPD/PPA

[Leapinglizards]

Anyone still dealing with this. I had bad baby blues but it never really was overwhelming. Now that she is older I have started to have more and more anxiety. She also still is a shitty sleeper. I don't know if it is the winter and being cooped up more or something bigger. I literally had an attack changing the babies diaper for no reason. How is everyone doing?

[Liv]

**anxiety trigger warning**

It's gotten better for me, but still there. I almost lost my mind when I saw my MIL brought DD out on the balcony of their house. Like, I had anxiety out of my mind but talked myself out of rushing out there screaming for her to give me back my baby.

I'm so sorry it's rough for you. It's really one of the worst psychological states to be in. xx HUGS to you xx

[skeemer]

I'm starting to figure out what triggers my anxiety or depression. For me it's when I feel incredibly overwhelmed. I'm learning to prepare well ahead of time. Like today I'll iron the little one's clothes for Sunday & some things like that so Sunday morning church going is easier & less stressful. It doesn't always work. I'm trying to keep a leg up on managing it.

[liziz]

My IRL mom's group had a panel on PPA/PPD when LO was about 6 weeks old.

I was really surprised to hear from the moms (they had all been through it at one point or another) that it happened later for all of them. Typically around 6 months, rather than immediately after bringing baby home, as I had assumed originally. They said that 6, 9, 12 months, and whenever you wean are all common points for onset of PPA/PPD.

It's a lot to manage a baby even in the healthiest state of mind (and I'm pretty sure no one with a new baby is there!), and that's why communities like this one are important - for support and normalizing our feelings.

[lea]

My anxiety is getting worse, I feel. I'm not sure why but I definitely worry about more things now than I have since DS1 was born over four years ago.

[Leapinglizards]

Jan 23, 2015 16:18:13 GMT -5 liziz said:

My IRL mom's group had a panel on PPA/PPD when LO was about 6 weeks old.

I was really surprised to hear from the moms (they had all been through it at one point or another) that it happened later for all of them. Typically around 6 months, rather than immediately after bringing baby home, as I had assumed originally. They said that 6, 9, 12 months, and whenever you wean are all common points for onset of PPA/PPD.

It's a lot to manage a baby even in the healthiest state of mind (and I'm pretty sure no one with a new baby is there!), and that's why communities like this one are important - for support and normalizing our feelings.

I almost didn't use post partum because you don't normally hear concerns from women talk about it after the newborn phase. I am kinda glad we moved over from the bump. This forum is way less Google searchable and I feel more comfy talking about this stuff. Thanks so much everyone. I feel not so alone now and a little less crazy

[Leapinglizards]

Jan 23, 2015 16:18:25 GMT -5 @zerozeroone said:

You're not alone. I'm still dealing with it but it isn't quite as bad as it was. I was given a prescription for Prozac that I never took because I was too anxious about it getting into my breast milk and potentially harming DS even though it's safe. Now it's manageable enough that I don't think I need meds but it's still lingering.

For example, the other night I was worrying my son's helmet was getting too tight and his brain wouldn't have enough room to grow. Logically I know this isn't the case because we go weekly to have it adjusted for his growing head but the PPA causes me to think this way sometimes. I hope it goes away soon.

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I am the same way I always worry about things in my breastmilk affecting DD even though I know it doesn't work this way. it's amazing how many things you worry about as a mom. How is your son doing with the helmet?

[Leapinglizards]

Jan 23, 2015 18:55:40 GMT -5 @zerozeroone said:

Jan 23, 2015 17:33:22 GMT -5 Leapinglizards said:

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I am the same way I always worry about things in my breastmilk affecting DD even though I know it doesn't work this way. it's amazing how many things you worry about as a mom. How is your son doing with the helmet?

I know! The worry is a lot sometimes. I really need to stay away from Google too because that just makes it so much worse. I'm also glad this board is a little harder to search in general.

He is doing really well with the helmet, thanks for asking. We had his weekly appointment today and his head keeps improving a little bit. Fortunately he hasn't had problems with it affecting his sleep and I've been able to dress him so he doesn't get too hot. Yeah, I was the anxiety riddled mother who was asking the clinicians if the helmet would increase the risk of SIDS. This thread is making me realize that the PPD has improved but the PPA is definitely present.

That's great that he seems to be adjusting well!!!! I think babies with helmets are uber cute. I feel exactly the same way about the PPA still present. I have always over analyzed and worried everything but the physical symptoms are something that is completely new to me. It takes over

[mamanorris]

I just started medicine a few weeks ago and I already feel better. Not 100%, but better than I did.

[honeybee434]

I've been dealing with a little anxiety since she was born, but I think most of that is normal new mom stuff. I also haven't that much sleep, and I usually require more than the average person, so I think that triggers most of it.

Since my dad passed away, though, I've been dealing with a lot more. Other then DD and DH, he was the next most important person in my life. Im going through a lot of "what if something heppens to DD or DH" anxiety, now. I think that's probably fairly normal when you lose someone. But just dealing with that, on top of no time to myself to process and the stress from juggling home and work schedules, it amplifies everything. DH asked me if I wanted to go talk to someone, but I hate the idea of spending less time than I already do with LO.

Also, it seems like my FB feed is blowing up with stories of child tragedies, sickness, etc. The overload makes me feel like I need to take a big FB break to keep my anxiety levels down.

[GrrArgh]

I am sorry you guys are having a rough time. With DD1 I think I started to feel normal around 10 months. It was actually just when I was ready to finally reach out for help that my anxiety started to calm down. So I hope it gets better soon. I know how hard it can be... For me how overwhelmed I am correlates pretty closely to lack of sleep so I would try getting someone to help a night or two, a grandparent or DH so you can get some uninterrupted sleep, for me it made a real difference.

It has been better this time. The hardcore anxiety started to chill around 4 months, I still have my moments, mostly since aviv is pretty behind physically, but it's not all out panic attack inducing. I think just knowing it would get better helped it to get better faster if that makes sense.

[stellabunny]

I started back on some mild anti-depressants about a month ago. I just felt anxious all the time. It had helped. My boss is also letting me work 80% time for a little while so I've been able to get some more work/life balance. I know that's not an option for a lot of people, but it has been worth the pay cut for me.

[Deleted]

I'm glad I found this. I didn't know about 6 months/weaning having a connection to feeling low but that's where we're at right now and I feel like I'm drowning. I was on ADs before this LO so should probably go get checked out in case it's happening again. It's so reassuring knowing others have been there too, hopefully it'll get better for you all soon.