Post by rae80407 on Jul 5, 2015 20:58:19 GMT -5
Hi everybody. My name's Rae. I'm 24 and expecting my first child in December (2nd pregnancy). I've been with my fi for 8 years. I've suffered from anxiety and depression most of my life, made more prominent by my loss 3 years ago. That was the first time I sought medical treatment and took celexa for 6months. It was the scariest time of my life, I just knew the antidepressant was going to make me go crazy and kill everybody. I cried for the first night hours until I took it. It eventually helped and I weaned off after an appropriate time by my PCP.
I've never seen an actual therapist, although I'm strongly considering it now. It's just that I'm so scared. I just have this irrational fear that they will talk to me once and lock me away or take my child from me once she's born. I don't know why I feel that way.
I have times in my life where I just can not control my emotions. Mostly triggered by fights with my fi. I just lose my shit man. I hurt way deeper than I should and I get so upset that I lose myself in either a rage or an emotional torrent of pain and anguish. I'm fearful that my relationship can't take it and I certainly can't take the crushing alone feeling as well as the hole that it leaves in my heart.
I really want to start therapy but like I said, I'm so nervous to go that route. My relationship has been through so much and I feel like that contributes to the anguish and anxiety. I will go into that later. I just hope to join here and get advice and support from any of you who have been through anything like this as well as give support. It's just a very lonely feeling to think I'm the only one who feels so out of control at times. Thank you for reading and I hope to join in soon
I've never seen an actual therapist, although I'm strongly considering it now. It's just that I'm so scared. I just have this irrational fear that they will talk to me once and lock me away or take my child from me once she's born. I don't know why I feel that way.
I have times in my life where I just can not control my emotions. Mostly triggered by fights with my fi. I just lose my shit man. I hurt way deeper than I should and I get so upset that I lose myself in either a rage or an emotional torrent of pain and anguish. I'm fearful that my relationship can't take it and I certainly can't take the crushing alone feeling as well as the hole that it leaves in my heart.
I really want to start therapy but like I said, I'm so nervous to go that route. My relationship has been through so much and I feel like that contributes to the anguish and anxiety. I will go into that later. I just hope to join here and get advice and support from any of you who have been through anything like this as well as give support. It's just a very lonely feeling to think I'm the only one who feels so out of control at times. Thank you for reading and I hope to join in soon