Intro: Scared/Lost Updated To: Hopeful!
Jan 23, 2015 23:14:46 GMT -5
Post by duckker on Jan 23, 2015 23:14:46 GMT -5
I'm a stepmom (we basically have full residential custody and have for five + years) to two teens, and am expecting my first "body baby" mid-Feb. I've always worked full time, and usually had a part time job and/or went to school in addition. I'm good at the balancing act of older kids and career and etc., but things are so very different with the prospect of an infant on the horizon. I would truly appreciate any advice/input from any of the moms here.
My current situation is this: We relocated across the country when I was about 12 weeks pregnant. It's been a great move, with the minor exception that my husband's job situation imploded about two months after we moved and a few weeks after we bought our house. I had taken a part-time job that allowed me to work from home, as the CoL was so much lower here and DH's job was more than enough for us to meet obligations and then some. He spent almost two months desperately seeking work. I took a second part-time job with the same company (also work from home) and we agreed that I would try to find something full time when baby was six months. He found a job this month; it's all commission, no benefits, no base salary. We are running through our savings and scared. I interviewed today for a part time job that is almost an hour away from here. I was offered the position, with a start date of March 2. I have to take it; we are out of options financially.
Right now the plan is to leave the baby with my sister for the 4-6 hours a day that I will be out of the home. If I deliver on schedule, she will be around two weeks old when I start leaving her. I plan to breastfeed exclusively for as long as we can manage it, and my sister is a lactation consultant, so at least that part feels not unmanageable. I know in my heart of hearts that the baby will be fine, that women do this all the time, that it isn't the end of the world. But every. single. time. I think about having to leave her so soon, my heart shatters into a million little pieces.
The pragmatic side of me understands that I have to do this. But, moms, how did you make it work?
Update: Just walked in the door from another interview for a full time position with great benefits that would be an IDEAL job for me. It seems likely that I will get an offer from them. Before I left I asked specifically about start dates and expectations, etc., in relation to me being a new mom. They have a nursery on site! AND the boss said "That's always an option, of course, but you can absolutely bring your baby to work with you if you don't have a problem with that. Up to a year is fine with me for you to have her in your office. That way you can nurse on demand. And if you need some time to focus without her, you won't have any difficulty finding someone who will be happy to hold her and keep her entertained... I brought mine to work for a year when I was a new mom, and it was such a comfort to me."
I literally didn't know what to say. When I got home I fell to my knees sobbing. Even if I don't get this job, just knowing that there are people out there like this who want to help moms make it work... Anyway, I wanted to thank all of you for your thoughts and prayers and support and virtual hugs. And I'm praying hard that every mom out there gets a sense of peace and hope today that is even a fraction of what I have right now. Hang in there.
My current situation is this: We relocated across the country when I was about 12 weeks pregnant. It's been a great move, with the minor exception that my husband's job situation imploded about two months after we moved and a few weeks after we bought our house. I had taken a part-time job that allowed me to work from home, as the CoL was so much lower here and DH's job was more than enough for us to meet obligations and then some. He spent almost two months desperately seeking work. I took a second part-time job with the same company (also work from home) and we agreed that I would try to find something full time when baby was six months. He found a job this month; it's all commission, no benefits, no base salary. We are running through our savings and scared. I interviewed today for a part time job that is almost an hour away from here. I was offered the position, with a start date of March 2. I have to take it; we are out of options financially.
Right now the plan is to leave the baby with my sister for the 4-6 hours a day that I will be out of the home. If I deliver on schedule, she will be around two weeks old when I start leaving her. I plan to breastfeed exclusively for as long as we can manage it, and my sister is a lactation consultant, so at least that part feels not unmanageable. I know in my heart of hearts that the baby will be fine, that women do this all the time, that it isn't the end of the world. But every. single. time. I think about having to leave her so soon, my heart shatters into a million little pieces.
The pragmatic side of me understands that I have to do this. But, moms, how did you make it work?
Update: Just walked in the door from another interview for a full time position with great benefits that would be an IDEAL job for me. It seems likely that I will get an offer from them. Before I left I asked specifically about start dates and expectations, etc., in relation to me being a new mom. They have a nursery on site! AND the boss said "That's always an option, of course, but you can absolutely bring your baby to work with you if you don't have a problem with that. Up to a year is fine with me for you to have her in your office. That way you can nurse on demand. And if you need some time to focus without her, you won't have any difficulty finding someone who will be happy to hold her and keep her entertained... I brought mine to work for a year when I was a new mom, and it was such a comfort to me."
I literally didn't know what to say. When I got home I fell to my knees sobbing. Even if I don't get this job, just knowing that there are people out there like this who want to help moms make it work... Anyway, I wanted to thank all of you for your thoughts and prayers and support and virtual hugs. And I'm praying hard that every mom out there gets a sense of peace and hope today that is even a fraction of what I have right now. Hang in there.