All the feelings

[wandsandwine]

First good feelings: Jack is 6 months old today and I'm such a proud mommy. He's getting so big, is healthy smart and strong.

Now the rest...
I'm having a pretty bad depression day. I'm sad my LO is growing up so fast and I feel like I'm missing out because I have to work. I have really bad mommy guilt

DH and I had a terrible date night yesterday, all the plans we had kept getting ruined one after another until we were fighting in the car because I refused to wait 2 hours for a table at a new restaurant in downtown Detroit. We had to drive all the way back to our old stand by and not even really talk over dinner.

He had a bad morning because LO refused to nap and was crying and decided to text me how frustrated he is making my guilt worse.

Work is full of girls I used to be friends with who now ignore me since I'm a mom and can't go out so I feel like the unwanted kid

Sorry this is long, I wish my Zoloft would kick in already

[elaina22]

I was just getting ready to post in Weekend Randoms how the weekends make me so depressed. I spend all week looking forward to them but then when they are here, I feel like I am just reminded of how much I miss during the week. Last week I was crying to H that I don't even know my baby. Overdramatic, probably, but balancing everything is hard work, as you all know.

I know I need to focus more on enjoying the time I have with LO instead of dwelling on the negatives.

Hang in there wandsandwine. You aren't alone and we are all doing the best we can.

[sweetpies]

I'm sorry your date night did not go as you planned. Hopefully your next one will be better. I sometimes have to remind myself that LO is not MY baby, but that he's DH's baby too. Your H will figure out what baby needs, and just think how appreciative DH and baby will be when you come home.

[Chrisse]

Thinking of you, lady!

[mislogis]

We all have those mom guilt moments. That said, you have to also do what is best for your family. I went back to work FT. And found out 3 mos later we were expecting. This time around I didn't even cry when I went back to work. Because I know it's what we need to do right now. And as much as you want your baby to consume your life, it's ok for it not to. Dh and I make sure we go out with friends, solo or together at least 2 times a month in traveling solo to pheonix in 2 weeks. I was planning on taking the baby. He said no, enjoy the trip.

It's very easy to lose who you are, and ultimately, when the babies get older, you still need to know who you are left with. You need to remember who you and DH are/were pre kiddos. KWIM?

[mrsnorris]

I'm sorry things are tough. I hope it gets better soon! Try not to feel guilty- it's so easy to do, but you're doing a great job and we're all just doing the best we can. It's hard stuff and no one is achieving perfection.

[puffandstuff]

I agree with mislogis. I would reach out to your friends at work. Maybe do fun things at lunch instead of happy hour. You can also start happy hour earlier.

[gingy]

Sorry you're feeling this way! There are a million ways to feel mom guilt, whether you work or not. Can you make reservations at that restaurant and try again?

[cdseno]

Thinking of you today. What you wrote for the good stuff sounds to me like you are a great mother who is doing what is best for her family.

As soon as you mentioned Detriot I immediacy started to crave Buddy's pizza. Yumm-o! Now I need to take a road trip. And then I can come give you a big creepy hug.

[Courtniko]

Sorry you are having a rough time. I totally get it. Being a mom is hard, but you are doing great!

[HazyGrey]

I'm sorry. I've also had s date night like that - it's the worst. I wouldn't wait that long for a table either! Hang in there. We all feel guilt on all different levels. Even if you were a SAHM you would be feeling guilty over something. The grass isn't always greener!