Post by murrt on Jul 20, 2015 9:25:41 GMT -5
Hi all,
I think I go here now if you'll have me.
I'm a regular on 3T/IF and then on PAIF before our loss. DH and I have an infertility diagnosis of MFI and after three failed IUIs we tried IVF with success. I was 17 weeks when we lost our little one three and a half weeks ago.
Reading your stories, I'm heartbroken for all of you. I'm not sure if my loss was late enough to belong here, but the miscarriage board doesn't feel right either. We were in the second trimester. Our baby was making faces at us in the ultrasound and we were finally at the point where we were comfortable and confident in our pregnancy. We chose to not find out the sex or name our child thinking that would be easier on us. The wondering is hard, but I think choosing differently would be harder on us.
I've never felt closer to my husband, but he is not coping well. He's drinking a ton and realizing it's not healthy. He goes to his appointment with his therapist today and I've been doing EFT therapy for two weeks. We're both a wreck, but trying to get through. I'm exhausted from not sleeping well, crying too much and can't seem to care about work.
We have decided we want to try to conceive again, but we're waiting a while until we feel stronger.
My Dad's birthday is today. He died suddenly 6 years ago. I keep picturing him holding and playing with my baby and while it makes me happy, it's so sad too.
Thanks for having me. Sorry that was long and rambling, but it was really helpful to get it out.