Post by periwinkledaydreams on Aug 17, 2015 12:23:16 GMT -5
Hi ladies, So Ive been pretty MIA the past few weeks. Life has really piled up the shittiness like a mother effer, Ive been feeling seriously tortured by circumstance and timing and Im pissed that so much crap in my life is keeping me from fully enjoying my beautiful little girl right now. I dont want to come on here and just be a big ole complainer, I feel physically awful, Ive been at drs appointments almost every day, and any time I have Im curled up in a little ball so thats why I havent posted much recently. Aaaanyway clearly Im overwhelmed and struggling with some depressed feelings.
I know we had one of these started a long time ago, and even though I havent oosted much I still read when I can and havent seen it come up and wanted to reach out. Thought it might be a good time to open up a space for those of us who might want to talk about depression/anxiety and what were going through, how were feeling, how were coping, medication, etc, anything, whatever.
I know me personally, right now I am struggling so hard right now with the decision whether or not to go the route of medication while breastfeeding, even though my doctor has cleared me 100% and the medication is prescribed already two fold for depression/anxiety AND for my chronic migraine. I have the prescripstion in hand, I just can't seem to bring myself to take that first pill knowing Im going to be feeding my LO. It gives me even more anxiety. This is now the second script they've written me for the migraine, the last one I took home and waffled over for 2 weeks before deciding the thought of taking it gave me too much anxiety and they decided to prescribe the antidepressant/antianxiety which also acts as a migraine prophylactic. Now I cant take that one. Im a mess! And my head continues to pound! And I havent even mentioned the rest of my pile of shambles stress explosion life!! But my baby is healthy and I want to keep it that way. Im so torn.
Anyway, on one hand I hope ideally that no one else is struggling with PPA/PPD. On the other hand, the liklihood is that others are, and in that case I do hope that if there are others that you might chose this as a space to share and connect and know were not alone.
I know we had one of these started a long time ago, and even though I havent oosted much I still read when I can and havent seen it come up and wanted to reach out. Thought it might be a good time to open up a space for those of us who might want to talk about depression/anxiety and what were going through, how were feeling, how were coping, medication, etc, anything, whatever.
I know me personally, right now I am struggling so hard right now with the decision whether or not to go the route of medication while breastfeeding, even though my doctor has cleared me 100% and the medication is prescribed already two fold for depression/anxiety AND for my chronic migraine. I have the prescripstion in hand, I just can't seem to bring myself to take that first pill knowing Im going to be feeding my LO. It gives me even more anxiety. This is now the second script they've written me for the migraine, the last one I took home and waffled over for 2 weeks before deciding the thought of taking it gave me too much anxiety and they decided to prescribe the antidepressant/antianxiety which also acts as a migraine prophylactic. Now I cant take that one. Im a mess! And my head continues to pound! And I havent even mentioned the rest of my pile of shambles stress explosion life!! But my baby is healthy and I want to keep it that way. Im so torn.
Anyway, on one hand I hope ideally that no one else is struggling with PPA/PPD. On the other hand, the liklihood is that others are, and in that case I do hope that if there are others that you might chose this as a space to share and connect and know were not alone.