Intro - Losses & Child Mentioned
Aug 23, 2015 21:12:39 GMT -5
Post by wibblywobbly on Aug 23, 2015 21:12:39 GMT -5
Hey all, I'm wibblywobbly. Introing here because I need the support right now.
I had two miscarriages, one in 2007 and one in 2008. Then, after four cancelled IUIs we tried IVF and had a successful pregnancy that resulted in our DD who is now 5 months old. When my OB asked about our birth control plans at my 6 week PP appointment I chuckled and said "not doing IVF."
Well, surprise surprise, two weeks ago I took a test and found out I was pregnant. We were thrilled and shocked that we were naturally pregnant!
On Thursday we went in for our first ultrasound and when nothing showed up inside the uterus I knew immediately something was wrong and I assumed ectopic. My doctor confirmed it to be ectopic/tubal and told me I'd need surgery to remove it. It was in the right tube, which was blocked previously, so I was devastated about losing the pregnancy but knew it was to save my life and that the tube was already damaged, so losing that wouldn't be that big of a deal. They scheduled the same day surgery for Friday.
Well, I woke up from surgery Friday afternoon and found out it hadn't been as "simple" as planned. The egg had implanted in the tube but also on the uterine wall, so part of that had to be removed, which was done through a bigger incision than planned. I ended up staying overnight at the hospital, which was very lonely.
I'm in a lot of physical and emotional pain now. I'm so tired of this happening. How do I get over this...again? Those miscarriages still hurt, I still think about them all the time, and now I have another to add to the list.
I had two miscarriages, one in 2007 and one in 2008. Then, after four cancelled IUIs we tried IVF and had a successful pregnancy that resulted in our DD who is now 5 months old. When my OB asked about our birth control plans at my 6 week PP appointment I chuckled and said "not doing IVF."
Well, surprise surprise, two weeks ago I took a test and found out I was pregnant. We were thrilled and shocked that we were naturally pregnant!
On Thursday we went in for our first ultrasound and when nothing showed up inside the uterus I knew immediately something was wrong and I assumed ectopic. My doctor confirmed it to be ectopic/tubal and told me I'd need surgery to remove it. It was in the right tube, which was blocked previously, so I was devastated about losing the pregnancy but knew it was to save my life and that the tube was already damaged, so losing that wouldn't be that big of a deal. They scheduled the same day surgery for Friday.
Well, I woke up from surgery Friday afternoon and found out it hadn't been as "simple" as planned. The egg had implanted in the tube but also on the uterine wall, so part of that had to be removed, which was done through a bigger incision than planned. I ended up staying overnight at the hospital, which was very lonely.
I'm in a lot of physical and emotional pain now. I'm so tired of this happening. How do I get over this...again? Those miscarriages still hurt, I still think about them all the time, and now I have another to add to the list.
give yourself time to process and heal, and be gentle with yourself.
I hope you start feeling better soon. 