Friday Feels!Sept 18, 2015 11:22:06 GMT -5via mobile
Post by mahler5 on Sept 18, 2015 11:22:06 GMT -5
My mood is better today. I started progesterone shots yesterday which I think helps with the side effects I get from the estrogen and other meds.
I've been anxious about next week's FET. I'm anxious about going to this LGBT happy hour for faculty and staff from our local university tonight. L really wants to go and we got a babysitter but I'm not feeling it. I'm usually the one pushing L to be more social too, so I should be happy about it but I hate trying to meet people in those situations. Plus I don't drink so that doesn't make it nearly as fun
I'm excited C is getting school pictures today! I bought her a cute outfit but failed to do much with her hair. But there is only so much I can do before 6:30 in the morning. And I have to admit I am not a fan of doing her hair. I'm not good at it and she doesn't like it!
Friday Feels!Sept 18, 2015 14:10:04 GMT -5via mobile
Post by dannigirl on Sept 18, 2015 14:10:04 GMT -5
** possible trigger - lose mentioned **
Today was slightly heartbreaking but good too. I was at the Terry Fox Run on base and ran into two girls who we know who had their little boy a week after our Baby Girl was due. It was good to see him because he is happy and healthy. But it was hard too because our little girl should be a week older than him right now. I should have been running with her today like they were with their boy. So many emotions. But I did good. I smiled and admired him, took in his baby smells and cuteness.. And reminded myself that our time will come, we will expand our family, we will have a healthy baby running around the house. We will get to enjoy all the family things everyone else we know get to do. It will happen. I didn't cry... Even on the way home when I was thinking about all the things above, It's getting easier and I'm not angry like I used to be, So that's helpful for my sanity.
Post by kekaellypula on Sept 18, 2015 16:57:01 GMT -5
Wednesday night was the last BC taken. Drugs came today. Day 4 blood work and ultrasound on Monday. Sperm has been ordered and will be at the clinic October 1st. Foot is healing. We are spending the night in Mass tomorrow night so we can partake of a certain fast food restaurant that isn't in NY. I don't want to go back to work on Wednesday. I can't wait to start my business again, everyday I'm coming closer and closer to it being started.
Friday Feels!Sept 18, 2015 21:55:07 GMT -5via mobile
Post by rikkiandjulie on Sept 18, 2015 21:55:07 GMT -5
Today kind of sucked. BIL/SIL are still not talking to DW and I after the college football.game fiasco, but at this point I don't even know why they are mad. They have both ignored every single one of our calls. We told them this cycle was a no go, and they replied with a "That Sucks". It really hurt because for 10+ months we were there for them during every failed test, every single blood test, etc. etc. But now nothing in return, it's so hurtful and sad. DW went over to drop of a tool to them yesterday, and neither one of them got up from the couch to greet her, and they hear their garage door open, because the dogs were barking.... I'll never understand how she can be mad that we went to a football game we had planned for months, and then when things didn't go EXACTLY her way AND she failed to communicate she was unhappy with the ones we had made she chose not to go, but is clearly mad at us because we continued to go, and didn't wait around playing her "Are you ok, what's wrong" game. It's just really hurtful because I adore them both a lot. Secondly, we got a thank you card from DWs other brother and his wife. It was addressed to only Julie, even though I am the one who picked out the gift, packaged the gift, bought and signed the card. But nope I don't get a thank you.
So I actually cried my eyes out today over both of the above, I don't understand. I'm so lost as to why there is so much anger and hate. I also feel bad be the second brother makes DW chose between him and I on a daily basis. I'm just really fed up with it all.
I'm just tired tonight. I ate too much today and I kinda regret it, but not really. I've been working out and bike riding and walking and eating right and I just wanted some damn boba. So what if I had ice cream earlier. Quit judging me!
In terms of feels, I had a big meltdown last night. It was triggered by a very reasonable, heart-felt, emotionally honest request from Sweetie. Which made me feel guilty. Which made me sad. Which made me cry for like 30 minutes on the couch about all the sad things. Please ignore the hyperbole. The sad things were: Our cats that don't get along. I feel like an awful teacher. TTC will never ever work. (Note to self: we've tried ONCE. CALM THE EFF DOWN.) My co-workers must all hate me (they don't). Everything is awful forever. (It isn't.) So, I did my nails and some homework and talked to my bestie from home and felt better.
PS - Everybody should check out: Espionage Cosmetics It's NERD MAKE UP. Nail wraps with patterns like nebulaes and "unicorn blood" and Tron and the Northern Lights. I loves it. No, I don't work for them. Doing my nails in a new nail wrap always makes me feel better, is all. Thought I'd share.
It is 3:42am and I have been awake most of the night. So much so now that I'm just playing on my phone to pass time. J is snoring next to me. The dog is snoring at my feet. I don't think William is snoring at the moment, but he has been cozy in his crib since 7:30pm. We have a fun Saturday family day planned, and I really hope I don't feel like a zombie from complete lack of sleep... I miss caffeine.. I am thinking about going downstairs for a snack... This is more of a weekend random than a Friday Feel, but please indulge me. You know what sounds delicious right now? French fries!
CET and I caved and shared a soft pretzel a couple of weeks ago. We've been together over 12 years and I'm not sure we've ever had one together.....that shows how often we have then. Any recipe recommendations out there?
CET & CAR - both 30, married Aug, 2013, together 12+ yrs.
TTC #1: CAR carrying IUI #1 & 2 - Clomid, trigger = BFN IUI #3 - Switched to Gonal 150iu. Overstim led to 'surprise' IVF. Retrieved 21, 14 mature, 13 fertilized, all 13 made it to day 5, 9 PGS normal. Transferred 1 AA hatched blast 5/1/15 Baby Girl M born 1-21-16
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