Hello Again *Recurrent Loss & LC mentioned*
Oct 1, 2015 2:17:30 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Oct 1, 2015 2:17:30 GMT -5
Hello!
Right in the middle of my second loss this year - also in the middle of a night shift - I so desperately look for some comfort in such an isolating experience. I did a 5 cycle sting on TTGP/GKU around the time TD imploded, so I hope maybe someone recognizes my SN. I feel as though perhaps I know more of you than you do of me, but the comforts of your sn's, avatars, and love for alcoholic beverages has lured me back as I pick my heart up off the floor.
On cycle 6 I got a BFP in January only to end in MMC (twins) at 9weeks in February. I had a blissfully medicated D&C and took a 7 month emotional hiatus from TTC, I didn't get much chance to come back to this board because we got another BFP on cycle 1 of TTCAL. 6 weeks later (just last week) I miscarried.
My husbands a bit of an introvert, and definitely not a social media guy, he also hasn't really be a good support in the emotional department during these losses. Sometimes I feel such bitterness with comments like "We will try again" other days I am so thankful for the optimism that my scared PGAL brain doesn't have the courage to have. He's also picking up the cleaning cooking toddler chasing pieces that I don't have the energy for.
My ob is a gem. After two ER docs telling me no testing was needed prior to 3 losses, my OB held my hand, wrote a rx for progesterone and told me to start it after I get another bfp - I do wanna recheck with her because I understand progesterone works best starting just after ovulation, rather than waiting for a bfp.
My unhealthy googling shows I have most symptoms of low progesterone, exhaustion, low libido, vaginal dryness, sugar cravings, acne, night sweats, polycystic ovaries, fibrocystic breast (I have had a new breast lump appear for every pregnancy including the pregnancy with my DD) but of course all these symptoms could be that of other issues. Although my OB jumped on board with prescribing progesterone, she didn't seem interested or think level testing was required? My curious mind wants to know where Im at so maybe I'll ask for that too.
Alot of my feeling mimic that of my last loss, less crying, more anger, and more immediate determination to TTC again. Im gonna lurk and participate for a few cycles while I get my chart and mind organized so Thanks for having me, and reading through this emotional banter, I am always crossing my fingers for BFPs and look forward to wine nights
eta: typo
Right in the middle of my second loss this year - also in the middle of a night shift - I so desperately look for some comfort in such an isolating experience. I did a 5 cycle sting on TTGP/GKU around the time TD imploded, so I hope maybe someone recognizes my SN. I feel as though perhaps I know more of you than you do of me, but the comforts of your sn's, avatars, and love for alcoholic beverages has lured me back as I pick my heart up off the floor.
On cycle 6 I got a BFP in January only to end in MMC (twins) at 9weeks in February. I had a blissfully medicated D&C and took a 7 month emotional hiatus from TTC, I didn't get much chance to come back to this board because we got another BFP on cycle 1 of TTCAL. 6 weeks later (just last week) I miscarried.
My husbands a bit of an introvert, and definitely not a social media guy, he also hasn't really be a good support in the emotional department during these losses. Sometimes I feel such bitterness with comments like "We will try again" other days I am so thankful for the optimism that my scared PGAL brain doesn't have the courage to have. He's also picking up the cleaning cooking toddler chasing pieces that I don't have the energy for.
My ob is a gem. After two ER docs telling me no testing was needed prior to 3 losses, my OB held my hand, wrote a rx for progesterone and told me to start it after I get another bfp - I do wanna recheck with her because I understand progesterone works best starting just after ovulation, rather than waiting for a bfp.
My unhealthy googling shows I have most symptoms of low progesterone, exhaustion, low libido, vaginal dryness, sugar cravings, acne, night sweats, polycystic ovaries, fibrocystic breast (I have had a new breast lump appear for every pregnancy including the pregnancy with my DD) but of course all these symptoms could be that of other issues. Although my OB jumped on board with prescribing progesterone, she didn't seem interested or think level testing was required? My curious mind wants to know where Im at so maybe I'll ask for that too.
Alot of my feeling mimic that of my last loss, less crying, more anger, and more immediate determination to TTC again. Im gonna lurk and participate for a few cycles while I get my chart and mind organized so Thanks for having me, and reading through this emotional banter, I am always crossing my fingers for BFPs and look forward to wine nights
eta: typo