Weekly PGAL Check-In Thread

[nitecheese]

Week of 10/19



This is the weekly check-in for June '16 moms who have experienced loss before this pregnancy. We are sorry you have to be here, but let's get through the next 9 months together.



If this if your first check-in, Welcome! Please share the following in your post:



Loss Background (if you're comfortable)



How far along are you (weeks/fruit):



How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?



Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:



GTKY: what is your favorite food?

[babyzebra]

Hello ladies! I'm so happy to join you all over here!


Loss Background (if you're comfortable)
I've had 2 natural MC this year (10 weeks and 5 weeks)

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 4w3d

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
I'm feeling fine physically. Emotionally, I'm terrified. I can't lose another baby this year. I'm trying so hard to remain optimistic, but it's tough. DH is super excited, so that makes me feel so much better.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
I'm calling today to set up my first appointment.


GTKY: what is your favorite food?
I like almost everything, but I would say mashed potatoes or pizza are probably my favorite.

[teggy20]

Hi nitecheese, I just intro'ed so I'm gonna jump right in.

Loss Background (if you're comfortable)
I've had three losses in the past year... a chemical + two full-blown miscarriages. I was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve a few months ago, which gave us an answer as to why I'm probably miscarrying but added a whole new level of anxiety knowing that there's a decent possibility I'll miscarry again. Praying that this is our miracle baby.


How far along are you (weeks/fruit):
4w3d


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Physically, fine. Tired, hormonal.

Emotionally, very anxious. My first betas came back great, so I'm trying to take comfort in that. I'm pretty much a ball of nerves and even though my husband completely understands, it's kind of driving him nuts. I need to get it under control. Yoga + lots of walks + telling myself that "you gotta start somewhere.. this is the first step" is helping.


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
First US with my RE is scheduled for 10.28 at 5.5 weeks. We won't be able to see the heartbeat yet, but they'll check for development.


GTKY: what is your favorite food?
Ooohhhh mama loves to eat... you can never go wrong with a really great piece of pizza.


Looking forward to getting to know you ladies!

[babyzebra]

teggy20 I can completely understand the anxious feeling. I'm glad your first betas came back great We're due date buddies! Fx that we both have an uneventful 9 months!

[teggy20]

babyzebra, yay for 6/24! Soooo many fx that it's an uneventful 9 months for both of us.

[shoogars]

Loss Background (if you're comfortable) 2010 mc at 10 was, DD1 2011, DD2 2012, 2015...2 chemicals and a mc at 6 weeks, diagnosed hypothyroid.


How far along are you (weeks/fruit): 7 weeks 4 days, raspberry


How are you feeling physically? Mild all day nausea and terrible energy level.
Emotionally? I'm completely paranoid, and terrified to think too far ahead of myself. I will not be comfortable until I have a healthy baby in my arms.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: saw hb at 5 weeks 6 days, and have another appointment/ ultrasound this Friday at 8 weeks. Will also be checking thyroid level.

GTKY: what is your favorite food? Nachos.

[nitecheese]

Loss Background (if you're comfortable): I had an mc at 6w at the beginning of June, and another mc at 5ish w in the middle of July.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit): I'm currently 5w1d

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally? Physically, I'm incredibly tired and hungry, until I'm nauseated in the middle of the day until bedtime. Emotionally, I'm a total wreck. I cannot stop testing and I cannot relax. I keep agonizing over every little twinge and cramp. I'm scared to go to the bathroom. I hope this feeling passes once I have my first appointment, or hear a heartbeat, or make it to second tri.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones: I have my first appointment on 10/28. I am nervous but excited. I hope I make it that far.

GTKY: what is your favorite food? I love to cook and to eat. My favorite food is probably any variety of Ramen (actual, not instant), or Saag Choley. Lately I've been craving samosas non-stop.

[soultrane]

Good morning ladies!

Loss Background (if you're comfortable)
MMC at 8w3d in April

How far along are you (weeks/fruit):
6ish weeks

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Physically-sore boobs, mild nausea if I haven't eaten in a while, and the bloat is out of control.
Emotionally - incredibly guarded. My sister is pg and due around the same time and she's already talking about how they'll grow up together, and all I can think is that I hope we see a baby at the next u/s and not an empty sac like last time. Since I had zero signs that anything was wrong last time, the betas and symptoms aren't doing much to ease my mind.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
I had a sono last week and saw the gestational sac but nothing else so we're hoping it was still just too early. My numbers were still more than doubling so that helped a little. I have a follow-up on the 29th which seems like forever.

GTKY: what is your favorite food?
Anything Italian. Give me all the garlic and cheese please!

[teggy20]

shoogars, isn't it sad how past loss makes our heads so spinny and weird that it prevents us from celebrating this current baby? I'm trying to be better, but like you, I'm having a hard time letting myself think too far ahead.

nitecheese, I totally, totally get the anxiety. Hugs to you.

babyzebra, I didn't see your last post besides the due date buddies! I feel the same way... like I just can't even imagine going through it again.

This is the first step towards our take-home babies. We have to stay positive. TODAY, we are pregnant, and that's worth celebrating.

[shan]

Loss Background:
We are also dealing with secondary infertility. After 3 medicated + IUI cycles I was pg. We lost that baby around 9.5 weeks (in July). I had a d&c that confirmed the baby had trisomy 22. My RE assures me this doesn't put me at any higher risk for this pregnancy. It has forever changed me, though.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit):
6w5d

How are you feeling physically?
Physically I'm okay. Nausea, but it's manageable.

Emotionally?
I'm a complete disaster.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
Today is my first ultrasound. I've been in cold sweats about it all morning. I saw DH and he said "you look nervous" and I broke down sobbing, out of nowhere. The appointment is in 45 minutes and I'm concentrating on not vomiting from the nerves.

GTKY: what is your favorite food?
I love all food.

[nitecheese]

shan, I wish you a strong stomach and all the good news.

[soultrane]

GL today shan!

[teggy20]

Hope today goes perfectly, shan!

[babyzebra]

I'll be thinking about you today shan, good luck!

[shan]

Update: one baby with a beautiful heartbeat. I'm so incredibly relieved. It took me some time to recover after the doctor left.

Thanks for the well wishes!

[babyzebra]

That's awesome news shan!

[vlinder]

Loss Background (if you're comfortable):
MMC @ 8-9 weeks in April.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit):
4w6d

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Physically I'm doing ok, a little tired, a lot bloated, a little nausea.
Emotionally I'm all over the place. But today I am pregnant, and I love my baby.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
First u/s isn't until 11/6. Trying to keep calm until then.

GTKY: what is your favorite food?
Good question. I love food in general.

[teggy20]

That's amazing news, shan!!

[nitecheese]

shan, I am so so happy for you!

[chriskoo]

Loss Background (if you're comfortable)
Miscarried at 10 weeks in feb '15. Had a tough time with it because we saw the HB at our 8 week dating ultrasound so we thought everything was okay.


How far along are you (weeks/fruit):
5 weeks, 1 day


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Physically tired, lots of heartburn. Way more symptomatic this time, which makes me feel better emotionally because it feels so much different than last time (sorry if that makes no sense, this whole experience is a total mind f*** lol)


Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
Just got first betas back, which are looking good. My doc offered an early ultrasound but I haven't made the appointment yet. I want to wait a couple of weeks until there's a better chance of seeing the HB.


GTKY: what is your favorite food?
Oysters especially, but seafood in general

[txmommy14]

SO sorry! I am an idiot and didn't see this thread started, please ignore my other thread!! I feel so silly.

shan, amazing news! SO happy for you! What a relief.

[towncargirl]

Loss Background (if you're comfortable) miscarried #1 in 2013 at about 8 weeks had seen a heart beat around 6+5. Chemical pregnancy in July of this year.

How far along are you (weeks/fruit):7 weeks 4 days. Baby is measuring 7 + 5

How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Physically I'm super nauseous. Taking b6. Easily get headaches that turn into 2 day migraines. And sore huge boobs.
Emotionally. I'm a trainwreck. I'm so excited but so nervous again. But deep down ever since I tested I have had peace about this pregnancy so I am just praying this is our take Home baby.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
Appointment today went fantastic. Baby had a strong heartbeat. I started crying when I saw it. I graduated from my RE and I have to find a ob now. My last one was awful I will never go back there.


GTKY: what is your favorite food? Normally I have a huge sweet tooth but this little one is making me want nothing but savory foods. Lots of Italian food!

[txmommy14]

towncargirl, YAY for a great appointment and for seeing the heartbeat-so happy for you!

[towncargirl]

Oct 20, 2015 14:32:55 GMT -5 txmommy14 said:

towncargirl, YAY for a great appointment and for seeing the heartbeat-so happy for you!

Thanks! I'm over the moon but pgal brain keeps telling me to settle down anytime I feel the slightest twinge. I have a new appointment and ultrasound with a ob on November 9th!

[txmommy14]

towncargirl, I'm glad you got an appointment! I totally understand that, I'm feeling the same way. Relieved to see a heartbeat but also still nervous as I wait out the next few weeks to get more confirmation. Congrats again! Remember what happened in the past (seeing a hb and still miscarrying) does not mean it will happen again and your chances really do go down significantly after seeing a heartbeat! *Hugs*

[vivela]

Loss Background (if you're comfortable)
MMC in January 15, stopped growing around 5 weeks. Chemical pregnancy in August 15.


How far along are you (weeks/fruit):
6 weeks.


How are you feeling physically? Emotionally?
Tired, starving, nauseated, boobs hurt like hell.
Emotionally I am really up and down. Today was actually a very good day as my spotting was super light and I am letting myself believe it might stop. Yesterday I was sure everything was going to go wrong and I was curled up on the couch completely miserable.

Upcoming Appointments or Milestones:
Ultrasound next Thursday. I am trying not to think about it too much because it makes me nervous. I am not telling anyone besides DH and then only if it is good news. I prefer to keep it private if I have another loss. my family wasn't obvious about it, but I could see how much they were hurting on my behalf and that was really difficult for me.


GTKY: what is your favorite food? Pasta in many shapes and forms.