Hi... I'm a wreck... And I'm new...
Jan 28, 2015 19:21:33 GMT -5
Post by deannak317 on Jan 28, 2015 19:21:33 GMT -5
So I stumbled here from the bump... Hoping that all of the great folks that left, may be able to to give me some guidance or just understanding...
I'm tough as nails, this isn't me... I'm so lost, and there is so much going on around me, I just want to crawl in a hole or a cave and press the fast forward button...
I'm 38, my hubby is 36. We have been together 10 years, married for 7... We have been trying to get pregnant for 4 years... Hubby has low sperm count, plus low mobility and low morphology... We "thought" I was normal... Well who knows what normal is anyways... After discovering hubby's issues, we did 5 IUI's, 3 were medicated... No BFP.. Then fertility Dr did a scope and I had all kinds of stuff going on... He fixed me up and said he was confident we would get pregnant within a year. Well it was hard to believe that considering the RE, said that with my hubby's issues we would never get pregnant on our own... We finally begin to accept that we will not have children and the day before Christmas Eve, I find out I am pregnant! With my husbands birthday on Christmas Eve, we were over the moon... Like a fairy tale! It couldn't have been more perfect... Until last week, second ultrasound, no heartbeat... Baby measured 8 weeks, when it was 8 weeks +4... We are devastated...
I was on progesterone suppositories... I chose to miscarry naturally... I just started a brown discharge yesterday... I am hoping this process starts soon... Any advice or information... Anything, I feel lost... Like it was a sick joke...
My Mother had back surgery yesterday and is recovering here at my house... I feel so angry and am trying to do my best to take care of her.... I feel so selfish... And emotional... You never know how badly you want something until it is taken away from you....
I'm tough as nails, this isn't me... I'm so lost, and there is so much going on around me, I just want to crawl in a hole or a cave and press the fast forward button...
I'm 38, my hubby is 36. We have been together 10 years, married for 7... We have been trying to get pregnant for 4 years... Hubby has low sperm count, plus low mobility and low morphology... We "thought" I was normal... Well who knows what normal is anyways... After discovering hubby's issues, we did 5 IUI's, 3 were medicated... No BFP.. Then fertility Dr did a scope and I had all kinds of stuff going on... He fixed me up and said he was confident we would get pregnant within a year. Well it was hard to believe that considering the RE, said that with my hubby's issues we would never get pregnant on our own... We finally begin to accept that we will not have children and the day before Christmas Eve, I find out I am pregnant! With my husbands birthday on Christmas Eve, we were over the moon... Like a fairy tale! It couldn't have been more perfect... Until last week, second ultrasound, no heartbeat... Baby measured 8 weeks, when it was 8 weeks +4... We are devastated...
I was on progesterone suppositories... I chose to miscarry naturally... I just started a brown discharge yesterday... I am hoping this process starts soon... Any advice or information... Anything, I feel lost... Like it was a sick joke...
My Mother had back surgery yesterday and is recovering here at my house... I feel so angry and am trying to do my best to take care of her.... I feel so selfish... And emotional... You never know how badly you want something until it is taken away from you....