Mama Check In!
Oct 23, 2015 18:08:59 GMT -5
Post by katie0919 on Oct 23, 2015 18:08:59 GMT -5
@tmg14 & somesay, I'm having the same problems/feelings over here. We kept DS home from daycare this week, and DH is off too and it just hasn't gone to plan - like I should be surprised. The problem is, poor DS is almost 4 and has a TON of energy so he wants to play and do stuff, but I'm stuck nursing DS2 most of the day so DH has been entertaining DS1 and just hasn't had any time with DS2. I hate to say I'm right, but we should have sent DS1 to daycare this week and just had the time be all about H and I bonding with DS1. IDK....this is not as hard as I thought it would be bringing a second child home, however, it's still hard just in a different way.
I'm feeling horribly guilty that I am sort of disconnected from DS1 now....I have this little sweet baby that does not wrong, then I have DS that is crazy and wild and sassy and - well, almost 4. So that's how that's going. He was my one and only for 3 years and 10 months and I just can't believe how quick there is that disconnect. I feel awful and am doing my best to stay connected to him but it's hard when I had a csection also and just can't pick him up or do anything to keep up the affection.
Blah, sorry that was long winded. I am just full of emotions. I cry almost every night, guess that's hormones/baby blues and I'm already terrified I will end up in a deep dark postpartum depression like I did with DS1....that was the darkest time in my life and I don't want to go there again!
I'm feeling horribly guilty that I am sort of disconnected from DS1 now....I have this little sweet baby that does not wrong, then I have DS that is crazy and wild and sassy and - well, almost 4. So that's how that's going. He was my one and only for 3 years and 10 months and I just can't believe how quick there is that disconnect. I feel awful and am doing my best to stay connected to him but it's hard when I had a csection also and just can't pick him up or do anything to keep up the affection.
Blah, sorry that was long winded. I am just full of emotions. I cry almost every night, guess that's hormones/baby blues and I'm already terrified I will end up in a deep dark postpartum depression like I did with DS1....that was the darkest time in my life and I don't want to go there again!