the hardest thing I've learned so far...

[lbey]

The hardest thing I learned about this adoption process so far is reading the reports regarding my child. So many things happened while she was with BM and first foster home it breaks my heart and I was not there to protect her from all those people...and I cant change her past...that is part of her and will be forever...

I feel literally sick right now and I cant understand how some people are able to become fosters or get approved to adopt.

[jwinct]

It's really heart-breaking what these poor kids go through at the hands of people who are supposed to care for and protect them. It makes me so angry. I can only imagine how you're feeling reading those reports. ((hugs))

It must bring you some peace to know that you will love her and protect her and ensure that she never has to endure such things ever again.

[akafred]

Hang in there. Her past won't change but her future is.

[lizblue]

((Hugs)) there are no words to make the past better but your loving and safe home will change everything.

[ottertails]

I'm new around here, so my apologies if I'm posting wrong or if I'm in a section where I shouldn't be posting. Most adoption posts aren't ones I can directly relate to because it involves bio parents that willingly gave them up, but yours is one that hits close to home.

You may never get over the hurt you feel when you think back to what was done to your child, at least my parents never did. However, when you watch the child blossom you can smile knowing how they've gotten through hard times. Your child is a fighter. I won't deny that it hurts knowing the truth about one's background when there's abuse, but for me it just made me love my parents that much more since they gave me a wonderful home. I wish you a lot of luck!