So I'm sitting here thinking about this Christmas and looking forward to sharing Christmas fun and traditions with V, then I started thinking back to last Christmas.
This time last year I was stressing out about leaving work and imagining the mess that it would be. I was also in denial that I would actually have a baby and that I would actually be a mom. And freaked out about every little unknown.
I was so worried I would lose my husband by having a child, but we really have grown closer trying to figure this parenting thing out. I know that it will be harder and there are rough times ahead. But I am more confident now that we will deal with it all together.
Post by hollydfromtn on Dec 11, 2015 22:25:17 GMT -5
This time last year we were still living with my ILs and I was freaking out about not getting our rental house renovated in time before S arrived. Luckily DH busted his ass and got is in with just a couple of weeks to spare. It's crazy how much has changed this year.
Post by lilyelayne on Dec 12, 2015 10:02:20 GMT -5
I was not in the Christmas spirit at all last year. We didn't even put up a tree. I spent most evenings after work throwing up or trying to sleep.
I loved how pregnant I was. I loved how much I could feel DS move. I loved letting other people feel him move. I'd had my baby shower on Dec7 so I was working on the nursery, which was fun!
this weekend in particular is really hard. A year ago yesterday I was packing to go to Arkansas to see Garth brooks with my childhood BFF. She had her 20 week appointment, and called me in the evening to let me know her BP was through the roof & her son had passed. A year ago today they admitted her to the hospital & induced. Her BP was so high she was at significant risk for a stroke. I couldn't go be with her because I was huge & pregnant & we just ... neither of us could handle that ... visual and physical reminder. Tomorrow is her son's birthday. I think about him often, since we thought he and DS would get to grow up together, but even more so as his birthday approaches. I'm thankful my friend is ok and her sweet girl is thriving in the NICU, but it's all so hard.
Sorry to be a Debbie downer. I'll probably change my mind and delete this later, but that's what's going on with me.
Last Christmas I was happy to eat all the food and not care lol. Also my DD1'S birthday is 12/20 so my winters are always crazy but fun. So excited that DD2 will kind of know what's going on for her first Christmas bc I didn't get that with DD1. She was a surprise before Christmas birth so she was a whole 4 days on Xmas eve (she was due Jan 7th).
On the sad side another loss trigger for me:
I had a miscarriage two years ago, like three days before Christmas. So that also is always on my mind around this time I guess my Christmases have been either really happy or really sad for the last 4 years...
Yeah last Christmas was really tough for me. My parents came to visit and that is when mom's disease really became apparent. It was incredibly hard to watch and I also knew that she would go home and wouldn't be well enough to come back when DD was born. Yet we were both trying to be brave for one another. So this year so much is different and all of it is for the better.
Hugs to those dealing with losses and other difficult memories!
I'm trying to recall last year but I'm having a struggle. Usual stuff I guess. Dealing with an almost 2 year old at the time and enjoying the holidays.
Post by modernfairytale8709 on Dec 14, 2015 13:38:25 GMT -5
Last Christmas I was so full of hope and excitement. I loved being pregnant and I just new I was going to be the best mom and have the best baby.
This Christmas me wants to go back and punch last Christmas me in the face. It's been a hell of a year.
dreemkin, I'm so sorry for your loss. It sucks that Christmas is tainted for you
On a positive note, I'm really looking forward to this Christmas. LO is already trying to rip into the presents under the tree. My family has gone bananas buying her all the things.
Last Christmas I was whining about how busy we were and I couldn't wait to be off with LO this year. I was going to have "so much more time to get stuff done". I also said I wasn't going to buy her anything since she wouldn't know the difference. I would just wrap up stuff we already had if need be.
modernfairytale8709 I think a lot of first time moms feel like that when expecting. Geez, look at the hallmark commercials alone. But then reality happens. I'm sure you've done a fine job this year. I mean we get to have all us cool Internet mom friends to see us through. You should enjoy the memories even if they aren't perfect (you should have read about our Christmas tree shopping this year...we have some funny memories bc of it though). ((Hugs))
Post by WittyLittle on Dec 16, 2015 5:49:41 GMT -5
This time last year i was in and out of hospital because DS had reduced movement and wasn't growing as much as we would like. I remember how nice the hospital staff were and how they arranged for me to be monitored near my parents' place so I could go home for xmas
Things are a bit different this xmas ! Also been in hospital more than I would like, but hopefully going to Greece on Sunday with my awesome little family. I couldn't imagine 1 year ago how complete this little guy could make me. And how thankful we would bd amidst other struggles that we do have him
Thanks that was a lot more downer than I meant to be. Last Christmas and all that happened was a shock, but really reflecting back on it I am just in awe of how much things have changed since then. I wouldn't have said I was sad last Christmas, glimmers of fear here and there some moments of sadness but really it was still good.
My family apparently is good at finding the joy in situations.
Last Christmas I was whining about how busy we were and I couldn't wait to be off with LO this year. I was going to have "so much more time to get stuff done". I also said I wasn't going to buy her anything since she wouldn't know the difference. I would just wrap up stuff we already had if need be.
I was so delusional.
LOL its funny how they change our plans from the moment we conceive them!
The np presents cracked me up because we too have a few gifts for DD and didn't plan on it. For me some of it was establishing us as Santa since we are at the ILs and I fear them over running it, but she is still getting Santa gifts. But I mean really Christmas is more fun when you are Santa
Last Christmas I was whining about how busy we were and I couldn't wait to be off with LO this year. I was going to have "so much more time to get stuff done". I also said I wasn't going to buy her anything since she wouldn't know the difference. I would just wrap up stuff we already had if need be.
I was so delusional.
LOL its funny how they change our plans from the moment we conceive them!
The np presents cracked me up because we too have a few gifts for DD and didn't plan on it. For me some of it was establishing us as Santa since we are at the ILs and I fear them over running it, but she is still getting Santa gifts. But I mean really Christmas is more fun when you are Santa
We are only getting two presents for V since he will be spoiled by the rest of our families, but one is a set of blocks that we made for him. I was going to hand sand some of them the other night, but then I was all like, well these will be from Santa, so he can't see them before Christmas. You know, cause it'll ruin the surprise for my ten month old.
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