** After almost 3 years on GKU, I'm graduating to Aug '16 **
Dec 17, 2015 10:07:03 GMT -5
Post by joy on Dec 17, 2015 10:07:03 GMT -5
I'm sorry - I loaaaaaaaaaaaaathe abbreviations so I refused to put one in the title. Instead, I made the title really obvious. I hope that doesn't upset anyone.
Lots of words ahead... there's a tl;dr at the end, though. Ha.
Let me just say that I've been a barrel of nervous monkeys since Friday. I suspected on Friday that things were different, but I was also like "There's no way." However, I turned a test positive on Saturday (undeniably) and then again on Monday. I got my first beta on Monday (67) and my second beta yesterday (137). I have one more beta on Friday. And then, we wait until 6.5 weeks when I have an ultrasound to see the gestational sac and (hopefully) a heartbeat. Since we're going out of town after Christmas, this magical ultrasound will occur on January 3rd-ish.
I'm not sure I can fully explain to you guys how much I had mentally moved on to IVF. 27 cycles of nothing basically told me to hope for nothing. Last week, I was organizing my IVF questions for our consultation on Wednesday. I feel very blind-sided. Assuming my last beta comes back good, then I'm cancelling that appointment because, well, I'm fucking pregnant today. Never, never in a million years did I think this last, formality of an IUI was going to work. Of course, I am also realistic: miscarriage concerns are in the back of my mind. I'm mostly focusing on taking everything one step at a time, though. Next up: betas tomorrow!
I joined GKU before my husband and I ever started trying. I understood temping and wanted to help. Then we tried for 1.5 years, saw an RE, tried for about six more cycles on our own, then did five cycles of treatment (4 cycles with Clomid, 3 cycles with IUI). I can't even describe how surreal my life feels right now.
There are downsides, which is why I haven't posted before now. I'm having some really intense and horrible anxiety about enduring first trimester. I always knew that I would, but it's easy to be brave when you aren't staring fears in the face. Once I got a positive test, I couldn't sleep for days. I think the next few months for me are going to be hard emotionally. But, I have an amazing husband who is thrilled to pieces about this news and is ready to be supportive in any way possible. Seriously - he's the best of the best. I love him more than I could ever explain.
** Here's the info that's supposed to be in one of these posts **
I had to look at Rama's to remember what the pieces were.
Cycle/Month: 27 / I have no fucking idea
CD/DPO: currently? CD29/17DPO; when I got the positive? CD24/12DPO
EDD: August 22nd, 2016
What we did: Clomid 50 mg (CD4-8) + ovidrel (CD10) + IUI on CD12
Symptoms: only minor things that I probably would not attribute to pregnancy if I wasn't trying to get pregnant
How I told DH: I went to his office on Saturday in full panic mode. He took one look at me and asked what in the world was wrong. I said "I bet you can figure it out." Haha. We all know I'm not one for cutesy reveals - I aim for blunt and panicked.
The mushy stuff: I love you guys. Through and through, I love you guys. To all the old regs and new: Thank you for teaching me everything you know, answering my questions, hugging me when I was sad, laughing when I posted something only sorta funny, and being here. We all make this place is awesome, special, and full of the best information regarding getting pregnant.
^^ posted with imgur because I can internet sorta ^^
tl;dr - I'm pregnant, scared, and love this board.
Lots of words ahead... there's a tl;dr at the end, though. Ha.
Let me just say that I've been a barrel of nervous monkeys since Friday. I suspected on Friday that things were different, but I was also like "There's no way." However, I turned a test positive on Saturday (undeniably) and then again on Monday. I got my first beta on Monday (67) and my second beta yesterday (137). I have one more beta on Friday. And then, we wait until 6.5 weeks when I have an ultrasound to see the gestational sac and (hopefully) a heartbeat. Since we're going out of town after Christmas, this magical ultrasound will occur on January 3rd-ish.
I'm not sure I can fully explain to you guys how much I had mentally moved on to IVF. 27 cycles of nothing basically told me to hope for nothing. Last week, I was organizing my IVF questions for our consultation on Wednesday. I feel very blind-sided. Assuming my last beta comes back good, then I'm cancelling that appointment because, well, I'm fucking pregnant today. Never, never in a million years did I think this last, formality of an IUI was going to work. Of course, I am also realistic: miscarriage concerns are in the back of my mind. I'm mostly focusing on taking everything one step at a time, though. Next up: betas tomorrow!
I joined GKU before my husband and I ever started trying. I understood temping and wanted to help. Then we tried for 1.5 years, saw an RE, tried for about six more cycles on our own, then did five cycles of treatment (4 cycles with Clomid, 3 cycles with IUI). I can't even describe how surreal my life feels right now.
There are downsides, which is why I haven't posted before now. I'm having some really intense and horrible anxiety about enduring first trimester. I always knew that I would, but it's easy to be brave when you aren't staring fears in the face. Once I got a positive test, I couldn't sleep for days. I think the next few months for me are going to be hard emotionally. But, I have an amazing husband who is thrilled to pieces about this news and is ready to be supportive in any way possible. Seriously - he's the best of the best. I love him more than I could ever explain.
** Here's the info that's supposed to be in one of these posts **
I had to look at Rama's to remember what the pieces were.
Cycle/Month: 27 / I have no fucking idea
CD/DPO: currently? CD29/17DPO; when I got the positive? CD24/12DPO
EDD: August 22nd, 2016
What we did: Clomid 50 mg (CD4-8) + ovidrel (CD10) + IUI on CD12
Symptoms: only minor things that I probably would not attribute to pregnancy if I wasn't trying to get pregnant
How I told DH: I went to his office on Saturday in full panic mode. He took one look at me and asked what in the world was wrong. I said "I bet you can figure it out." Haha. We all know I'm not one for cutesy reveals - I aim for blunt and panicked.
The mushy stuff: I love you guys. Through and through, I love you guys. To all the old regs and new: Thank you for teaching me everything you know, answering my questions, hugging me when I was sad, laughing when I posted something only sorta funny, and being here. We all make this place is awesome, special, and full of the best information regarding getting pregnant.
^^ posted with imgur because I can internet sorta ^^
tl;dr - I'm pregnant, scared, and love this board.
I hope that anxiety doesn't get you too down, I was super anxious during my first tri. It can be rough. I hope you have the happiest and healthiest 9 months ever. 
