PGAL Check-In: 12/21

[txmommy14]

I don't think we've had one of these in almost a month.

How is everyone doing? How is your anxiety? Any big loss milestones coming up? Looks like we're all almost in the 2nd tri, so hurray for that!

[txmommy14]

I'm doing pretty good. I still have my moments. I'm going to borrow a doppler from my SIL this week. I didn't want to borrow any earlier because I knew it'd make me crazy if it was hard to find, but hopefully at almost 17 weeks I'll be able to find the HB. My anatomy scan is on January 7th, so I'm sure I'll start getting nervous about that in a week or two. I think feeling movement (or what I am sure is the baby moving) will help. Next month is my EDD, so I am sure that will be emotional, but I'm hoping I'll have good news from the anatomy scan to get me through it.

[littleducky]

I'm doing pretty well. My OB has been super nice about accommodating my PgAL brain. I've been going in about every two weeks instead of every four weeks so that she can check with the little mini ultrasound machine. After things looked good last Friday at 12w3d, we decided to tell people this past weekend. We told DS yesterday and then had him facetime his grandparents and aunts/uncles to tell them. We still need to reach DH's grandfather, so we will probably facetime him tonight. I told my coworkers today.

Going public is kind of freaking me out though. It sort of feels like I am jinxing it. It doesn't help that for my last pregnancy, my MMC was discovered on 12/22/14 and then I had a D&C on 12/23, so I am right at those anniversary dates. Still, I'm trying to focus on the positive and I feel a lot better knowing that there was a heartbeat at 12w3d and that the NT scan looked good and that my risk for trisomies came back low.

I see the OB again on Jan. 5 at 15 weeks. I'll probably keep going every two weeks or so until I am reliably feeling movement. Not sure when that will happen - probably not until around 20 weeks or so.

[babyzebra]

I'm doing alright. Some days I'm really positive and hopeful and other days I feel an overwhelming sense of doom. Most days are good though. I've passed my loss milestones and I think I'm officially in second tri today. I'm still freaked out about telling people though. I don't know why, but it just makes me nervous. I hope all you ladies are doing well!

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[soultrane]

Thanks for posting this today txmommy14. After yesterday and this morning, I was thinking that we really needed a check-in here.

I was doing okay until the spotting yesterday and today, but I'm definitely feeling better after my appt today and I absolutely adore my OBs office for being so accommodating. I will admit though that I'm kind of bitter about the whole thing because why can't anything be effing easy? I hate having the "why me" attitude, but it's kind of hard to shake it after such a shitty year.

Anyway, just venting and thankful that things are still looking positive!

[vivela]

Hi ladies, I was just thinking that it had been a long time since we had one of these!
I'm doing pretty well. No spotting for awhile and using my doppler about once a week keeps the PGAL brain quiet. I do get that weird sense that I'm going to jinx it somehow by feeling confident. After the Christmas break I'll be almost 17 weeks, so at that point I'm going to stop hiding the bump so much and let my students start getting suspicious. Chances are I can't get much past 17 weeks without them figuring it out, but I'll wait as long as I can. Letting them know will be a big milestone, for obvious reasons.
txmommy14, Good luck with your doppler! It took me awhile to get the hang of it, but once I figured out how to find the heartbeat and what I was listening for, it was easier to find each time.
littleducky, *hugs* sorry you are approaching your loss date, those are always hard. Glad to hear your testing went well.
babyzebra, Congrats on being in second tri! It is definitely a good feeling.

[txmommy14]

Dec 21, 2015 18:49:25 GMT -5 soultrane said:

Thanks for posting this today txmommy14. After yesterday and this morning, I was thinking that we really needed a check-in here.

I was doing okay until the spotting yesterday and today, but I'm definitely feeling better after my appt today and I absolutely adore my OBs office for being so accommodating. I will admit though that I'm kind of bitter about the whole thing because why can't anything be effing easy? I hate having the "why me" attitude, but it's kind of hard to shake it after such a shitty year.

Anyway, just venting and thankful that things are still looking positive!

I'm so sorry! I would feel the exact same way. That's how I felt with all the bleeding of the beginning of the pregnancy… So frustrating. I'm glad everything is looking OK, has the bleeding stopped?

[soultrane]

Dec 21, 2015 19:12:00 GMT -5 txmommy14 said:

Dec 21, 2015 18:49:25 GMT -5 soultrane said:

Thanks for posting this today txmommy14 . After yesterday and this morning, I was thinking that we really needed a check-in here.

I was doing okay until the spotting yesterday and today, but I'm definitely feeling better after my appt today and I absolutely adore my OBs office for being so accommodating. I will admit though that I'm kind of bitter about the whole thing because why can't anything be effing easy? I hate having the "why me" attitude, but it's kind of hard to shake it after such a shitty year.

Anyway, just venting and thankful that things are still looking positive!

I'm so sorry! I would feel the exact same way. That's how I felt with all the bleeding of the beginning of the pregnancy… So frustrating. I'm glad everything is looking OK, has the bleeding stopped?

Thank you! I haven't had any bleeding since this morning but after an internal u/s and a pelvic exam, I'm kind of crampy tonight and expecting some more spotting tomorrow. I really do feel so much better after my appt, but damn it's hard to really let myself be confident in this pregnancy. 

[shan]

I'm feeling a lot better. I use my Doppler 2-3 times a week and find her quickly every time. I haven't seen the doc since 12 weeks, and I'll be 16 weeks on Wednesday.

My EDD of the baby I lost is in early February. I'm trying to decide if i want to take off that day from work.

[virginiaorjohn]

Thanks for starting this! I thought about it a few times but was too lazy to look up when our last PGAL checkin was, haha.
littleducky that's wonderful that your OB is so awesome about two week visits!
txmommy14 I always get nervous before my appointments, too.
babyzebra we haven't told any people either. I am glad most days are good for you!

AFM... I am doing okay. The most I've had to wait between appointments so far has been 15 days because of timing, until now... Now I am in a 4 week wait, so we'll see how I get through that. I am not worried from day to day really, but I do still get really anxious right before my appointments. I'm past my loss milestone by almost 3 weeks so that gives me some confidence, but we still haven't gone public. We're planning to tell DH's family on Christmas Eve (13.5 weeks) but we'll wait to tell my extended family and friends, etc., until probably mid-January around 16 weeks. DH and I have also talked about when to start the nursery -- we both feel most comfortable with picking out things and having registry items ready to go, but not actually buying anything or registering until viability at 24 weeks. Even though our Maternit21 results came back negative, some days I can't shake the feeling that something will go wrong. Especially with this new PAPP-A thing even if my OB seems to think it's no big deal.
soultrane I absolutely get that "why me" feeling... Like, I worked really hard for this, why can't everything just be fine?

[pbandj714]

I'm doing well most of the time, although the doubt creeps in every now and then. I'm still debating on whether I should buy a doppler. I'd love to be able to reassure myself with it but then I fear it causing more unnecessary worry. It's fun getting to be excited about this pregnancy but I do still worry about jinxing it or it being too good to be true. My next appointment is not until January, so I'm trying to be patient. It will only be doppler (unless they can't find HBs), so it will be different with not getting to see the babies again for awhile.

shan, my EDD for my loss is coming up on 2/2. I scheduled to have that day and the next day off before I was pregnant again. I'm leaving it that way. As of right now, I think I'll be okay for the most part but it's hard to know for sure. I'm really hoping to be okay and be able to use those days to reflect on the baby that isn't with us but also prepare for the babies that will be with us in June.