TTC Check-In (Dec 21)

[rikkiandjulie]

How's it going for everyone?

QOTW: What is your biggest struggle with TTC? What is the hardest for you?

[rikkiandjulie]

CP last cycle, it's strange how I feel about it. I'm happy to know the sperm can meet the egg, but I wonder if I did something wrong during the TWW that caused it to not attach. I am deathly scared I won't see another BFP for a long time, it took so long to see two lines already between DW and I.

I've started Letrazole to lengthen my LP, it keeps me awake at night and causes headaches. Not fun. I also just feel warm all the time. I'm hoping it's make a few nice eggs though, AND lengthens my LP.

We have one vial left, and finally agreed on a new donor. DW is sooooo not interested in donors. She has no preference at all, she'll make comments like "He sounds geeky" "He seems athletic" but that is all, she has said that it makes her feel weird and like she is playing god, so I narrowed it down to two, and her pick one out of the hat. She drew the one I was leaning towards more.

The new sperm bank has quotes from our RE all over their website, so that's kinda cool, they aren't even remotely close.

During TTC I struggle with remembering that it WILL happen, and that so much of it is not in my control. I struggle to stay positive and not compare myself to all the others who got pregnant faster.

[kekaellypula]

CD1 should be here tomorrow. Longer than expected. My foot doctor prescribed some anti inflammatories I have to start taking so I'm waiting to find out if they will cause this cycle to be a bust. Kass goes back sooner than the IUI but at least she will be here to stick me with needles!

[JustJudy]

Waiting for CD1 which should be happening on NYE. Happy 2016!
It's been nice having two months off, but I'm ready to get going again. I'm really hoping my cyst is gone or smaller so we can go forward with our plan for high doses of Femara this round.

QOTW: the hardest part for me is absolutely the waiting. Waiting to ovulate, waiting for CD1 or a BFP, waiting for cysts to go away, waiting for Progesterone test results, waiting for all the other test results. So much waiting!

[dannigirl]

Nothing really happening here.
Waiting on CD1 which should be 31 Dec.
Cant wait till our next IUI while Jo is home for the 2 weeks.
Taking my prenatal vitamins but switched it up to ones with DHA and I'm also taking some extra vitamin D on the side. Hopefully that will help? No clue....
I really wanted to lose some more of the weight that I gained from the first pregnancy... But I'm still struggling with the last 10lbs... Ugh

[JustJudy]

Dec 21, 2015 22:18:04 GMT -5 dannigirl said:

Nothing really happening here.
Waiting on CD1 which should be 31 Dec.
Cant wait till our next IUI while Jo is home for the 2 weeks.
Taking my prenatal vitamins but switched it up to ones with DHA and I'm also taking some extra vitamin D on the side. Hopefully that will help? No clue....
I really wanted to lose some more of the weight that I gained from the first pregnancy... But I'm still struggling with the last 10lbs... Ugh

Looks like we'll be cycling at the same time. GL to you!

[klake42]

I'm on BCPs, getting ready to start stimming for IVF on 12/31.

I agree that waiting is the worst part. And finding a way to keep the constant disappointment from depressing me.

rikkiandjulie, I am so sorry for the loss you experienced with the CP. I hope you don't blame yourself for doing something wrong-- the vast majority of the time, this sort of thing is out of your control. But so many things went right to get to that point (sperm meeting egg, etc.), I think it's reasonable to be hopeful.

[firstcomeslove2013]

Hey y'all!

CD 1 was yesterday. I get bloodwork Monday and a baseline ultrasound will follow as soon as it is scheduled. It's becoming really real and that feels scary but also exciting.

I freaked out in my brain the other day. One minute I was thinking "this is crazy, we aren't ready." Then "I didn't get pregnant before, what makes me think I'll get pregnant now" then "OMG we're going to end up with twins and then we won't have enough room for the twins, H, and our nieces in the car" SIGH...infertility/irrational thinking is a total mind f$@k sometimes.

QOTW: I think my biggest struggle is the infertility stream of thinking. It sucks! Also, H just turned a year old and I am SURE people will have their opinions. It's hard to defend your choices when it's not an accident and people KNOW it wasn't an accident. We've always said we wanted our kids pretty close together but sometimes it's hard to justify that to other people.