• PAIF/PgAL check-in 12.29.2015 •

[agpjt413]

I was initially going to post this after the new year since several ladies expressed that the holiday season may be a little busy, possibly leaving the board a little slow. But seeing how busy our BMB has been, thought I'd go ahead and post the first check-in today

Hello and welcome to the PAIF/PgAL check-in. This place is for those of us who have experienced various struggles TTC and/or have had previous loss(es). Use this space to ask questions, share your excitement/rage, or ask/give support! Feel free to jump in anytime!

Links to PAIF & PgAL mantras -->

www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/57254/welcome-paif-read-before-posting

www.goodbyecb.proboards.com/thread/1034/pgal-mantras

How far along are you?

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)?

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask?

Any upcoming milestones or appointments?

QOTW: Do you have any NYE plans?

[bocaburger]

Thanks for getting this started!

How far along are you? 5w5d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Pretty good so far. H is worrying a lot more than I am. He wants updates on how I'm feeling ALL THE TIME. I think I've actually stayed calmer and more hopeful for his sake.

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask? Should we make this check-in a litte more formal and have a list of who's on it and what treatments etc we've been through so we know where each person is coming from?

Any upcoming milestones or appointments? Ultrasound at 7 weeks. I am excited but sooo terrified that we'll find out something is wrong.

QOTW: Do you have any NYE plans? We'll be at my SIL's for a pretty low-key NYE.

[gratefulgirl]

Thanks for the check-in. I feel like I should introduce myself a bit. I have 2 DDs, and in between them had an mm/c that was lost at 5 weeks, discovered at 6, and completed at 9 followed by 2 CPs.

How far along are you? 6w3d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Still nauseous through the Unisom+B6, but not puking at least. Tired. Really hoping for a u/s for reassurance because even though everything seems to be going well I'd like to see a heartbeat.

Any upcoming milestones or appointments? Intake tomorrow - it's just visiting with a nurse and getting some basic bloodwork. I am NOT looking forward to sitting at the lab.

QOTW: Do you have any NYE plans? May do our Christmas gift exchange with my parents. I doubt anyone in our house is planning on staying up. I'd like to start some sort of tradition with the girls, but I don't know what.

[redhead610]

Dec 29, 2015 9:57:39 GMT -5 agpjt413 said:

How far along: 8 ish weeks. I was measuring 5w6d at my 1st ultrasound (by lmp I was 6w4d). Tomorrow I have another appt, which is exactly 2 weeks after the first one.

How are you feeling: nauseated  all the time and quite tired. Emotionally a wreck. I had zero signs of Mc with my mmc, so I am just always worried. With my mmc, I had 2 good ultrasounds with heartbeats prior to discovering my loss at the NT scan, so I know I still have at least 4 more weeks of hard core emotions and worry. And even then I am sure I'll still be concerned.

Rants: I figured being pgal would be hard, but I had no idea how hard.  I am always worrying. And, I am still struggling with others in my life announcing pregnancies (so many recently). I thought that would go away now that I am pregnant too, but it just reminds me that I should be almost 8 months pregnant.

Appts: tomorrow, with an ultrasound.

NYE: no plans. Staying home. Will put DS to bed and then maybe watch a movie? We can never stay up until midnight, so I imagine us falling asleep early as usual.

[coffeequeen14]

How far along are you? 6w4d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Nausea is kicking my butt as is the insomnia but thankfully slept a full night last night. Emotionally, I honestly haven't let myself think this baby is real, if that makes sense. I know I'm pregnant and am thrilled but I don't go beyond today I am pregnant and tomorrow I will probably still be pregnant.

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask? DH can't stop telling people I'm pregnant. I'm really irritated about it. He asked today if I've told my boss. I said no, I'm waiting until 16 weeks. He asked why, and I said because that's when I will feel a bit safer. It didn't hit him until then. He was deployed when we had our 16 week loss so it doesn't really affect him very much since he didn't experience it so much.

Any upcoming milestones or appointments? US at 8 weeks. I am excited and think it will make me feel better (past other loss milestones) but I know ultimately nothing will until the anatomy scan.

QOTW: Do you have any NYE plans? sleeping:)

[thepax89]

How far along are you? 7 + 3.

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Physically, my symptoms are bearable. They come and go. Emotionally, just trying to stay positive after a less than amazing scan yesterday.

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask? My husband cannot come to my next scan. I'm terrified to go alone, because there are very decent odds that this will be a horrible scan.

Any upcoming milestones or appointments? Another scan on Monday. This one will decide a lot.

QOTW: Do you have any NYE plans? Go to sleep at 9.

[hrushka]

I'm so glad you got this started - thanks!

How far along are you? 7w6d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Physically I'm nauseous almost all the time, and rarely feel like eating or cooking. Emotionally, I'm doing surprisingly well (and by that, I mean I'm much less of a basket case than I expected). I think since we've already surpassed our previous loss milestones, I'm feeling more like this could actually be a normal pregnancy. But after four losses and over three years of TTC, PAIF/PgAL brain is definitely not going away that easily.

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask? I have to wait three weeks between u/s with my RE - I'm so jealous of you ladies who get weekly u/s with your RE. My practice is so effing busy that it's near impossible to get in when you want to. I know a lot of you will be sad to leave your RE, but I'll be saying good riddance to mine.

Any upcoming milestones or appointments? My first OB appt is 1/6, but I think I'm going to push it back a week since my next u/s with my RE isn't until 1/12. The OB appt is just an hour with the NP, going over all the do's and don'ts I'm sure, getting a pap, etc. So I'd rather know for sure that our little bean is still thriving before going to that long, unproductive appt.

QOTW: We're hosting a NYE dinner with DH's Russian friends. It will be about 10 adults and 6 kids. And so much vodka. Plus we have an out-of-town friend staying with us starting tomorrow. Oy. I'm already feeling overwhelmed by it. I just don't have the energy to clean the house, and just the thought of prepping all the food makes me feel pukey. Thankfully, someone else is making the much-loved herring/mayo/onion/beet salad. I can barely stomach making that one when I'm not KU!

[NariaDreaming]

How far along are you? 7w6d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Physically I have a cold/congestion and I'm exhausted. Emotionally I'm terrified for our next ultrasound. I still can't believe I will have a take home baby after all of this.

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask?

Any upcoming milestones or appointments? Ultrasound on 1/4. And 8 weeks tomorrow. This is officially the most pregnant I've ever been

[hrushka]

bocaburger, I agree that it would be nice to have a roster and make this check-in more formal. agpjt413, are you up for that? Or we could take turns posting ...

[katelm]

8w3d

Nauseous, dizzy, tired, sick with a cold (?) although only symptom is sore throat. Strep test yesterday was negative

I had my last RE ultrasound yesterday and it went well. Heartbeat is up to 166bpm & it measured perfectly on track.

Next apt is with the OB at 10w4d. I'm so terrified the heartbeat will be gone by then or the NT scan. Gulp

[gratefulgirl]

Dec 29, 2015 11:19:09 GMT -5 hrushka said:

bocaburger , I agree that it would be nice to have a roster and make this check-in more formal. agpjt413 , are you up for that? Or we could take turns posting ...

I have no problem with this, but I remember one of the big things people wanted was a check in that anyone could post. If we're tagging people in a list that makes it harder for anyone to post it, especially if we do something like weekly updates in the tagged list (which was how the last PgAL check in I was part of worked).

[twinkie0612]

How far along are you? 8w5d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Physically I have very few pregnancy symptoms, but have been dealing with a SCH. Emotionally I just take things one day at a time. Luckily, I have had weekly (sometimes more often) u/s, which have helped to ease my PAIF brain.

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask? Nope

Any upcoming milestones or appointments? My first OB appointment is Tuesday and I plan on telling my boss and coworker's on Monday. I had planned on waiting longer but my company is going through a buyout and they will be making benefit decisions mid January. I want to make sure I don't get screwed.

QOTW: Do you have any NYE plans? We usually go to my parents house for a low key NYE. DH doesn't like being on the roads on NYE and my parents only live a few minutes RE's from our house.

[elebishi]

Thanks for the check-in!

How far along are you? 6w4d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? I'm feeling pretty gross. No nausea really, but no appetite and an overall icky feeling. Reassuring though, I guess.

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask? I spilled the beans about the pregnancy to my best friend last night. She knows about our loss and is so great. Still... Cue instant panic.

Any upcoming milestones or appointments? I started spotting at 6w6d with my loss. So that's coming up here in a few days. I'll be happy to have that behind me. Otherwise, ultrasound on 1/6 for viability check. I'm so freakin' nervous. I never had an ultrasound this early with my healthy pregnancies though, so if all is well, I think it will be fun to see my baby so early.

QOTW: Do you have any NYE plans? Night out with DH. I can't wait.

[agpjt413]

Hey ladies! Sorry for the P&R - MH and I are busy at our rental doing some finishing touches b/c our renters are moving in Friday! I'll be back later to LT, comment and answer questions.

As far as the check-in goes - I'm game for anything! Will be back soon - have a great day mamas!!

[dc2london]

I am 8w1d gone.
I am feeling ok physically. Tired, sick, dragging arse, but that's just 1st tri doing its job. If I weren't feeling that way, I would be ebmven more nervous than I am.

Raves: my H is being so great. Helpful about the house, shooing me up to bed while he gets the kids bathed and tucked in, indulging all of my weird cravings. He's a keeper.
Rants: i haaaaaaate pgal brain. I am angry that fear is preventing me enjoying the beginning of what is hopefully my last pregnancy, and casting a shadow over the holidays. It's so bloody unfair. And I wish I could just go get an u/s.

Milestones: we discovered my MMC at 8w3d, which is Thursday, so I will be over here breathing into a paper bag until my u/s on Monday (at 9w).

NYE plans: my IL's will be here, and I imagine my BIL and his pregnant wife will come over, so it will probably be a very quiet abd tame NYE. I plan to excuse myself to bed early, hide in my bed with a glass of sparkling grape juice and watch 1D perform on NYRE

[dc2london]

opheliainwaders I totally hear you. My loss was at 6w4d, discovered at 8w3d, and D&C wasn't until 10w. I had enough HcG in my system to have full blown symptoms that entire time. Not only did it add insult to injury at the time, the memory prevents me from taking much comfort in pregnancy symptoms.

[dc2london]

Having to go back to the OB office for pre-op and post-op consult is awful too bc you are inevitably in a,waiting room full of pregnants

[coffeequeen14]

When I lost our baby at 16 weeks, the day after I came back to work some bitch announced right before a large group meeting started that she woke up that morning and took a pregnancy test. Guess what! She was pregnant! "Oh don't worry Coffeequeen, I am sure you will be pregnant again soon."

[coffeequeen14]

Dec 29, 2015 18:52:33 GMT -5 theophania said:

What a bitch coffeequeen14

Yes. She was a peach. For that amongst many other reasons. I still rage thinking about it.

[remylove1011]

How far along are you? 7w1d

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)? Sleepy/insomnia, nausea comes and goes, and peeing all the time. Emotionally I'm still full of anxiety. I think that will be the norm for this pregnancy.

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask? Those of you seeing an RE. When were you released to OB and when did you stop meds? I was released today, but continue on all my meds until I reach 12 weeks.

Any upcoming milestones or appointments? Had first ultrasound today. Baby measured perfectly and had a 113 heartbeat. So crazy to see the little flicker on the screen. I called today to schedule my first OB with the referral my RE gave me. The nurse should be calling me back tomorrow as the scheduler said they'd want to work me in somewhere "sooner" . Not sure what that means, but we shall see.

QOTW: Do you have any NYE plans? Yup. We will be spending the night at our BFF's. They have a 15 month old and she's expecting their second in Feb. So we'll be sober pregnant together and our husbands will get schwasted.

[katelm]

remylove1011 did they say why they want to you continue until 12w? I thought standard was 10w. I do a hard stop at 10w and that sort of scares me!

[remylove1011]

Dec 29, 2015 21:09:37 GMT -5 katelm said:

remylove1011 did they say why they want to you continue until 12w? I thought standard was 10w. I do a hard stop at 10w and that sort of scares me!

Yeah, I thought it was 10 weeks as well. My RE said they do 12 weeks and I didn't really think to ask why until we'd left and I thought about it more. I also do a hard stop. So I'm on estrogen pills 2× a day, estrogen patch, progesterone supps 3x a day, and PIO. So much stuff!!

[annbuhdan]

How far along are you? 6 w 2 d

How are you feeling? Physically, just nausea on and off but not as bad as others are having. It's new for me though, no sickness in my last two pregnancies.
Emotionally, I'm pretty excited if I'm being honest. DH and I still talk "if" not "when" with this baby but I can't help feeling excited for now.

No rants or raves at this time!

Upcoming milestones or appointments: First appointment isn't until January 22 so I'm hoping for a nice heartbeat by then. Our loss was 39 weeks and the condition I had comes on in 3rd tri. I know I'll be a lot more stressed out toward the end.

No NYE plans. We are usually very low key. I'm hoping for takeout and a movie after the baby is in bed. However, my H is redoing our basement so I'm betting he will be down there working with me folding laundry or something!!

[NariaDreaming]

Dec 30, 2015 16:57:41 GMT -5 opheliainwaders said:

@coffeequeen oh, my god. Can I retroactively TP her??

ditto

[NariaDreaming]

Well, just made my OB intake appointment for February. It may be moved up if my RE feels it necessary.

I'm nervous because they don't offer the NT scan, and the nurse was unfamiliar with any of the NIPT tests. It was also incredibly patronizing. Between running this website and the fact that DH and I have a combined 15 years of biomedical education between the two of us, I have a feeling I'm going to be doing a lot of nodding, smiling, and eye rolling.

Already got to have an argument about my medication choices.

[kaitkat]

Hey ladies I hope I can go here. Secondary infertility after initial healthy pregnancy. Diagnosed with pcos- conceived on round three of clomid and metformin

How far along are you? supposed to be 6 weeks measuring 5 (twins)

How are you feeling (physically/emotionally)?
Okay. The uncertainty of this pregnancy is really getting to me. Other than that I'm pretty tired and have occasional nausea throughout the day.

Any Rants/Raves/Questions you'd like to share/ask?
Decided I dislike the word viability it just makes me worry so much more.

Any upcoming milestones or appointments?

Monday I have another viability ultrasound hoping for heartbeats

QOTW: Do you have any NYE plans?[/
No just going to put DD down a little late and watch a movie with DH. We are dog sitting three dogs in addition to our two so should be an adventure to say the least.

[annbuhdan]

Dec 30, 2015 18:46:04 GMT -5 opheliainwaders said:

Dec 30, 2015 17:14:52 GMT -5 NariaDreaming said:

Well, just made my OB intake appointment for February. It may be moved up if my RE feels it necessary.

I'm nervous because they don't offer the NT scan, and the nurse was unfamiliar with any of the NIPT tests. It was also incredibly patronizing. Between running this website and the fact that DH and I have a combined 15 years of biomedical education between the two of us, I have a feeling I'm going to be doing a lot of nodding, smiling, and eye rolling.

Already got to have an argument about my medication choices.

It probably wouldn't hurt to say nicely, "it makes me feel much more comfortable if you would use medical terminology with me. DH and I are [fill in expertise], and we would find the specificity helpful."

Yes, great idea. We had to do exactly this because after our first we did tons of research about what happened to us. When the doctors talked down to us, we would always explain that we know what's going on and we're capable of having a conversation with them.

[NariaDreaming]

Dec 30, 2015 19:15:47 GMT -5 annbuhdan said:

Dec 30, 2015 18:46:04 GMT -5 opheliainwaders said:

It probably wouldn't hurt to say nicely, "it makes me feel much more comfortable if you would use medical terminology with me. DH and I are [fill in expertise], and we would find the specificity helpful."

Yes, great idea. We had to do exactly this because after our first we did tons of research about what happened to us. When the doctors talked down to us, we would always explain that we know what's going on and we're capable of having a conversation with them.

I plan to at our intake appointment. The nurse also reminded me to buy a thermometer because "having a temperature is dangerous to baby"

*headdesk*

[dc2london]

I haaaaaaaate when medical professionals speak to me like I am of the idiot masses. I wish I could wear a badge that says,"Have been on TD/TCF for 7 years; Prob know more than you about conception"

[remylove1011]

Dec 30, 2015 19:44:22 GMT -5 dc2london said:

I haaaaaaaate when medical professionals speak to me like I am of the idiot masses. I wish I could wear a badge that says,"Have been on TD/TCF for 7 years; Prob know more than you about conception"

Haha!! Love all of this. When I explained all of our IVF stuff to my mom she asked me why I didn't become a doctor. I just laughed. I like to be informed about wtf is going on!!