Well I managed to sleep until 6 today, which is better than yesterday but definitely not enough. I just discovered Priates of the Caribbean is on Netflix so I'm going to watch while I eat my breakfast!
I've officially decided to take a leave of absence from school. The semester is supposed to start next week so today I need to try to figure out all the paperwork. Then later I'm hanging out with a close friend. H and I decided it's time to start telling individual friends we would want for support if anything bad happens, so I'm going to tell her our news! She knows about our IF so she is going to be so happy for us, I can't wait to see the look on her face. :-)
I'm so glad it's NOT Monday! I have nothing planned but work and cooking dinner when I get home so that's exciting (not).
I just found out my supervisor is reporting to someone new in the next few months so my plan of probably going back part time may not happen since this lady is a "well I went back to work FT after having a baby, why can't you?" type of person. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not comfortable telling my boss yet either so I'm stressing about this today.
I got 12 hours of sleep last night and I feel so much better! I'm off to court and to get some groceries, then home to laundry. I'm hoping this feeling good/energy keeps up!
Post by twinkie0612 on Jan 12, 2016 8:11:32 GMT -5
Today is my first day off couch rest, so hopefully it is productive.
I am having red spotting again, but I am 99% sure it's from an irritated cervix. The u/s tech had a hard time finding my right ovary and had to dig around. I noticed the spotting yesterday evening, but since it seemed to have slowed down we had sex anyway. Of course it made the spotting heavier, but it seems to be lighter again this morning. I am going to message my nurse, hopefully this doesn't put me back on couch rest.
Here is a random confession. DH must have hit a blood vessel when giving me my PIO injection this morning (I have no idea why he can't get the concept of "above the butt crack" but he constantly does them too low), because I ended up with blood all over my underwear. I am still wearing them because it was too much trouble to take off my shoes, take off my pants, and put on new underwear and a pantyliner. Yup, that much laziness exists.
TTC #1 since August 2011 DH (32): SA is ok, slightly low morph, normal SCSA Me (32): Slightly low P4, hostile CM, carrier for CF, high NKC, High TNFa, heterozyogous mutated Factor XIII, and +APA October 2012-August 2015: 4 failed IUIs, 3 failed IVFs, 2 failed FETs w/donor embryos, 1 freeze all IVF, 1 Failed FET, and 1 cancelled FET November 2015: FET w/ DEm #3 Transferred 1 perfect 6AA blast
twinkie0612 I hope the bleeding goes away, but it could be your cervix is angry!
I do my own PIO shots and every other day I hit a blood vessel. I tuck a cheap Target hand towel in my pants on the side I'm injecting on so if/when I hit a blood vessel I'm not making a huge mess.
twinkie0612 I hope the bleeding goes away, but it could be your cervix is angry!
I do my own PIO shots and every other day I hit a blood vessel. I tuck a cheap Target hand towel in my pants on the side I'm injecting on so if/when I hit a blood vessel I'm not making a huge mess.
I've done my own a handful of times and always seem to hit a blood vessel when I do.
TTC #1 since August 2011 DH (32): SA is ok, slightly low morph, normal SCSA Me (32): Slightly low P4, hostile CM, carrier for CF, high NKC, High TNFa, heterozyogous mutated Factor XIII, and +APA October 2012-August 2015: 4 failed IUIs, 3 failed IVFs, 2 failed FETs w/donor embryos, 1 freeze all IVF, 1 Failed FET, and 1 cancelled FET November 2015: FET w/ DEm #3 Transferred 1 perfect 6AA blast
twinkie0612 I hope the bleeding goes away, but it could be your cervix is angry!
I do my own PIO shots and every other day I hit a blood vessel. I tuck a cheap Target hand towel in my pants on the side I'm injecting on so if/when I hit a blood vessel I'm not making a huge mess.
I've done my own a handful of times and always seem to hit a blood vessel when I do.
It's so glamorous!
My dog follows me in the bathroom when I do them and sits right by my feet so the first time I hit a blood vessel he needed a bath afterwards! Poor dog!
Happy not-Monday everyone. Just catching up on the weekend and yesterday. I loved hearing the great ultrasound news. So happy to see all those little gummy bears!!
I'm so glad it's NOT Monday! I have nothing planned but work and cooking dinner when I get home so that's exciting (not).
I just found out my supervisor is reporting to someone new in the next few months so my plan of probably going back part time may not happen since this lady is a "well I went back to work FT after having a baby, why can't you?" type of person. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm not comfortable telling my boss yet either so I'm stressing about this today.
Ugh, do you work for a company with an HR department that you could get advice from first? My supervisors tend to be old school and less supportive of flexible work arrangements even though my company raves about how it puts work life balance high on its priorities. I feel like sometimes management (especially when they are raised internally without management training) can be more results driven vs. people driven.
It's a big no-no here to go right to HR and not going through the appropriate steps first so I would have to go through my boss, his boss and her boss before going to HR.
It just sucks because everyone here just assumes that family will take care of kids and why would that prevent me from coming back part time? Unfortunately my parents don't live down the street and my MIL is mentally unstable to take care of a child.
I just got off the phone with MH and he's supportive with whatever I end up having to do or choose what I do. If they can't let me come back part time, I'll have to resign. It's going to suck because job security, but no one other than my direct supervisor will be that supportive.
I had the worst dream, *****trigger warning****** because it wasn't pleasent but I need to talk it out
i was at rhe hospital and they told me they would have to induce me early (maybe having the dream because it was dds bday and I was induced a month early??) i kept asking if he would need the nicu and one dr was like of course. And then I was doing the math and realised that I wasnt enough weeks for a level 2 nicu. I kept saying its too early, he wont survive. I woke up crying and shaking. Having another preemie is scary for me obv but I think I need to deal with my feelings surrounding dds birth or something. Idk.
youdontsay, I hope it works out ok for you! I was so nervous about bringing up the switch to PT (and also working from home) while pregnant with DD2. I was in the process of getting a new boss so a lot was up in the air, but thankfully it worked out. I hope they are willing to be flexible with you too!
youdontsay that's a sucky situation. I hope they end up being more supportive than you anticipate (although it sounds like you are dealing with a bunch of very old school people). It frustrates me when supervisors don't understand the importance of family and the logistics of caring for said family.
twinkie0612 fx that the spotting stops soon! I bet it is just an irritated cervix, with all of that hunting around they did in the u/s (and then of course the sex ).
We are having a snow day today. I'm relieved because I hate when the weather is kind of iffy and you can't really tell how bad the roads will be. Sometimes I regret sending DD1 to preschool 30 minutes away.
So we are having a lazy day. Waiting for the snow to slow down so the girls can go sledding for the first time down our little hill in the backyard.
Hugs alygohome. The past doesn't have to dictate the future. You know more this time around than do did with DD's pregnancy about how to take care of yourself, and you are letting yourself take the meds that you need. I know it's scary though.
I have been so out of the loop! Yay for all the good scans!
Just another day at work for me, nothing exciting. I haven't been feeling well because of the antibiotics for my UTI, but thankfully this morning I took my last dose.
I had the worst dream, *****trigger warning****** because it wasn't pleasent but I need to talk it out
i was at rhe hospital and they told me they would have to induce me early (maybe having the dream because it was dds bday and I was induced a month early??) i kept asking if he would need the nicu and one dr was like of course. And then I was doing the math and realised that I wasnt enough weeks for a level 2 nicu. I kept saying its too early, he wont survive. I woke up crying and shaking. Having another preemie is scary for me obv but I think I need to deal with my feelings surrounding dds birth or something. Idk.
I had some anxiety about giving birth when I was pregnant the second time (though not to the same degree). I talked to my OB about it and she really helped me work through some of the things. Is that an option for you?
I've done my own a handful of times and always seem to hit a blood vessel when I do.
It's so glamorous!
My dog follows me in the bathroom when I do them and sits right by my feet so the first time I hit a blood vessel he needed a bath afterwards! Poor dog!
That made me LOL!! I seem to only bleed on the left side of my body. Anytime I do the right I never get any blood. What's up with that! (Only 20 more days of injections!!)
Me (30) MH (32) Dx: MFI (low all the things) M. 10/11. TTC Since 01/14 IUI#1-3(Letrozole + Trigger) = BFN Second Opinion. Changed RE's. IVF 09/15 Long Lupron 12R/9M/8F, Transferred 1=BFN. 4 frosties. FET #1 12/15 Transferred 1 (3 still on ice)
twinkie0612, I hope the bleeding stops. Sorry for your irritable cervix.
youdontsay, what a tough situation. I hope they let you go PT.
alygohome, how miserable. I'm sorry you had such an awful dream. This pregnancy doesn't have to go like the last one. KJ was a preemie and in the NICU, A was term and completely healthy.
alygohome, what an upsetting dream, I'm so sorry. It definitely seems like you are still (understandably) traumatized from your daughter's birth. Is there a support group at the hospital or anything that could help you work through those feelings?
Like PP's said, your past does not dictate your future. ((Hugs))
twinkie0612 I almost always spot after t/v u/s, especially when they root around in there. Hopefully it settles down soon so you don't have to stress too much
I dropped DS at school and am being lazy until I going on a cleaning spree.
I'm sorry alygohome. I had a similar dream last night that was so vivid. The baby was being taken to the nicu and then DW said she couldn't handle it again and told me we were getting a divorce. We were very lucky DS was only there for a short time but I'm so nervous. Luckily I have an apt with my therapist I had for ppd this week to try and stay on top of the anxiety. I swear my brain is evil some days and it tends to come out in my dreams
That's some stressful dreaming foxxytwt and alygohome. Hopefully you can both shake them off and forget about them. I know it's easier said than done, though.
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