TTC Check-In 1/25

[rikkiandjulie]

Hey ladies! What's the scoop this week?

QOTD: Do you already have a registry of stuff you'd like? Have you bought any baby things yet? Have you researched the best products?

[rikkiandjulie]

Just sitting here waiting to ovulate, I do not feel as crampy this time, which is good or bad not sure. But the Femera last cycle really caused me to cramp. According to FF there is a chance that I could surge on Sat/Sun, which would mean I am out this cycle due to timing as fedex doesn't ship on those days. I'm hoping for Friday, or Monday.

I'm thinking of starting to take robitussin to loosen up my CM, as the Femera dries me up.

I'm trying to do research about shipping sperm, in a test yolk buffer (a protective medium for the sperm) and can't find much for human sperm, but it works like a champ according to research for reproduction of 1000s of animals, so there's that. There are also a zillion success stories out there, about it working so it must.

I am just kinda nervous about it bc it's "new". I am going to go buy some soft cups today to practice getting them in right, so I don't screw if up.

And for the hard stuff - I threw a baby shower for my sister in law this weekend. It was gorgeous, and it came together beautifully, I'll post pictures later. But when it was all said and done this huge wave of depression hit me, and I just cried. I really thought that by this time we'd have a baby. It's been almost 1.5 years of planning, and different attempts. I cried out of jealousy, and hurt, and then some more bc I felt bad for crying.

[JustJudy]

14DPO over here and another BFN but no sign of AF yet. I just want to get on with the next try, so I'm hoping it shows up in a few hours.

I'm with you R&J, its been about 1.5 years for us too and I cannot believe we're not pregnant yet. Arg! Also, I'll be 31 on Friday - I was supposed to have a baby by now.

QOTW: We've been collecting things here and there for years. The saddest thing is the crib I got from a friend for free that's been sitting in the "baby room" for almost a year unassembled. It's moving with us to CA though, it was free after all!

[keba]

So we're in this little limbo between doing IUIs and switching over to IVF. We're calling this our last hoorah week, as K has been off caffeine, booze, crappy food for months and she got pretty fed up with it after the three IUI disappointments. She's still taking amazingly good care of herself with the gym, etc, but we've loosened up a bit and we're taking advantage of fun opportunities (like going to see Margaret Cho on Friday!) before that switch gets flipped when we start stim meds on Valentine's Day of all days New donor seems to be a more brawn than brain type and I hear their swimmers are pretty hearty so here's hoping!

rikkiandjulie I think those mixed feelings just pile up after a while and hit us all at once. Sometimes it's just time to cry it out

QOTW: I am wildly superstitious about the collecting of baby things ahead of time. K and her mom have been stashing away some decor as her mom is a garage sale/antiquing fanatic and K has always wanted a Noah's Ark/elephants/animals theme for the nursery. I'm not so thrilled with Noah, but we agree on the elephant front. I just choose not to look behind door #3 and what's been stashed in the someday nursery room.

[rikkiandjulie]

I met with a lawyer yesterday to review the known donor contract, she said it was very solid, and good to go. She then went through the steps of terminating his parental rights immediately following birth, and following up with a second parent adoption. She charged me $100 for the contract review, and then quoted me $1000 for the second parent adoption, not bad at all!

I am a little nervous about using a KD, due to all the fear everyone has instilled in me, but I know that it's incredibly irrational, and I have all the proper documents in place.

[JustJudy]

dannigirl and firstcomeslove2013 how are you two doing?

keba, I love Margaret Cho live, have fun!

AFM, I'm on CD1 of cycle 13 now. Decided to do one more Clomid cycle and if it doesn't work I'll move on to injectables. Hoping lucky 13 is the one!

[dannigirl]

12dpiui here. I tested 9dpiui with a cheap dollar store brand, BFN. Then tested again 10dpiui in the evening. After I had already peed and then forced a pee to do the test, got a BFN. Not surprised cause I should have waited till the morning for a more concentrated pee.

I haven't tested again as I am now out of tests, and I didn't want to spend a bunch on money on them and the dollar store had none, so I decided I would wait till Friday and just do the blood work.

I'm stressing out. I keep having funky things happen like crazy heartburn, peeing lots, bloody nose, cramps, sore boobs and things like that. I'm trying to not read into anything since I'm on Progesterone and it causes PMS/Pregnancy symptoms. Even though I've had zero side effects from the meds since I started them the night of the IUI, I still don't trust anything that's happening in my body.

What really annoys me is that when I get the blood work done Friday, I likely won't get the results till Monday! The base hospital is super slow at getting test results back to people so I don't expect to know till after the weekend. TORTURE!!!!! I might have to buy a HPT if it turns out I have to wait... If I'm not pregnant, I'm drinking my face off this weekend.

JustJudy,I`m really sorry about the BFN. I really hope 13 is your luck number!!!

rikkiandjulie, It`s so frustrating when you`ve been trying for so long and then still have to put on a happy face for all those who have had babies while you`re still waiting for your big day. Sometimes having a big cry is the best way to get it all out.

QOTW ** Loss mentioned - possible trigger **
We have a registry, a Momaroo, unisex clothing for a newborn, a tub for bathing, we even have a stroller and car seat. But those were all bought for our Baby Girl who never got to use them. So they are all hidden away in a closet, waiting for our rainbow baby.

[rikkiandjulie]

So after reviewing my past BBT charts from when I was temping, it looks as though I get about 36 hours of surge then ovulate the following day. I ALWAYS get + OPKs for about a 36 hour range.

So let's assume that I still have a surge tomorrow (going into 36 hours), and I insem before 10a on Friday.

Do I stand a chance? Or is it a totally wasted attempt?

Crunching the numbers and hours is making my head hurt.

[kekaellypula]

I'm late. Been busy, busy, busy at work. But the busy stops after the 3rd. I had to have some blood tests done for another doctor and found out I have some metabolic issues (yay me). So I'll be going on pills, forever. CD#1 finally showed up, so Saturday is CD#3 testing to see what's up in my little wonderland. This will be the last IUI before discussing IVF (if possible). The wife is back in Texas at Tech School. The first couple of weeks being apart were the worst but it's getting easier. She isn't complaining as much about hating it.

[firstcomeslove2013]

Jan 27, 2016 20:10:30 GMT -5 JustJudy said:

dannigirl and firstcomeslove2013 how are you two doing?

keba , I love Margaret Cho live, have fun!

AFM, I'm on CD1 of cycle 13 now. Decided to do one more Clomid cycle and if it doesn't work I'll move on to injectables. Hoping lucky 13 is the one!

Thanks so much for checking in. I've started a separate thread for an update. So sorry for the BFN.

[JustJudy]

Just had my day 3 follicle check and I have a huge cyst on the left again. Since I'm benched this cycle I decided next time we're going in for the kill, injectables. If I get over 7 eggs we'll switch to IVF but my RE is ok with 5-6 and doing an IUI.

[rikkiandjulie]

Good Lucky Judy! Injectables were okay for Julie, the side effects weren't to bad. I hope this your lucky ticket.

AFM- I am pretty depressed. This whole TTC thing, I just so badly want to be successful, carry a child, and have a newborn. It's gut wrenching that we have spent so much time and money, with only a CP. I feel like it's a sick game, and someone skmewhere is like "they'll get it, they'll finally figure out that they should throw in the towel".

I am also out this cycle, due to shipping. I am hoping that next month is better, but if not we will be going back to the REs office and using frozen sperm. I did find a local AI donor in Iowa, but I'm stil chatting with him about things.

I just feel undeserving, and defeated today. I don't know how much longer we can emotionally keep trying, and every failed cycle is like a punch to the gut, or a twist of the knife.

[JustJudy]

Hugs rikkiandjulie, Do something nice for yourself this weekend. You absolutely deserve to have a baby, as much as this sucks we need to try to stay positive.

[dannigirl]

Looks like I'm out this month too...

Haven't gotten my blood work results, or AF because of the progesterone suppositories... But I took a HPT this afternoon and it came back negative. I have one more test that I plan to do in the morning just to see. But I'm 90% sure we are out.

One more try in April and then we move to IVF. I really don't want to do IVF. I hate this.

[JustJudy]

Jan 29, 2016 16:38:39 GMT -5 dannigirl said:

Looks like I'm out this month too...

Haven't gotten my blood work results, or AF because of the progesterone suppositories... But I took a HPT this afternoon and it came back negative. I have one more test that I plan to do in the morning just to see. But I'm 90% sure we are out.

One more try in April and then we move to IVF. I really don't want to do IVF. I hate this.

Nooo! I was really hoping this was your month. So many hugs. You aso need to do something nice for yourself this weekend.