PGAL Check In - 1/26

[nitecheese]

It has been awhile, so I thought I should see how everyone is feeling/doing/etc.

How far along are you?



How are you feeling physically/emotionally?



Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced?



Any recent or upcoming milestones?



Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester?


GTKY: What song takes you back to high school?

[nitecheese]

How far along are you? 19 w 2d


How are you feeling physically/emotionally? Physically, I'm feeling pretty ok. RLP and heartburn are frustrating, but nothing I can't handle. Emotionally, I'm still a little icky. I am getting really anxious for my a/s next week. I also am worried that I'm not feeling a ton of movement. I keep almost calling my ob to go in for a doppler just for some reassurance.


Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced? That there will be something wrong during the a/s. I just cannot relax. 


Any recent or upcoming milestones? Half -baked on Sunday. Next Wednesday, if the a/s goes well etc, we will be scheduling the RCS, which eeeeee.


Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester? Sometimes this pregnancy just doesn't feel real. I look pregnant, I feel pregnant, but I'm just not 100% in it. I think that's the fear keeping me from diving in head first to the excitement. I something feel like I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop.


GTKY: What song takes you back to high school? Smooth by Santana and Rob Thomas makes me think of sitting in the art room. Anything off of Sgt. Pepper's makes me think of make up before all my high school productions. #artsnerd

[txmommy14]

nitecheese Thanks for the check-in! I totally know what you mean about waiting for the other shoe to drop. Hugs! Hoping you start feeling more movement and have a wonderful a/s!

How far along? 22 weeks



How are you feeling physically/emotionally? I feel okay. I'm exhausted by things coming up and am anxious for my follow up to the a/s next week for the echo and to check the cysts abc my previa, but I'm doing ok. Still struggling with insomnia and taking meds for that which is like to avoid. Feeling some movement but like you, I'm excited to start feeling more and stronger movements.



Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced? The cramping has made me nervous. Doesn't feel like RLP. I still find myself checking for blood every single time I pee-which is a lot, just waiting for the worst to happen. I'm trying to move on like it's all okay though, bought a coming home outfit, picked out her name.



Any recent or upcoming milestones? EDD of last baby was last week, it actually went fine and was a nice day. Viability in 2 weeks! I can't wait for the security of the third tri, although I know and remember that the discomfort is miserable.



Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester? Definitely. Not as much, but the anxiety is there in a way I never experienced with DS.


GTKY: What song takes you back to high school? Anything by Greenday, Coldplay, Blink 182, Dashboard Confessional, John Mayer.

[pbandj714]

nitecheese, I feel you on the waiting for the other shoe to drop thing, too. Hang in there!

txmommy14, yay for picking her name! How exciting!!

AFM,

How far along are you? 17w5d with twins



How are you feeling physically/emotionally? Physically, I feel pretty good! Some occasional heartburn, lower back pain, sleep discomfort, but it could be worse. My bump keeps growing, which keeps my mind at ease for the most part. I just really wish I had consistent movement. I do think I've felt them kicking in there, but I'm always second guessing it!



Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced? I'm just in the same boat with being nervous for my A/S. I just worry that something will be wrong with one or both of them and I don't know how I'd handle it. And I'm super annoyed that my doctors have put in orders for it to be scheduled at the hospital the last 2 times I've been, and still no one has called. I'm going to call today and make a stink because I need to get that on the books!



Any recent or upcoming milestones? My EDD is coming up on 2/2. I'm feeling pretty calm about it. I have the day off work, so I am planning to do some work on clearing out the junk room, which is becoming the guest room, and cleaning out the guest room, which is becoming the nursery. I should be okay as long as I keep busy. I'll likely take some moments to reflect, but I'm trying to be as zen as possible about this day.



Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester? Of course. Mostly the feelings of something has to go wrong because it always does. The frequent appointments have helped me tremendously though!


GTKY: What song takes you back to high school? Konstantine by Something Corporate. My bff and I used to BLAST it and sing at the top of our lungs with all our angsty teen feels. And now I'm playing it on Youtube for nostalgia's sake.

[woodengirl07]

Morning ladies!
How far along are you?

20w6d

How are you feeling physically/emotionally?

Physically I'm fair. Feel like I could sleep for hours and hours for sure.

Emotionally I've been having a rough time these last few days.

Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced?

Only every day, ha ha. I feel the baby moving, but it's really low, like just above my pubic bone, which then freaks me out that A) the baby isn't growing like she should, or B) that I'm not feeling movement at all but that it is actually some sort of spasm or contraction or something.

Any recent or upcoming milestones?

A/S is Monday. I am really nervous, but also wish it was here sooner!

Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester?

Yes, truly it's almost worse for me. I think that now that it seems real and we have seen her and told our family and friends I am more scared that something might happen.


GTKY: What song takes you back to high school?

Any time I hear "fly" by Sugar Ray.

[soultrane]

How far along are you?
20 weeks today - half baked!

How are you feeling physically/emotionally?
Physically, very sore and tired. The u/s tech confirmed today that he's laying very low. My cervix agrees with her.
Emotionally, I'm feeling better after my a/s this morning and being able to see him. I'm also kind of relieved that he wasn't cooperative so I have to go back in 2 weeks and can see him again. Little guy is already looking out for me and helping to keeping my PGAL brain in check!

Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced?
Just the anxiety leading up to this morning. I didn't feel a ton of movement yesterday which made me nervous.

Any recent or upcoming milestones?
Nope

Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester?
Absolutely. It isn't quite as strong because I am feeling movement, but the nagging thoughts about "what if" and knowing what could go wrong just don't go away.

GTKY: What song takes you back to high school?
Sublime was blasted (on cassette) daily from my car.
Also No Doubt, Everclear, Cake, Big Bad Voodoo Daddy, Reel Big Fish, etc. They all scream high school to me.

[teggy20]

How far along are you? 18w4d (was measuring a week ahead at last US, so probably closer to 19.5 weeks)

How are you feeling physically/emotionally? Physically, fine -- some RLP, but other than that, pretty good. Emotionally, better than I have in recent weeks, actually. I've been working hard to get to a peaceful place before my a/s on Friday. More consistent movement has helped a TON. I forgot how reassuring that is.

Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced? Every time I don't feel movement for a few hours, I panic. I don't remember doing that with DS. Nervous for the a/s and just ready for it to be here. Hoping so very much that everything is perfect in there.

Any recent or upcoming milestones? Looking forward to being halfway there! This pregnancy really is flying by.

Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester? Yes. Like all of you, I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's starting to feel more real, but not real enough to make any big moves like announce it publicly on FB.. or start to transition DS into a new room.. or buy anything. I hope after the a/s I can get over that hurdle.

GTKY: What song takes you back to high school? Oh man... DMB "Crash" takes me there every time.

Hugs to everyone -- wish we could have that awesome naivety of pre-loss pregnancy. Whenever I start to feel really worried about something I think about how amazing it's going to feel to hold this baby for the first time.

[soultrane]

Jan 26, 2016 14:34:55 GMT -5 teggy20 said:

GTKY: What song takes you back to high school? Oh man... DMB "Crash" takes me there every time.

Hugs to everyone -- wish we could have that awesome naivety of pre-loss pregnancy. Whenever I start to feel really worried about something I think about how amazing it's going to feel to hold this baby for the first time.

Agreed, on both counts.  

[soultrane]

I also have a minor vent, and I attribute it to my lack of blissful unawareness, and my family's lack of understanding my pgal brain. When we made our phone calls this morning, almost everyone rushed us through the "baby is healthy, strong hb, physically fine" part of the news because they were waiting to hear the sex.

I get it, I do. That's the "fun" part. But in my mind, I truly didn't care if it was a boy or a girl - I was just hoping that I wouldn't get bad news today, so it rubbed me the wrong way when I was kind of forced to gloss over the important part by some of our family members, who are fully aware of our story. Not to mention the fact that we did get bad news at DS' anatomy scan so it isn't like my fears were completely out of the blue.

Anyway, I'm over it and don't hold it against them. I just needed to let that out somewhere, so thanks for being my sounding board.

[teggy20]

Oh that's so hard, soultrane! I have a feeling we'll be getting the same reaction from at least some of our family. Frustrating! Sorry you had to deal with that!

[vivela]

How far along are you? 19+4

How are you feeling physically/emotionally? Physically, ok. My back gets sore easily, my hips have been bothering me, and I'm SO TIRED OF PEEING. But other than that I'm in ok shape.
Emotionally, not bad. I didn't get the immediate feedback that other people seem to get after their a/s. I am sort of assuming that if there was anything concerning they would have called? I have my monthly appt. tomorrow so I'm sure she'll address it. I'm just hoping it isn't a case of "we'll just tell her when she comes in."

Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced? Just hoping there is nothing interesting to talk about tomorrow because everything is going according to plan!

Any recent or upcoming milestones? Right now I'm in the "window" of when I was pregnant last year, which is kind of a weird feeling. The BFP was in mid-January, I knew it was over the 30th, and then the m/c was the 10th of Feb. So it's been in the back of my mind, but I am kind of trying to ignore it because I don't really want to wallow.

Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester?
Yes, but I definitely feel more secure than I did first tri. I still get that random, awful, "it could be over right now and I wouldn't even know it" sensation from time to time. Usually I use my doppler when that happens which is a quick reassurance. I always feel most stressed right before an appt., so I'm looking forward to getting tomorrow over with.

GTKY: What song takes you back to high school? So many! A big one is "Closing Time" because it came out right before I got to high school and was then played at the end of every single dance and event for the next four years (they are probably still doing this for all I know).

[woodengirl07]

Jan 26, 2016 14:34:55 GMT -5 teggy20 said:

Hugs to everyone -- wish we could have that awesome naivety of pre-loss pregnancy. Whenever I start to feel really worried about something I think about how amazing it's going to feel to hold this baby for the first time.

I agree fully. People keep asking if we have a registry and if the nursery is set up and on and on and all I can think is "This early? Are you crazy? There's no way!"

[shan]

]How far along are you?
21 weeks

How are you feeling physically/emotionally?
Physically and emotionally I am doing okay.

Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced?
Low lying placenta gives me a few nerves, but overall I'm doing well since my AS.

Any recent or upcoming milestones?
Next Friday is my Edd for my loss. I don't work that day, but I'm feeling weird about the whole thing.

Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester?
Yes. The anterior placenta doesn't help. I know she's moving around in there a lot. I'm sad and concerned I don't feel her all that often.

GTKY: What song takes you back to high school?
Music. DH and i were at dinner last night and the music they were playing had to be someone our age. It was a total flashback.

[babyzebra]

How far along are you? 18w5d


How are you feeling physically/emotionally?
Physically, I am feeling fine except for horrible heartburn. Emotionally, I have good moments and bad moments. I don't have quite the constant fears of first tri, but my fears now almost seem bigger. But I'm really ok most days.



Any new fears or concerns that have surfaced?
Yeah for sure. Of course I'm terrified that I'll get awful news at my A/S.


Any recent or upcoming milestones?
Next month, I'll reach the day I had my first natural MC, but I've blocked out the exact date, which is probably a good thing.


Are you still struggling with PGAL brain during second trimester?
Yes, but I recently got an elective gender ultrasound and it was a great decision. Only DH knew that I scheduled it to ease PGAL brain rather than finding out the gender early. I didn't want anyone to think I was crazy, and it's easy enough to just act really excited about finding out the gender. It was awesome because it wasn't rushed like my u/s are at the OB's office. The tech played the HB for like a whole minute and I could see her moving around in there even though I couldn't feel any of it. It was so reassuring and such a great decision for me.


GTKY: What song takes you back to high school?
Anything by sublime, sum 41, yellowcard, etc....good times!



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