2/9/16 Weekly Check-in

[sleepymonkey]

Good Morning, ladies!

Status:


What are you doing this month?



Where are you at in your journey?



What is your mood?



QOTW: You have the day to yourself; No obligations and money isn't an issue. How would you spend it?

[sleepymonkey]

Status: TTC#2


What are you doing this month? Meds w/TI


Where are you at in your journey? Cycle 9 CD18/6DPO (I think)


What is your mood? Just coasting along. I was hoping to feel more optimistic with my first medicated cycle but I'm just not. And for the first time, seeing others get their BFP is getting to me. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy for everyone who gets a BFP but it still leaves me with a rather large twinge of jealousy. I hate that it bothers me.


QOTW: You have the day to yourself; No obligations and money isn't an issue. How would you spend it? I would get up whenever I felt like it, lounge on the couch, drinking coffee, watching mindless daytime TV or playing on my ipad. Then I would probably get dressed, pick up some lunch from my favorite Greek restaurant and go to the park to eat and people watch. I would then probably spend the afternoon shopping for clothes for me, DD and MH (if I don't buy him nice clothes, he would have none.) I would probably go to the gym at some point, too. And my day would end with picking up my favorite eggplant rollatini from a little local Italian place I love.

[wannabmama]

sleepymonkey I hate that this process robs me of the ability to even share in happiness of others. I try really hard to put aside my own feelings and just enjoy it with them but the ugly green jealousy monster is way more present than it's ever been in my whole life for anything else!

Status: TTC #1, 19 mo now

What are you doing this month? Sex, bbt, will try OPKs again

Where are you at in your journey? CD 4

What is your mood? Bummed. Bummed we can't start IVF suppression this month and now are pushed back. I know H is hoping we'll get a miracle naturally but I know that's not going to happen. We'll HIO just in case of course, ha!

QOTW: You have the day to yourself; No obligations and money isn't an issue. How would you spend it? I would sleep in, have coffee and bfast under a blanket on the couch with my pups. Then I'd go to the barn and ride as long as I want. I'd get a wrap from this yummy spot near the house and take the dogs for a walk and eat it somewhere with a pretty view. Then, I'd go home and watch a cheesy RomCom (couch with puppies again). I'd order sushi, have some wine, and go to bed early. Basically...I'd eat, hang with my four leggeds, and sleep, ha!

[fishchicks]

Hi, can I join you?

*loss mentioned*

Status: Age 36, TTC #1. 22 days out from a d&c after a missed miscarriage and waiting to have a period again.

What are you doing this month?PNVs, pomegranate juice if I ever get a period again, opks and charting

Where are you at in your journey? I'm still hopeful, although in a darker way now. To everyone's shock I got pregnant quickly the first time, so I'm hoping that happens again, but with a better outcome.

What is your mood? Frustrated that I still haven't had a period post d&c!

QOTW: You have the day to yourself; No obligations and money isn't an issue. How would you spend it? Mmm. . . That's a nice question! Probably I'd enjoy some type of activity with DH, have a massage, and then go out to dinner with him to our favorite "special occasion" place.

[sleepymonkey]

Welcome, fishchicks! I am so sorry about your loss. I hope your period comes back soon and your stay here with us can be short.

[wannabmama]

Welcome fishchicks ! I'm sorry for your loss. I hope your stay is short and sweet and that your period comes back soon. Welcome to our little group!

[summergirl1211]

Thanks for the check in sleepymonkey!

Status: TFAS


What are you doing this month? I was on the bench waiting for my TSH to get back within normal range but I just got my test results. I'm ready to go! I'm at CD 16 and haven't O'd yet so we will probably HIO this week JIC. Otherwise medicated cycles will start next cycle!


Where are you at in your journey? I forget. So many cycles OTB, but I think about 8 actually TTC.


What is your mood? Very excited! I'm glad to be off the bench and ready to get trying again. I doubt anything will happen this month but am anxious to start the medicated cycles with my RE next cycle.


QOTW: You have the day to yourself; No obligations and money isn't an issue. How would you spend it? Sleep in, drink some hot coffee and have my favorite hair stylist come over and give me a blow out just because. I'd shop until I get tired, for me, my H, and my DD and then come home and take a nap. Then I'd have a limo take us to one of our favorite restaurants, where I'd order one of every dish and several bottles of really expensive wine. It would be awesome!

[bazinga]

sleepymonkey and wannabmama, I could have written the exact same thing. Whilst seeing other peoples BFPs makes me truly happy for them (never did I imagine how invested in Internet people's utes I could be!). Increasingly I feel sad, jealous and bitter, and I hate this...

Welcome fishchicks. I'm so sorry for your loss and wish you a short stay here.

Status: TFAS

What are you doing this month? PNV, will start BBT and CM when AF leaves

Where are you in your journey? We stared TFAS almost a year ago now. This is cycle 6 AL, CD3. I have an appointment with my OBGYN at the end of the month to discuss what next.

What's your mood? Not great... I really hoped, and thought, we'd get lucky before now and as my EDD approaches next week I'm struggling with sadness and impending hopelessness.

QOTW: I like this question! After I lie in I'd go get a Starbucks then head out to my favourite hiking trails which overlook the ocean for a couple of hours. Followed by lunch at a local taco place and then some shopping (browsing for me, shopping for LO) before returning home for a nap. Ending the day with a family dinner out. With wine of course

[bazinga]

Congrats on burning the bench summergirl1211!

[sleepymonkey]

bazinga, I understand the feeling like you'd be lucky by now. When MH and I discussed TFAS, I had a deadline to give birth and that was before I'm 40. We started in June of last year thinking a year would be plenty of time. Now I'm faced with only having 5 more cycles left before my deadline and I'm starting to worry. A lot.

[bazinga]

sleepymonkey, I had the same before 40 deadline in mind, but allowing less time for success than you. I was so naive coming into this! I turn 40 in a couple of months and have realized how very very lucky I was first time around...

[beachdreamer]

sleepymonkey, bazinga, I had a similar deadline....to deliver before I turned 39. This cycle is it. I'm trying to tell myself even if it's the next few months, at least the egg will be 38 but it hasn't helped my spirits any. I also feel similar to you two and wannabmama, regarding BFPs. The ones here haven't bothered me, and even some on my BMB for DS haven't bothered me. The ones that make me bitter are the "oops look what we did," or "i didn't even know I wanted another one." I hate that my mind picks and chooses who I am happy for but it's just where I'm at right now.

fishchicks, sorry for your loss. I hope your period comes back soon.

summergirl1211, yay for being off the bench!!!

AFM:
Status: TTC #2

What are you doing this month? A lot of acronyms, supplements, tea, sex....right now just hoping and praying

Where are you at in your journey? CD 21, 10 DPO

What is your mood? I really don't know. I have been good this week about not symptom spotting because I haven't had any post O. Last week I was a little hopeful, but this week I tell myself I was hopeful other months so why should I expect this one to be any different. I'm calling my OB next week if AF arrives. I'll be benched next cycle since MH will be out of the country in my FW. That plus the EDD just before my birthday timeline puts a lot of pressure on this cycle. Friday can't get here fast enough.

QOTW: You have the day to yourself; No obligations and money isn't an issue. How would you spend it?
Wake up and fly to Los Angeles to get there as early as possible. I'd spend the day walking around in the sunshine and visiting as many of my old favorite places as possible. I'd unwillingly get on the last plane out for the night and cry the whole way home.

[tiresiastheblond]

beachdreamer, sorry you're feeling pressured.
bazinga, I hope your appointment with the OB is helpful.
summergirl1211, So glad you're back in action!
fishchicks, I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome!
wannabmama, Ugh, I am so sorry about the delay. TP to your RE.
sleepymonkey, I'm sorry you're not feeling more optimistic. I'm rooting for you.

I hear you all about not being able to be happy for other people, and about the deadlines. The women who were on this board when I started have all loooooong gone on to have their babies (or given up). Of course I wonder why I'm the odd one out, and why I didn't make my "deadline" of getting (and staying) pregnant before 40. Or 41. Or 42. It sucks, but there's always somebody who has it worse.

AFM:
Status: TTC #2 since 1/14

What are you doing this month? FET converted to TI. I'm 7 dpo.

Where are you at in your journey? It's too depressing to think about. If this cycle doesn't work out, I go back to the RPL specialist to go over my test results and possibly do some more invasive testing.

What is your mood? I'm sick, and sick of it all.

QOTW: You have the day to yourself; No obligations and money isn't an issue. How would you spend it?
I kind of did that today, because I'm so sick. I did a load of laundry and otherwise lay around and read stuff on the Internet. Now I wish I'd read a good book or something.

[beachdreamer]

tiresiastheblond, creepy internet hugs to you. I'm sorry you are sick....hope you feel better soon.

[fishchicks]

I'm on mobile, so tagging is tough, but hugs to those who need them. I thought I was the only one who had a 'need to deliver by x age' type deadline. It is really tough when that passes by, but I'm trying to remind myself that it's really arbitrary, and I'm strong enough to handle delivery at whatever age I need to!


beachdreamer How long ago did you leave LA? We moved from LA to Minnesota two and a half years ago, but aside from friends, food, and winter weather, I don't miss it much.

[beachdreamer]

fishchicks, we moved at the beginning of November 2013....from LA to MI. We only lived there 2 years, but it was one of those places I felt like I belonged instantly. I loved it so much and really really wanted to stay. Sometimes if I shut my eyes I can still smell the ocean air. I was so so happy there.

[fishchicks]

Feb 10, 2016 14:21:04 GMT -5 beachdreamer said:

fishchicks, we moved at the beginning of November 2013....from LA to MI. We only lived there 2 years, but it was one of those places I felt like I belonged instantly. I loved it so much and really really wanted to stay. Sometimes if I shut my eyes I can still smell the ocean air. I was so so happy there.

I'm sorry you had to leave, but so glad you enjoyed your two years. I spent nearly 15 in LA and OC, after growing up in San Francisco, and I never felt like I belonged, or wanted to. I think I'm just too much of a crunchy, granola type for LA!

[wannabmama]

Feb 10, 2016 15:13:26 GMT -5 fishchicks said:

Feb 10, 2016 14:21:04 GMT -5 beachdreamer said:

fishchicks, we moved at the beginning of November 2013....from LA to MI. We only lived there 2 years, but it was one of those places I felt like I belonged instantly. I loved it so much and really really wanted to stay. Sometimes if I shut my eyes I can still smell the ocean air. I was so so happy there.

I'm sorry you had to leave, but so glad you enjoyed your two years. I spent nearly 15 in LA and OC, after growing up in San Francisco, and I never felt like I belonged, or wanted to. I think I'm just too much of a crunchy, granola type for LA!

I lived in SF for awhile and in SD...was just in LA in Dec and while I don't think I fit in well there, being in CA did make a lot of feelings come flooding back; little things that are just CA-things that I don't have here in MA!

[beachdreamer]

We lived in waking distance to Venice Beach, so it was pretty crunchy, hippy there. Lol I think I wouldn't feel the same way had we lived more toward Hollywood or someplace like that. I was hoping my H would get a job in San Diego...so nice down there!

[bazinga]

Gah, it would be great if you were all still close by - I'm in SD! Love it here!