Pity Party of One?

[miggg]

I usually try not to be a Debbie downer because I truly am incredibly grateful to have this healthy, full-term baby cooking but.. misery loves company and I am so f*cking miserable. Anyone else's body torturing them and want to commiserate?

My SPD and back pain had been under control until last week when baby decided to curl up in the back of my uterus with his head pressed against my spine. Between that and the SPD I'm now in so much constant pain that I can barely move. I basically lie in my pregnancy pillow and sit on my exercise ball and cry while DH handles everything with the house and DS.

Then yesterday it got even more shittastic at my weekly check-up. My vitals have been slowly deteriorating over the last couple weeks and now the midwives are concerned and want baby out ASAP. Looks like a possible pre-e diagnosis, waiting to hear back. Either way they want to do a NST and have me doing every natural induction technique out there. (So far I've used Clary Sage oil, the breast pump, DD, hypnosis, raspberry leaf tea, acupressure, and acupuncture tomorrow)

No luck yet and I'm really stressed out that I'm going to risk out of the birth center and be faced with a medical induction at a hospital. Which I will 100% do if it needs to be done but I've heard Pitocin makes your contractions hurt like hell and the whole idea is terrifying and not what I've been mentally preparing for for 9 months!

TL;DR: My body sucks and I need this baby out now.

[daydreamsam]

I'm sorry you are so uncomfortable and that you may be facing a medical induction. That's a lot to take in, on top of feeling crappy. I hope things either improve or you go into labor naturally and avoid any intervention!

I join you in your complaints. I can't feel my hands, my feet are hugely swollen and now I have sciatica which is making it difficult to walk. My doctor is not offering anything useful. I had an appointment today and he was about as sympathetic as a rock. His attitude was basically: well, that's pregnancy. Gee, thanks doc.

[carissa325]

I'm right there with you on the spd and back pain and it sucks. I'm sorry.

When is your due date?

[sunshineshades]

I'm sorry.
Pitocin does make contractions worse it is true, mainly because there is no slow build up. That being said, they are manageable, my first was an induction with no pain medication and I would pretty willing do it again. Having a good support system and techniques to focus through contractions is key. Doula did the "hehehehoo" breathing with me and it helped a ton.

[miggg]

Mar 2, 2016 17:31:29 GMT -5 daydreamsam said:

I'm sorry you are so uncomfortable and that you may be facing a medical induction. That's a lot to take in, on top of feeling crappy. I hope things either improve or you go into labor naturally and avoid any intervention!

I join you in your complaints. I can't feel my hands, my feet are hugely swollen and now I have sciatica which is making it difficult to walk. My doctor is not offering anything useful. I had an appointment today and he was about as sympathetic as a rock. His attitude was basically: well, that's pregnancy. Gee, thanks doc.

Ugh, that sucks. Sciatica is no joke. And it's not pregnancy for everyone! I have some friends that seriously had no physical issues at all throughout pregnancy. One was leading crossfit classes the day before giving birth. FX that the rest of your pregnancy goes as quickly as possible!

[jewel441]

Major hugs and I definitely feel you. I have been prepping for a med free birth and now I may not even get to go into labor at all if they can't get baby head down. I definitely have good days and bad days. It's really hard to focus on the good things sometimes. At the end of the day we all know a healthy baby is the only thing that matters but it still hurts when things aren't going right. I feel like all I do right now is go to the doctor, the Chiro and the hospital. The end is so hard, but soon we will all have the grand prize and hopefully forget the rough last weeks!

The long pain is no joke I spent weeks 34-37 in such unbearable pain until they were able to partially flip the baby last week. I was miserable and could barely move and just so ready to be done. It definitely messes with your mind. I basically lived in the shower (which I highly recommend, but seriously I do not want to see our water bill, I was pretty much showering every 2 hours).

I do hope you find some pain relief, it's so hard to keep a positive outlook when you are just suffering with no end in sight.

FX the baby decides to come soon and that you can have the birth you wanted! Also just bc you have Pitocin doesn't necessarily mean you have to have an epidural. Keep an open mind to all options and evaluate the pain as you go. All the hugs!

[SheilaTheTank]

Mar 2, 2016 17:24:21 GMT -5 miggg said:

I usually try not to be a Debbie downer because I truly am incredibly grateful to have this healthy, full-term baby cooking but.. misery loves company and I am so f*cking miserable. Anyone else's body torturing them and want to commiserate?

My SPD and back pain had been under control until last week when baby decided to curl up in the back of my uterus with his head pressed against my spine. Between that and the SPD I'm now in so much constant pain that I can barely move. I basically lie in my pregnancy pillow and sit on my exercise ball and cry while DH handles everything with the house and DS.

Then yesterday it got even more shittastic at my weekly check-up. My vitals have been slowly deteriorating over the last couple weeks and now the midwives are concerned and want baby out ASAP. Looks like a possible pre-e diagnosis, waiting to hear back. Either way they want to do a NST and have me doing every natural induction technique out there. (So far I've used Clary Sage oil, the breast pump, DD, hypnosis, raspberry leaf tea, acupressure, and acupuncture tomorrow)

No luck yet and I'm really stressed out that I'm going to risk out of the birth center and be faced with a medical induction at a hospital. Which I will 100% do if it needs to be done but I've heard Pitocin makes your contractions hurt like hell and the whole idea is terrifying and not what I've been mentally preparing for for 9 months!

TL;DR: My body sucks and I need this baby out now.

Oh hello life twin.

*hugs* it sucks. It really fucking sucks especially when your thoughts are conflicting between wanting to not die from pain and doing what's best for baby.

If it makes you feel better I had to throw out any type of birth plan because of hypertension. I could only labor in bed and on my side. Also I needed pitocin because I wasn't progressing at all, so even though my water broke I still had to be induced. So I said fuck it and got an epidural.

What I'm trying to say is that very little of this entire process is within our control. Even if its not what you originally planned on, everything will be ok. You will feel so much better,both physically and mentally, once your child is in your arms. Take a second to step back, accept your feelings, and then do what needs to be done. You will feel so much better,both physically and mentally, once your child is in your arms.

[miggg]

Boo, sorry you're going through the same carissa325. I'm March 10th so I guess that's the good news if I do end up having an induction, baby's definitely ready. Would be a much different situation if we were looking at pre-e prior to full term. When's your EDD?

That's really encouraging to hear sunshineshades! I do have an amazing support team and did hypnosis training so that gives me some hope that I can salvage some of my birth plan even with "plan B".

[katespade]

I'm sorry.

I'm also finding it painful to walk. She's very low and it's so frustrating. And I snore now so my H keeps waking me up because I'm waking him up.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you that things go okay.

[FunniBunni]

I feel you. I was MISERABLE last time. I relied on my H, and my kids to do EVERYTHING for me. My mom even came over every day in the last 6 weeks or so take care of me. I was begging and pleading for an induction, and at 39 weeks, my bishop score was high enough, so they let me.

While an induction isn't ideal, I gotta tell you, the MOMENT my epidural wore off (after birth) I felt amazing! I could walk again, I had so much energy, and I just felt like I'd been let out of prison. I feel very fortunate that I haven't had a similar experience this time- but the end is in sight. And if you DO need an induction (I've had 4 now) just know that at the end, you'll have a baby, AND will feel so much better. Good luck!!!

[sunshineshades]

Mar 2, 2016 18:40:18 GMT -5 miggg said:

Boo, sorry you're going through the same carissa325. I'm March 10th so I guess that's the good news if I do end up having an induction, baby's definitely ready. Would be a much different situation if we were looking at pre-e prior to full term. When's your EDD?

That's really encouraging to hear sunshineshades! I do have an amazing support team and did hypnosis training so that gives me some hope that I can salvage some of my birth plan even with "plan B".

I really think with that you'll be good. I mean obviously for every person it is different but I think of you go in with the mind set you can do it you'll be surprised.
I'll be honest through my labour I remember thinking "why isn't anyone offering me an epidural!" .. well because I said not to lol. And I refused to ask for one so those two things together helped me stick to my plan.

And at the end of the day when you hold that baby you won't care if you got an epidural or not. I felt very ready to do it all over again once I held her. It was surreal.

[miggg]

Mar 2, 2016 18:35:25 GMT -5 jewel441 said:

I feel like all I do right now is go to the doctor, the Chiro and the hospital. The end is so hard, but soon we will all have the grand prize and hopefully forget the rough last weeks!

So much THIS! I feel like it's a revolving door of adjustments and poking and prodding and preparations mixed with uncertainty.

So sorry you had such pain and so early, that had to have been hell. I know how hard it is at 38 weeks knowing the end is near so I can't imagine it at 34 weeks. Sending all the positive vibes that they can get baby head down and let you labor. The end really is so hard and right now it feels like all there is. Hard to believe that in a few short weeks this will all be behind us!

[miggg]

Mar 2, 2016 18:36:37 GMT -5 SheilaTheTank said:

Mar 2, 2016 17:24:21 GMT -5 miggg said:

I usually try not to be a Debbie downer because I truly am incredibly grateful to have this healthy, full-term baby cooking but.. misery loves company and I am so f*cking miserable. Anyone else's body torturing them and want to commiserate?

My SPD and back pain had been under control until last week when baby decided to curl up in the back of my uterus with his head pressed against my spine. Between that and the SPD I'm now in so much constant pain that I can barely move. I basically lie in my pregnancy pillow and sit on my exercise ball and cry while DH handles everything with the house and DS.

Then yesterday it got even more shittastic at my weekly check-up. My vitals have been slowly deteriorating over the last couple weeks and now the midwives are concerned and want baby out ASAP. Looks like a possible pre-e diagnosis, waiting to hear back. Either way they want to do a NST and have me doing every natural induction technique out there. (So far I've used Clary Sage oil, the breast pump, DD, hypnosis, raspberry leaf tea, acupressure, and acupuncture tomorrow)

No luck yet and I'm really stressed out that I'm going to risk out of the birth center and be faced with a medical induction at a hospital. Which I will 100% do if it needs to be done but I've heard Pitocin makes your contractions hurt like hell and the whole idea is terrifying and not what I've been mentally preparing for for 9 months!

TL;DR: My body sucks and I need this baby out now.

Oh hello life twin.

*hugs* it sucks. It really fucking sucks especially when your thoughts are conflicting between wanting to not die from pain and doing what's best for baby.

If it makes you feel better I had to throw out any type of birth plan because of hypertension. I could only labor in bed and on my side. Also I needed pitocin because I wasn't progressing at all, so even though my water broke I still had to be induced. So I said fuck it and got an epidural.

What I'm trying to say is that very little of this entire process is within our control. Even if its not what you originally planned on, everything will be ok. You will feel so much better,both physically and mentally, once your child is in your arms. Take a second to step back, accept your feelings, and then do what needs to be done. You will feel so much better,both physically and mentally, once your child is in your arms.

So sorry you had to go through that, labor is hard enough without be constrained to bed and in one position. Couldn't have been easy on you. You are a rock star for handling it all and I hope you're getting all the rest and newborn cuddles you deserve now.

Bolded is so true though, thanks for that perspective from the other side. Although I know this is temporary, right now it somehow feels like I will always be in this pain with this uncertainty. It is good to remind myself that this will be over soon and, either way, I will have my baby boy in my arms.

[adorebel]

I'm so sorry, lady! Don't feel guilty about feeling done. I told one of my friends 3 days before LO was born that I wanted to cut my skin off and crawl out of it because I was so uncomfortable and over it. I am sending fortitude your way! I hope you get the natural birth you want, too - I know how hard it is to manage expectations and hopes around that. Hugs, woman.

[FunniBunni]

Officially joining your pity party. I think I might have SPD too. Wednesday I was fine. Today, I just want to curl up in bed and cry. Which I can't do, because my hips hurt so much, but rolling over is agony. WTF happened???

3:33am. Dreading going to work. I'm calling my doc. Looks like today might be my last day unless I can get something to help me through the day.

Nevermind the house and 4 kids I also have to manage!!

[miggg]

Mar 4, 2016 6:35:48 GMT -5 FunniBunni said:

Officially joining your pity party. I think I might have SPD too. Wednesday I was fine. Today, I just want to curl up in bed and cry. Which I can't do, because my hips hurt so much, but rolling over is agony. WTF happened???

3:33am. Dreading going to work. I'm calling my doc. Looks like today might be my last day unless I can get something to help me through the day.

Nevermind the house and 4 kids I also have to manage!!

Ugh, I'm sorry. Baby must have changed positions on you to inflict maximum torture like mine did. I'm not going in to work at all today as I can barely move. It sucks. And I only have a house and 1 kid to manage!

[carissa325]

Mar 4, 2016 8:51:00 GMT -5 miggg said:

Mar 4, 2016 6:35:48 GMT -5 FunniBunni said:

Officially joining your pity party. I think I might have SPD too. Wednesday I was fine. Today, I just want to curl up in bed and cry. Which I can't do, because my hips hurt so much, but rolling over is agony. WTF happened???

3:33am. Dreading going to work. I'm calling my doc. Looks like today might be my last day unless I can get something to help me through the day.

Nevermind the house and 4 kids I also have to manage!!

Ugh, I'm sorry. Baby must have changed positions on you to inflict maximum torture like mine did. I'm not going in to work at all today as I can barely move. It sucks. And I only have a house and 1 kid to manage!

I have to make it through work today and all next week unless baby girl decides to come early. It's going to be a long 11 days!

[FunniBunni]

Mar 4, 2016 8:57:49 GMT -5 carissa325 said:

Mar 4, 2016 8:51:00 GMT -5 miggg said:

Ugh, I'm sorry. Baby must have changed positions on you to inflict maximum torture like mine did. I'm not going in to work at all today as I can barely move. It sucks. And I only have a house and 1 kid to manage!

I have to make it through work today and all next week unless baby girl decides to come early. It's going to be a long 11 days!

14 days. 14 more work days. I don't know if I can make it through TODAY.

[katespade]

Mar 4, 2016 14:38:43 GMT -5 FunniBunni said:

Mar 4, 2016 8:57:49 GMT -5 carissa325 said:

I have to make it through work today and all next week unless baby girl decides to come early. It's going to be a long 11 days!

14 days. 14 more work days. I don't know if I can make it through TODAY.

I have 3 weeks from today.  Today is killing me.  I dont know how I'm going to do 15 more work days.

[carissa325]

Mar 4, 2016 14:38:43 GMT -5 FunniBunni said:

Mar 4, 2016 8:57:49 GMT -5 carissa325 said:

I have to make it through work today and all next week unless baby girl decides to come early. It's going to be a long 11 days!

14 days. 14 more work days. I don't know if I can make it through TODAY.

I know. Every step is a struggle at this point. And DH works all weekend so I'll be home alone with a toddler. Please baby girl, come before the 15th!

[FunniBunni]

Mar 4, 2016 14:44:59 GMT -5 katespade said:

Mar 4, 2016 14:38:43 GMT -5 FunniBunni said:

14 days. 14 more work days. I don't know if I can make it through TODAY.

I have 3 weeks from today.  Today is killing me.  I dont know how I'm going to do 15 more work days.

I'm lucky. Spring break starts on Friday. (WHY? No idea. Not complaining.) I could really use that check.

Today has been better though. I've been wearing my belly band, maybe that is helpful?

[FunniBunni]

Mar 4, 2016 8:51:00 GMT -5 miggg said:

Mar 4, 2016 6:35:48 GMT -5 FunniBunni said:

Officially joining your pity party. I think I might have SPD too. Wednesday I was fine. Today, I just want to curl up in bed and cry. Which I can't do, because my hips hurt so much, but rolling over is agony. WTF happened???

3:33am. Dreading going to work. I'm calling my doc. Looks like today might be my last day unless I can get something to help me through the day.

Nevermind the house and 4 kids I also have to manage!!

Ugh, I'm sorry. Baby must have changed positions on you to inflict maximum torture like mine did. I'm not going in to work at all today as I can barely move. It sucks. And I only have a house and 1 kid to manage!

And now you have the best reason to not go into work!!! ❤️❤️❤️