I'm back (from The Dump and a loss) **update**
Feb 4, 2015 14:04:37 GMT -5
Post by chiapet on Feb 4, 2015 14:04:37 GMT -5
I posted quite regularly on TTGP on TB before I got my BFP in December. I am formerly known as "RainbowsandUnicorns" and this was my avatar.
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Anyways, I began spotting lightly a week ago and then began passing blood clots on Monday at 12w1d. Following my doctors orders I took myself to Urgent Care. Unfortunately I was alone the entire time because my husband was 3 hours away for work. I've never felt so alone. The doctor informed me, after two ultrasounds, that I am experiencing an inevitable miscarriage. I felt like I wasn't in my body when she told me and I kept repeating "What? What?" because it just did not seem real.
I feel numb and distraught at times and then anger takes over. I have an appointment with my doctor today at 2:30 pm, so we are anxious to see what advice she has for us. Sorry if I am rambling and this is all over the place, this is still so new to me.
Sad to lose my baby, but I am glad I have you ladies.
***Update***
My doctor gave me some information regarding grief and what to expect. She did not prepare me entirely and tell me about passing the sac or possibly having contractions. I am doing this naturally and letting my body do it's thing, but it sure is nerve racking just waiting. They will monitor my HCG levels and make sure they reach zero, so I will have blood drawn every few days. My HCG levels are currently at 16707 which is consistent with being 7-8 weeks along. It's been 5 weeks since the baby stopped growing and I am just ready to let this all go. I hope it happens soon.
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Anyways, I began spotting lightly a week ago and then began passing blood clots on Monday at 12w1d. Following my doctors orders I took myself to Urgent Care. Unfortunately I was alone the entire time because my husband was 3 hours away for work. I've never felt so alone. The doctor informed me, after two ultrasounds, that I am experiencing an inevitable miscarriage. I felt like I wasn't in my body when she told me and I kept repeating "What? What?" because it just did not seem real.
I feel numb and distraught at times and then anger takes over. I have an appointment with my doctor today at 2:30 pm, so we are anxious to see what advice she has for us. Sorry if I am rambling and this is all over the place, this is still so new to me.
Sad to lose my baby, but I am glad I have you ladies.
***Update***
My doctor gave me some information regarding grief and what to expect. She did not prepare me entirely and tell me about passing the sac or possibly having contractions. I am doing this naturally and letting my body do it's thing, but it sure is nerve racking just waiting. They will monitor my HCG levels and make sure they reach zero, so I will have blood drawn every few days. My HCG levels are currently at 16707 which is consistent with being 7-8 weeks along. It's been 5 weeks since the baby stopped growing and I am just ready to let this all go. I hope it happens soon.